I'm out of my fucking mind. I really am. One minute I was ready to cuss her out, but the next she was saying all the things I wanted. On top of that, I was pouting like a little baby.

I don't care for the explanation now, I just want her. Just for tonight. Words aside until tomorrow.

I press Nikki against the door of my bedroom, catching her by surprise I'm sure. My head ducks down to her neck, my lips already attacking her delicate skin that I can't get enough of.

"Colten..." She moans, her head tilting to the side so I have more access to her beautiful neck. "We-we need to talk."

"Not now, baby," I refuse, my lips sucking harshly at her skin earning a lust filled moan. "Words tomorrow. Tonight your body."

I don't want it to seem like I'm using her, but I think we both need this. Just forget about the fucking world for one night and then we can figure out what we're going to do in the morning. I don't care if this makes sense or not, it's what we need.

"Okay," she breathily agrees and that's enough for me to lose control. I squeeze her bottom earning the response I want before lifting her up. My lips find hers in a heated tango, the taste of her driving my senses wild. I want to pleasure her so bad it hurts.

She's so delicate as I slide her shirt off, pushing her down on my bed. I nearly lose all the self control I have left when her big brown eyes stare up at me innocently. I tear my shirt off at an insane speed and glide back down to her. My jean clad bulge rubs against her cotton pajama pants making a beautiful moan fall from her lips. Fucking music to my ears.

I don't deserve this. I really fucking don't.

"Just this time, baby," I whisper, my lips back on hers. My tongue slides into her mouth with ease, tasting every inch of her, memorizing everything. "Let me make you feel good."

I look into her eyes, seeing the love she carries with her and I'm pretty sure mine look the same. And when she nods, my heart leaps with joy.

I take my time in trailing my mouth down the column of her neck, down her collarbone and the valley of her breasts. She arches her back in aid for me to unclasp her bra, which I throw God knows where.

With threaded fingers in my hair, Nikki moans with bliss as I pepper kisses down her cleavage and her stomach.

"Colten..." She gasps, my tongue swirling around her milky skin that I can never get enough of.

"Don't be afraid to be as loud as you want," I whisper, my eyes staying on her to gauge her reaction as I slip off her panties and pants. Her eyes remain on my movements, my hands spreading her legs apart. With my eyes attached to hers, I lower my mouth to her perfect mound.

"Oh god..." She moans, her mouth falling open as I slowly move my tongue around her wetness.

She's so sweet.

"Baby," I grunt, my pants becoming increasingly tight as she lifts her hips to meet my face. I love when she does that. "More?"

"Yes, yes," she chants out of my breath. My mouth moves against her, my eyes watching every reaction on her face. When I suck her throbbing bud into my mouth, her eyes nearly roll into the back of her skull. I groan.

"Colt, Colt, Colt, Colt..." It's a chant. It's a fucking chant that has my tongue moving faster against her clīt and my mouth sucking harder. Her hips rotate against my mouth aiding in her pleasure, which I love. Due to her on coming climax, I have to hold her legs apart, her own palms pushing my face down. "Colten!"

A guttural growl resonates from my throat, my attention on her as her mouth falls open and body begins to shake. That's when she releases all over my tongue, all of her beautiful juices at the disposal of my mouth. I could pleasure her like this all day.

I slurp up all over her delicacy and find myself taking off my jeans and boxers, reaching for a foil package.

Nikki is still pretty sedated as I situate myself between her legs, but when I grip myself and rub my tip against her sensitive sex she jerks up.

"You taste so fucking good, baby," I grunt, licking my lips that are coated in her arousal. "You know that?"

I continue to rub my tip up and down her wet core, working up pulsing in my member. Fuck, it's beginning to hurt.

She moans. "Please...fuck me."

Well, this must be heaven because I slam myself into her, hearing that amazing cry of my name escape her plump lips.

"Oh, fuck, baby," I groan, my body pushing in and out of her. "You're really ready for me."

"Mm, yes..." She moans, biting her lip and scratching at my shoulders while I pick up speed.

Her tightness always amazes me, making me feel so much pleasure. And as I pump in and out of her, earning moans from that sinful mouth of hers, I feel my peak coming.

