BOOOOONKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!

The horn of the train brought her back from the bitter path to her past.

The cool breeze from the door of the train dropped down a degree. Maya shivered in the cold. She wrapped the scarf around her arms shielding herself but the cold breeze was too strong.

She didnt want to go back to her cabin. Knowing that adhi was waiting there. The trip down memory lane only ingnited her rage towards him.

But the cold forced her to go back. She walked towards the coupa and slowly slid the door open.

She poked her head in and saw adhi sprawled across the berth with his hands over his eyes. His chest rising and falling with equal rhythm.

Maya slowly slid across the coupa and settles down on her berth. The deaf lady had occupied the upper berth. Which left her lying stright across him.

Maya buried herself under the blanket and sighed.Sleep came to her soon and before she drifted into the land of dreams she glanced at the man across her once more.

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She hates me. She should hate me. What i did to her it doesnt deserve any forgiveness. There is nothing short of disgust in those amber eyes for me.

Still seeing her today made something flip in my heart. But she was different. Cold.

My maya was anything but the women sleeping across me. She was warm and full of light. She was my sunshine. But it makes sense that she is the way she is now.

When i met her in college it was like a blessing. A streak of sunshine into the darkness of my life. She was the only thing that made me happy.

My life started going down the highway to hell when my asshole of a father decided to walk out of our life. The moment he decided to cheat on my mom, he was dead to me.

When we were suffering to pay our rent he was getting married and having a child. Although the only good thing about it is Arya.

When we reached the brink of suicide is when arjun took things over. He became the man of the family. Quit his studies and worked as a mere mechanic to keep us fed. Even mom started working. They wouldn't let me work even when i begged them to.

Then came NLU. Law was never my passion before. But when i saw my dad taking everything we should have by right leaving my mom and us penniless thats when i decided i would pursue law. The law couldnt help us because the lawyers twisted it to their account. That would never happen again. Law would never harm us again atleast not when we're not guilty.

Getting into NLU was not easy. Even when i studied hard and tried twice on the entrance i couldnt get in. I almost lost hope. Thats when a smily faced mom said that she had arranged the admission for me. I knew it wasnt the right way.

But the thing i didnt expect is how she arranged that seat. How the principal of my college came out of my mothers bedroom half naked. When i understood what my mother did for me..... it was too much. I couldn't take the pressure of the generosity.

It resulted in me trying hang from the ceiling fan. If only arjun didnt find me i wouldn't have been living this miserable life. I wouldn't have lived this life to break maya like this.

My mom literally had to sleep with someone so that her son could enter into law school. My brother sacrificed his life to make his brother's life better.

Even if i didnt want them to do any of that they didnt give me a chance but to accept what they offered. That's how i joined NLU.

I couldn't even look at the books without seeing the half naked guy in the kitchen. But when i remember what my family did for me i couldn't just sit and brood.

So I studied. As hard as i could. Ignoring every other distraction. Only engaged in activities that gained me extra credits.

When i met jeeth and khushi, I thought i had gained good friends. But when khushi's feeling towards me changed i warned her i wouldnt reciprocate it. But that didnt seem to concern her.

But when her affection turned to obsession it was too much for me. That was the first time i raised my voice against a women. I didnt think in my wildest dreams that it would hurt her so badly that she would leave the college Or that jeeth had feelings for her.

If khushi was bad jeeth was worse. His love for her turned him into a psycho and somehow her leaving the college kind of made me his ultimate enemy. He tried everything to hurt me. Tried to pin me for cheating, tried to steal my captainship in football but nothing worked.

But my biggest weakness became his biggest trump card. Mom.

Somehow jeeth found out about mom and the principal affair. I thought he was bluffing at first but when he showed me pictures of mom and that guy.... I dont even wanna think about it. I should have known jeeth was a born pervert.

With that pictures he was blackmailing me all that time. I was his lap dog.

Things had slowed down for me when Taniya sharma and her friend pooja Mehta became his new target. But soon enough he got bored of them and came back to my case.

