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died every night

to let her breathe

I never believed in Angels, Demons not even while I started reading the book by Dan Brown. But now when I think of it I'm really starting to believe in it.

Angel......

Who told Angels are always innocent, fragile. Keep it down a notch babes, there's nothing like that. I found the cure for my pain in her.

My cure, my salvation, my everything and anything, my Angel,my Queen.

The way she walked into my life and took over my whole existence the moment I started believing in magic, my Adi.

"She will be so proud and happy for you" Dad's words cut me off from my thoughts.

Dad... This man here is everything to me maybe for the world both of us are the ruthless businessmen. But the bond I share with this man is something. Relations need not be always blood related. A man becomes a Father not just by delivering a sperm but it takes a lot of pain to do justice to that word. Both my Aunt and Uncle never asked me to call them Mama or Dad, but they showed me they are worth of the title, they earned it.

"I know, she will be." I replied thinking of my Mom. She always like people who took their stand like my Adi.

"I seriously thought you'll never be able to feel all alive after all that happened to your Mom and you. But I think all it took was the time to find the right one." He spoke bringing back memories, my first love.

The reason I no longer believe in love, but I think that's gonna change pretty soon or even changed I don't know.

The nights we spent together, her scent, smile, glares, failed cooking attempts, earings, accessories, kajal, hair....... I felt tears welling up in my eyes. The pain is still there. God how much I yearn to go back in time and live all those moments all over again.

How much I love her.

The first time I saw Adi I felt seeing her again. As if she was brought back from behind the veil of time.

But with time I knew Adi was not her but a lot more.

And moreover love have only brought pain in my life. Love was the reason for my Mom's every loss. So I'm pretty sure I will never use the word 'love' in my relationship with Adi.

I don't know weather what I feel for Adi is love. Because I don't think what I feel for my Queen is something that can be confined in just a word.

"Beta, I'll never blame you for moving away from India or leaving the place that had both of your memories, this house. But make sure the shadow of your past will never fall on Arundhathi. I know you'll never let that happen. But I felt it's my responsibility to tell you. And you should tell her everything. A big part of a relationship is transparency." He explained.

"Dad, I don't want anyone in the media to know Arundhathi is my wife. The last thing I want is she being stressed over by the media from all around the world. You know how nasty it gets. Dad, I don't know how Arundhathi will react if something happens. Take care of her for me. Teach her everything which you taught me. Make her as efficient as me. Who knows maybe she'll surpass me?" I completed.

"You were always a dumb one. I'm sure my daughter is good." Dad said while shoving me by my shoulder.

I glared at him but he continued.

"I will take care of her, I think life is giving me a second chance to protect someone. This is the least I can do for your Mother." He always had this inhibition like he was not able to protect us. I always tried to ease it for him but he never listens.

My Mom did a lot of good deeds in her small lifetime. Veracity Internationals was my sweat sure but all the core members were people who stayed back believing in me just because I'm

Anuradhaji's son.

The blessings given by your parents comes to you in way you can't even imagine. Their presence is not nessecarily needed.

Parents...... I knew Mama was hoping me to ask for his name. But trust me I never want to know that because as I told just being the sperm donor doesn't make you a Father.

A Father is the one who catches you when you fall. The strength you know will be there to protect you no matter what. A person who will be in crowd when the crowd praises you adorning a proud look. The shoulder which you can lean on at any time of the day.

Ajay Shekhawat was more of Dad for me than anyone else in this world.

We say God sends angels to protect us but no one realises those angels are none other than your parents. A fact most of realise very late.

"We will leave in the evening only." Dad's words cut through my revive.

Yes I'm leaving, Adi needs space, I know it's not my place to decide for her but I know she needs it. More than her I need it. Since I got a new hope to live I'm nowhere going to spoil it. We will start a life once she settles down and I get used to the fact that I'm going to live again. I'm going to help her build her dream, catch her when she falls, be with her. A thing which I didn't do for my Mom.

After all that I'm sure she will come back to me because

I'm Adi's Jay and she is Jay's Adi.

Every guy's first love is his Mother

For me it still remains a mystery how this much pure relations gets tarnished or gets 'old' in the waves of time.

And what are you still doing here get in touch with them and do that once in blue moon smile to them.

Love