It's amazing how I finish so quickly with her. I've never taken a hell of a long time with other girls, but Nikki really gives them a run for their money.

"Colten, Colten..." She gasps and clenches around me.

"Come on, baby." My voice is strained as I try to juggle thrusting and coaxes all in one. "Let me feel you come on my c0ck."

"Uh..." She moans, her hands going to the head board as I hit that particular spot inside of her.

"Hmm," I groan. "Come, baby."

With one more thrust, Nikki lets out a cry of my name releasing on to me. I follow close behind, pumping myself in and out of her until we're both fully fulfilled.

Our breathing is ragged, filling the silent space of the room. I slowly pull out of her and lay down on her side. I know now that's over we'll have to face reality and discuss what we're going to do about the whole situation that unfolded earlier.

I know I want to be with her, that's all I've ever wanted, but what about everything else? I mean, she kissed another guy. Granted, it was Adam who came on to her, but she didn't push him away.

It hurts. Even after the moment I share with her, it still hurts.

•••

Nikki sits with her knees pulled up to her chest, both of us dressed. I sit on my chair and we stay silent. It's been like this since we got done coming, which was thirty minutes ago.

I should say something. No, I shouldn't. She should be explaining to me, not the other way around.

"Say something." I all but growl out. Now that I have no remains of alcohol in my system, I feel the anger I had earlier return. I hate it. I just want things to stop.

"I don't know what you want me to say." Fuck that. She knows exactly what I want her to say, she just refuses.

"Yes, you do," I narrow my eyes.

"I didn't kiss him," she defends.

"You sure as hell didn't pull away," I growl.

"I was shocked," she exclaims. "And you came before my mind could catch up."

I rub a hand down my stubbled jaw feeling exhausted.

"How'd you even know where I was?" She asks, her brown eyes boring into mine.

She doesn't know? I thought for sure she would've figure it out. Then again, I guess I see how she didn't.

"Angelique texted me a picture of you pressed against the field house with Adam," I tell her, feeling my fists clench at the photo I didn't want to think about.

"Whoa, whoa, wait," Nikki looks up, removing her knees from her chest. "Angelique?"

"Now really isn't the time to get mad-"

"No, not that," she scowls. "How'd she know where Adam and I were?"

I'm about to respond, when I realize I don't know the answer myself. Holy shit. How had I not thought of that?

Nikki snorts. "How did I not see this earlier?"

Same.

"So you think Adam and Angelique are working together to what? Break us up?" I question. That seems logical to me. I mean, Angelique is obsessed with me, she made that clear. And on top of that, it seems Adam still has feelings for my Nikki too.

"I guess," she shrugs. "That's why Adam looked guilty!"

"What?" When did this happen?

"When he went to kiss me he had that - that look!" She exclaims, jumping up from the bed. "That look that's just screamed guilt!"

"Okay," I nod. "So what do we do?"

Her shoulders deflate. "I don't know."

Nikki sits back down and the room becomes quiet again. I try to think of what to do next when Nikki speaks up, drawing in my attention.

"Does this mean you believe me?" She questions, her voice small. "About Adam kissing me, not the other way around?"

I stand up, walking over to where Nikki sits at the edge of my bed. I cup her face in my hands, bending down so our foreheads touch.

"I only ever wanted the truth," I say softly. "I was angry because of what I saw and the fact you didn't try to cover up what happened. Or tell me anything."

She looks away in guilt.

"I'm sorry," she sighs. "Today's been a crazy day and I had no idea how to tell you what happened."

I smile softly. "I'll always love you, know that?"

She rolls her eyes with a smile. "Yeah. And I'll always love you."

Not being able to help myself, I lean down until my lips are on Nikki's. That overwhelming feeling in my stomach is back making me push her back against the bed.

Another round.

God I love this girl.

Colten drives me home after another round of love making and I feel great. Now that I really know what happened it'll make me sleep better.

"I love you," I mumble against his lips.

"I love you," he grins, pecking my lips once before I get out of the car. When I get inside, the living room light is still on so I walk in to see why.

Jackson sits at the couch watching a recording of the Late Late show. Setting my coat on the hook, I walk over to where he sits, plopping down in the spot next to him.

It's silent for a couple minutes as we both watch the funny show, and then Jackson speaks.

"I approve."

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