Every victory of mine or every high score i achieved pissed him off. I was tired of his bullshit and was about to quit NLU when my sunshine entered my life. Maya.

The first thing i noticed about her are the scars on her arms. That alone showed me she was a troubled child. Propably family. Isnt it always family?

It was like staring into a mirror for me.I recognised her brokeness the moment i saw her.

But i wasnt the only one who saw her. When jeeth pushed her i knew she got hurt just for looking at me. I was done surrendering to him. Thats why i decided to help her. And it was the best decision i ever made.

Maya was a bowl of starlight. She is someone who can light up your day just by breathing. I knew i was falling for her the moment she called me senior. The cut on her hand was the only bad thing about that day.

But that meeting alone cost me. Jeeth framed me for sending innapropriate messages to another girl. But that accusation didnt stick as the girl knew it was jeeth and ended the case. He of course got out without any consequences.

I saw maya again sometime after that but jeeth again appeared with his bullshit dominating male crap thing and asked her to strip. In front of her whole class.

To see him crushing her hands and making her bleed made my blood boil.

To see her crying in pain I lost my restraint.

My first instict was to beat him into a pulp but i had to think about my mom. His threats made sure of that.

But i coukdnt let him hurt maya either. So i took her under my wing.

The time i spent with maya after that incident was the only thing motivating my will to stay there. The day i said what My heart desired and to know that she felt the same was the greatest thing that happened to me in those three years.

The countless kisses and hugs and our first date. I never thought i would be the smitten type. But seeing her gawking at corals with her mouth wide open shouldn't make me wanna kiss her. Thats not normal.

But as usual our perfect date spoiled by mr.asshole. That was also the day i got the biggest shock of my life.

My mom was still sleeping with the principal. And jeeth knew this because the principal is his father. Ajay malhotra. And they were in love now and were thinking about marriage.

I always thought his father was some higher up in the board of directors or something. But i didnt know it was the principal. Not only me the whole college didn't.

When jeeth whispered this information in my ears that night on the beach i had to get my frustration out. I wasnt hitting him i was hitting his father for even thinking about being with my mother. But seeing maya's tear striken face was the pause button to my fighting spree.

That night the way she took care of me. The genuine concern in her eyes was my undoing. I knew i was in love with her when she let me vent about my family and me feel good about it.

The next morning i was nothing short of ecstatic to meet her again in college.

But i had to talk to my mom. She confirmed what jeeth said. That they were in love and even though thwir relation started wrong it developed and they were thinking about marriage.

It was already a shitty day for me.But when i saw the video I immediately knew it was jeeth's work.

When i confronted him that day. He was still smirking. He knew he had won. He had again caught me in the flip of the same coin. But what i didnt expect was that he would expose his father's affair just to expose me.

He gave me a choice. Choose to break up with maya and he would take down the video and wont expose my mom. If i dont it wont end well.

It killed me to hurt maya. Seeing her face that day. The shock and hurt on her face when i directed the blame on her. It was exactly what my father did. The apple doesnt fall far from the tree after all.

I had to make her hate me. Thats the only way she'll break up with me. If i do it the right way she'll see right through it. So i said the same things my dad said to my mom.

The way her face crumbled is tattooed to my sole. She would never forgive me. The only thing i could do for her was to pay taniya a visit.

I made sure she never even set foot near maya. That was the first time i raised My hand against a women. And i promised upon my mother it would be my last.

I wanted to make ammends with maya but she too left the college soon. I tried finding her in every new social media platform coming into existence. But she never wanted to be found by me. I deserve that.

When i saw her today the first thing i saw was the new scar across both her wrists.

My mind emptied a second.

She tried to kill herself. If she did that because of me i will never be able to forgive myself. I hurt this girl so bad. And now i have to fix this.

I will fix this.

As soon as im done with arjun's marriage and its work, the next thing i would do is find Maya and beg for her forgiveness.

I dont expect her to get back with me. I dont deserve it. But if she would, if i get to feel her lips on mine once again, it would be the closest i get to heaven on earth.

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