Ella's POV

Sitting alone at the corner of the park where there are fewer people. I stare straight into the blue sky as I mindlessly play with the end of my hair. The park is empty as it's still too early in the morning. I have the peace of mind that I seek here as I drone in on my thoughts.

It has been two weeks since I caught James cheating on me and I still feel hurt whenever I think about it. I try my best not to talk about what happen or even think about it but sometimes I just can't help it.

I guess it not that easy to forget something or pretend it never happened.

I can't take my mind off of that slut.

And you know what hurts me more when I think about it?

That slut had a perfect body with the curves, a pretty face, her long waves like hair almost touching her butt and she looked so beautiful. I on the other hand didn't have any curves or pretty faces. I couldn't compare her with me in any terms. Neither beauty non-anything else. I chuckle humorlessly at the thought.

I keep blaming myself for whatever happened that day.

What did I expect?

Though I knew James loved me but deep deep down somewhere a small portion of me always knew James would eventually leave me. It was only a matter of time until he was bored with me and move to his next object of interest.

I was so dumb to think back then at college that James will actually change for me. Back at school, James was a player and had his ways with almost every lady on campus. That changed when we met in our final year. We fell in love and he changed for us, or so I thought or was made to believe, that he changed. He wanted to give us a chance and that meant letting go of his player lifestyle. He did just that and I was happy he did, everything was fine until that day...

I was ugly and I didn't have a perfect body, besides he could date anybody he wants.

James was the handsome guy that every lady would want to ever be with.

I can't wrap my mind around how long it has been going on.

Did James ever loved me in the first place?

Or he just wanted to get into my pants and because he didn't get that he decided to cheat

I didn't know how long I could keep him to myself. I knew it's was so much for him but everything seems fine or at least I had thought. Our relationship did not involve sex. The higher we went was hugs and kisses, Nothing deep. For two years of our relationship, no sex, and we were okay. Sex is something I don't want to rush into till I am ready for and James promised to wait till I feel like it.

Deep down I wanted to ensure he has changed and I wasn't opening my legs to the wrong person. He did prove to be changed but I was waiting for the right time. Two years of no sex is too much torture for an ex-player and I knew he was trying hard, I just didn't expect him to...

"What is a pretty lady doing, crying at such an early hour." I'm brought back to life by some strange voice

This wasn't a voice I have heard before and people hardly come here especially at the early hour in the morning.

I lowered my head and came to face with a cute looking guy who was staring back at me with a small smile playing at the end of his lips. He was wearing white shorts and a top with a towel around his neck. I assume he has been jogging or something.

I didn't even realize I was crying. I quickly wipe the tears streaming down my cheeks.

I also realize what I thought when my eyes landed on this stranger seconds back.

Oh, wait! Cute

I didn't just call him that.

How can I refer to someone I just met as cute when I'm still crying over my boyfriend... I mean my ex-boyfriend. I whisper yell in my head.

Again he didn't have to know my boyfriend cheated on me right? I sigh

"Sorry" he spoke again before I could respond to his question, offering me a sad smile.

Oh my! can this guy read my mind or something?

"You thought out loud. I couldn't help but hear you. I'm sorry" he answered my unspoken question. he must have seen my puzzled face.

"I'm so sorry I didn't mean for you to hear that." I lowered my head feeling embarrassed after having spilled my secrets to a complete stranger.

"Oh come on princess, there is no need putting a frown on that pretty face of yours." I smiled at that.

"I'm Jack by the way," he said extending his hand towards me.

"Ella" I replied shaking his hand.

"Nice to meet you, Ella"

"Me too" I responded.

"Ella, any guy who cheats on someone as lovely as you, then he is an asshole and doesn't deserve you okay" he added

"Thank you. I will try and keep that in mind." I replied to him.

Did he call me lovely? He barely knew me, we barely knew each other. we just met five minutes ago. I shrugged it off mentally.

We talk for some time, getting to know one another and of course, he took my number.

"I should be heading back home," I told him as I lift myself off the swing.

"It was really nice meeting you, hope to see you again some other time." He said.

"Hope to see you too," I said much to my surprise.

I really appreciate the fact that he didn't flirt with me so I don't think it will be bad to meet again. I enjoyed his company. He seems like a good guy.

"Bye," I said before I turn and walk away leaving Jack still standing there.

Maybe he wanted to ensure I was safe before he left.

Seriously Ella you just met the guy. Why would he do that?

My place wasn't far from the park so whenever I'm bored or need to think about my life I just walk there and try to think things through and work out a solution.

Now when I look back at the park I realize that it's being a long time since I have to be to that part of the park.

My secret part of the park where I go to sort out my life. I called it my thinking spot.

Which only means that my life was on track until two weeks ago.

How I wish I could erase that part of my life.

Or I hadn't decided to visit James on that day out of all days.

Or things had happened differently.

And I was able to spend a wonderful time with James that day.

Or that day didn't even exist in my life in the first place.

But who was I kidding?

Of course, I couldn't forget what happened or the fact that it hurts.

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