Whoever once told that "Shower is a great place to think" was not wrong. It indeed was and I am in that situation at the moment. I rarely did this, if I wanted to think of anything, I would sit on a bed and just wonder.

However, I wasn't getting any solutions to my endless doubts.

I cannot have a crush on Jasper. It felt wrong to have a crush on him and I had no reason why.

It wasn't about me thinking that all guys are the same; there was a part of me that wasn't letting me know that this was absolutely fine.

But then again this would be a crush. Just a crush.

I'll begin to fantasise on everything and at the end be crushed because that is totally one reason why it's called a "crush". You are bound to be crushed. It will be like any one-sided winter fling and won't have any meaning.

Maybe I was totally feeling this because he's the only one in the house who knows exactly why I am spending Christmas with the family and because he's making sure that I have a good time this Christmas. That could be the reason why I was feeling this.

I switched off my shower and reached for the robe. I put my hair into a towel and walked out of the bathroom.

On a typical Friday afternoon, I would be either attending classes or I would under my cosy blanket fast asleep. This, however, was not a typical Friday, it was anything but a typical Friday. Today morning, Jesse decided to help Jasper make breakfast because Sarah had to reach work a little earlier than usual. After today morning, I knew one thing for sure.

Jesse was never meant be in a kitchen also found out that Jasper is a good cook.

He looked gorgeous when he cooked, flipped the pancakes and made sure that his brothers and sister had a good share of their breakfast.

Minute by minute, I was falling for Jasper.

I'll have to blame the lady at the cafe and Emma for this.

After dressing and drying my hair, I head over to the twins room because Jessica wanted my help in making cards. I softly knocked on their door and Jessica let me in.

I enjoyed cutting out snowflakes and sticking them on the cards just like the picture from Pinterest we just found. Spending time with Jessica only got me wondering how amazing it would have been if I had a younger sibling or even an older one. When I thought of the life I have, it would be nice to have company or not let anybody else have an ignored life.

I pushed all of these thoughts away and let myself enjoy the time I was having with Jessica.

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"Okay brothers and sisters. Holly, don't mind me calling you my sister." She welcomed us all as we took our seats on the soft carpet of their "movie room." I respond with a smile to Jessica and she smiled.

"Officially from tonight, we're going to watch a Christmas like we always do but no more "The Holiday " or "Love Actually" because we have a new member, Welcome James, in the room and Michael is not here. We're sticking to good funny family Christmas movies." We were all dressed in our pyjamas. James was also here with us, he was sitting on Jasper's lap. Juliet did not want to be part of it; Jasper told me that she wouldn't join us even if Michael would be there.

"Let's start with A Christmas Carol." Jasper suggests.

"I like that idea." Jesse seconds it. "That's a good pick, brother. What do you think Holly?" Jessica looked at me.

"Sounds good." I smile and lie.

Yes, I haven't seen or read the Christmas Carol because well, I do not like reading much. Although I've heard of the name because all the girlfriends I had in school would sit and talk of this after every winter break.

Jesse sat on Jasper's left and Jessica sat on my right which meant that Jasper and I were sitting in the centre.

The movie begins and I could hear Juliet was on the phone in the other room. Peter and Sarah were off to bed because they were really tired, leaving Jasper to make sure that everybody got to bed after we were done watching the movie.

Hot chocolate in mugs and a large bowl of popcorn sat in front of us, eventually, Jesse would reach for the popcorn every now and then but I didn't bother about what was going around, I got hooked on the story the movie was showing me.

Why was it that I never thought of watching this movie? Sure I've watched The Holiday and Love Actually and scoffed on it because what they showed was something unreal to me. My dating life was like an almost typical bad boy and almost good girl story but the only thing is that the bad boy remained a bad boy and never had the sweet side of him.

After an hour and a half, the movie ended. James was asleep on Jasper's lap, Jessica and Jesse were sleepy too. Jasper carried James and left the room to get the little boy to bed. The twins told me good night and left for their room. I carefully picked up the tray of empty hot chocolate mugs and the bowl.

Slowly without making much noise, I climbed down the small set of the staircase in front of me. I walked into the kitchen and started washing them without creating a mess.

After washing each of the mugs, spoons and the bowl, I set them on the side to dry. I washed my hand again and turned around, I saw Jasper sitting on the kitchen counter.

This boy loves sitting on the kitchen counter a lot.

"I thought you went to sleep," I say as I wiped my hands dry on a kitchen towel. "I was, then I remembered the mugs and I found them missing in room." He tells me. "So you came to see where it disappeared." He nodded his head.

"Well then, I'm off to bed now. See you when its daylight." I say and begin to walk out but he stopped me by saying my name.

"I just wanted to know how you the movie was for you." He asks me.

"It was good. I've only heard of it, never really thought of watching it." I reply as I turn around to see him looking at me. "So this was the first time you've watched the Christmas Carol?" I nod my head.

"Then you haven't watched The Holiday or Love Actually?" I chuckle. "I had and still have sappy friends so yes, I've watched those," I tell him. "I see." He got up from the counter and walked towards me.

"I'm going to call you Scrooge for a bit." He says and walked past me. I switched off the lights in the kitchen and followed him. "Why would you call me Scrooge?" I ask him. "I'm not Scrooge. I don't hate Christmas." I justify.

"You're not that kind of Scrooge, not the mean Scrooge. He never had a good experience in Christmas hence he never understood Christmas. You're a little like that, yeah. You've not had a very good experience for Christmas. You've heard of the tale but never read it or watched it. You're a Scrooge, but you won't be Scrooge for long Holly." He explains.

"I'm not Scrooge or any kind of Scrooge." I defend, he laughed.

"Whatever will give you a good sleep Holly. Still, though, you will be a Scrooge for me and I will call you so."

"Don't you dare call me that loud," I warned him.

"No promises, Holly Anne." He chuckled and climbed the stairs. I sigh and climbed the stairs.

Jasper like every other night waited in front of his door. I walk past him and I stood in front of my door, I look at him he was already looking at me.

"Good night Jasper," I say and turned the doorknob of my door.

"Good night Scrooge." I cringe at that, I heard him laugh and then I heard the door close.

Scrooge.

Out of all the possible names, he could call me,

He found Scrooge.