We finish setting up two card tables and moving some of the living room furniture more up against the wall. Everybody was already here except for Jordan. He explain he was with his girl, who he was bringing to the kickback. Once we were done we all sat back smoking a blunt. playing music, and eating pizza before anyone came.

After an hour and some change people started arolling through. It wasn't long before some of our LBs and some of the Ks where packing out our townhouse. I was in the kitchen with King and Zucca talking with some of my home girls when Jordan walked in with his arm around Gianni and her LSs behind her.

"I know you lying!" Zucca yelled

"Fuck you nigga" Jordan laughed as he came over and dapped us up

"Gianni you really have this nigga a chance?" I laughed hugging her "He just as bad as me"

"Bitch fuck you!" He pushed me "I ain't shit like you"

"Jordan is well aware that I'm crazy and will fuck his life up if he play with me" she shook her head "I'm finna get a drink"

She walked off and went over to Essence who was on her phone looking uninterested in the festivities. I smirked at her before turning my attention back to Jordan.

"Why you ain't tell me—"

"We been kicking it for a minute but I mean I thought y'all noticed"

"Did you tell her—"

"Of course not! But if it ever come out I don't know shit about it my dude! Y'all know Gianni crazy!"

"She not—"

"No nigga she is certifiable! And apparently Essence can be worse" he shrugged "She always been chill around me but Gianni and Kira always joking about her being the craziest of the line"

"She can't be that bad" Zucca chuckled "Kira definitely the worst of the twelve with her crazy ass"

"Aye I tried to warn you" he shook his head

"I got it man"

I smirked before heading over towards Essence, Gianni, and Kira.

"Hey Sis" I hugged Kira

"Hey bro" she shook her head

"What's good ma" I nodded at Essence

She shook her head and nodded back. Gianni laughed while pulling Kira away who gave me a thumbs up.

"Still don't want to get to know me"

"What do you get out of this?" She put her phone in her pocket before looking at me "I mean it's not like we saw each other before yesterday sooooo—"

"I can see a beautiful girl and wanted to get to know her better?"

"But why?"

"Well honestly you're beautiful and I just wanted to talk to you. Thought maybe we could be friends"

"Friends? Riiiiiiiggggghhhht" she laughed

"I'm serious Ess! Plus I always wanted to meet my club"

She smirked at me before looking down. She might be chocolate but I knew she was blushing about it. As I told them it'll be a piece of cake.

"I don't need new friends Pharaoh. Thanks though"

She walked away with her hands in her back pocket. Baby girl was the definition of hate to see her go but love to watch her leave. I was so caught up in watching her walk out to the backyard I didn't notice Harmony walk up to me. I been smashing Harmony since last year before I went on line. She was the only chick from the game I kept messing with. We had an understanding and she knew I wasn't trying to be her man. But of course she would slip up sometimes. I just wouldn't talk to her for a minute until she got her shit together. This was actually our first time speaking in two or three weeks.

"Sup Harm"

"Can we talk?"

"Yeah ma"

We walked to my room with her following me. I shot Zucca a text to look out for King while I was with Harmony. Once he responded I sat down beside her in my bed and put my focus on her.

"What's good"

"Just don't freak out"

"What's wrong?"

"I know we just do us but... Rao I'm pregnant"

"Damn" I froze looking at her

"I know you mess around but I've only been dealing with you Pharaoh—"

"Shit I know that"

She smiled before looking down with a sadden face.

"What do you want to do?" I asked

"I don't know. I can't go home with a baby Pharaoh... but I don't know if I can..."

"Well" I sighed "I'll support whatever choice you make"

"Even if I don't keep it?"

"Of course! We should've been more cautious. I don't want you feeling like you alone. We in this together. Neither one of us are ready. I know that. So whatever you choose we'll rock with it"

"I got an appointment on Tuesday"

"I'll go with you"

"Rao I don't want this to be the end of us. I know you not trying to do a relationship and I'm not asking for that... but I do have feelings for you and I can't see myself letting you go"

"We gone be good ma"

I pulled her into a hug before convincing her to go home. I walked her and her sister to the door before heading to the back to think. I've never fucked up this big. Honestly I've never been for abortions but I would rock with whatever decision she made.

I sat on the back steps and pulled out my last blunt before lighting up. I was so out of it I didn't notice Essence was sitting on my work out bench only a few feet away. When I did notice her she was just looking at me. I chuckled before shaking my head.

"Sorry I just—"

"You good" she smiled "You okay though?"

"I'm fine" I lied

"Your energy says you lying" she shrugged "It's cool I don't open up to strangers either. I just wanted to check in case you wanted to talk"

"I thought you didn't want to get to know me"

"You said you wanted to be friends... I can do friends if you meant it"

"I did" I smirked "Come here"

"For what?"

"So we can talk without being loud and I can pass you the blunt"

"Who said I smoke" she got up and walk toward me

"Do you?"

"Ehhh"

I laughed and pulled her to sit on the step below me between my legs. I took a pull before passing her the blunt. She smirked and took it before taking a puff. We passed it back and forth until it was gone. I was already high and only getting higher and shorty took off halfway through. She leaned with her head on my right leg and sighed.

"So what's wrong?"

"Shouldn't we talk about surface shit to get to know each other first?" I laughed

She shrugged.

"I don't know if I even want to talk about it"

"You tell me your stress and I'll tell you mine" she leaned back to look at me "Promise?"

I look up and notice her pinky not far from my face. I laughed before locking mine with hers. She pulled our hands to her mouth and kissed the top. I couldn't help but chuckle and repeat her action. She let go and went pack to her position with her head on my thigh.

"I been rocking with this chick... she came at me and said she's pregnant" I shook my head and sighed "I know it's mine... well I'm sure it's mine. She may have entertained other dudes her and there but she ain't did it in a minute"

"What are y'all going to do?"

"Honestly, I left it up to her..."

"Why?"

"I've always felt like it's a woman's body"

"Do you want her to keep it or get rid of it?"

"I don't know... my dad always told me if it happen then I'd know what to do"

"That means listen to your heart. Don't over think it. So again... what do you want?"

"I don't want ole girl to get rid of it, but shouldn't I support whatever decision she makes?"

"Honestly I would say yes but that's not fair. It's just as much about you as it is her. You should be honest with her and talk it out. Maybe y'all can work it out"

"I don't know" I rubbed my hands down my face "I get the feeling if I say anything she'll assume I want more than the baby and I don't... not with her"

"Why not? I mean you fucking her"

"Fucking is just that. We smash and we kick it. She's my friend but we satisfy each other's bodily desires"

"So you don't want more?"

"I mean I do. Just not with her. She let me do and say what ever I want. She just takes what I give her. I don't want to sound like I'm using her but shit she lets me"

"Well people can be emotionally not your type" she shrugged "It's how y'all look at a girl and automatically know you want to smash but nothing more. We also have that feeling about a persons personality and intellect"

"Never thought about it like that"

"Because you only look skin deep when dealing with women. No woman has probably ever put up a fight with you. Am I right?"

"You're wrong" I smirked down at her "You did"

"You said you wanted to be friends—"

"I do but a friendship won't stop attraction"

I shrugged my shoulders before moving my hand to play in her hair. We stayed quiet for a minute and it gave me time to think. Essence was smart and open. It felt good talking to someone who wasn't thinking with a dick or lust. It was like having a conversation with my sister or mom.