I pull away and I know he notices I'm now uncomfortable and I probably shouldn't be. But something inside me is saying to run away because I can't have that kind of relationship with someone, I'll put them through so much and it shouldn't be that way but unfortunately it is.

"I'm sorry, I remember my friends needed me back in the other room." I said and before he can even reply I escape within the room. I make it into the empty hallway and lean against a wall where I let out a huge breath I didn't know I was holding.

"What are you doing here?

I quickly recognize that husky voice.

"Gavin." I say almost relieved yet not relieved at the same time. "What do you think I'm doing here?"

"What's in the cup?" His eyes shift down and I don't know if he's actually looking at the cup or my outfit.

"Beer." I shrug nonchalantly before he pulls it from my hands. "Hey what the hell?"

"So now you're partying and drinking?" Gavin furrows his eyebrows at me.

"Give it back." I said reaching for the cup once more but with my luck he's incredibly tall and I can't reach it. "Forget it." I groan.

Gavin laughs in amusement. "Who brought you here?"

I cross my arms over my chest. "My friends."

"Well I'm taking you home." He finally puts the cup to the side and grabs my arm. Geez is this how it felt to be man handled? His hold on me didn't even seem to hurt either.

"No, when did you start controlling my life?" I said wiggling out of his hands. He stares back at me and for the first time Gavin Cambridge doesn't know what to say.

"When did you start liking parties?" Gavin glares at me.

"Hey Alex did you find your friends?" Zach approaches the heated argument and even if I did avoid him a couple minutes ago I'm glad he's here now.

"Not yet." I tell him. "Someone decided to take my drink."

Gavin rolls his eyes. "Alex is a lightweight one cup of that and she'll be out for a couple days."

Ugh! There he goes again I can see that smile forming just as he takes a sip from his drink.

"Shit I didn't know." Zach replies.

"He's lying." I add.

"Really Alex? I'm the one lying?"

Okay so I was lying about a lot of things, but it was to protect them from getting hurt. Or it was to protect myself from getting hurt? There's my subconscious again, bitch. "You don't even know me."

"Hey Zach can you just give us a minute?" Gavin asks him and Zach glances between us before he nods his head. No! "Why'd you come to this party?"

"Can you just leave me alone?" I said walking out the back door which led to a backyard. Christmas lights were strung up above and there was a lot less people out here I felt like I could actually breath.

"I don't get it." I said turning to face Gavin. "You literally made me throw a party at my house and you don't want me here?"

"I know why you're here okay because of Zach." He says.

"So, maybe?" I shrug. "You took me to a party a couple of weeks ago because of him?"

"I didn't take you to the damn party for him I took you because-" Gavin tosses his cup in anger. "Because I wanted you to go and it was the only fucking excuse I could make, you would have never came for me, you went for him."

He takes a seat at a picnic table beside us and leans forward to take his head in his hands. I notice the way he runs his hands through his hair like he's frustrated. I'm frustrated and confused. I never know what Gavin was thinking and I never know what to say.

"I didn't go to the party for him." I mutter taking a step closer to him. "I went because you asked me to go with you, hell I even snuck out of my house." I laugh because I'm nervous now and I just want my best friends to step in and take me away.

"I thought you were just like everyone else so I was a dick to you, you actually ask me about things that matter." Gavin says. "You seemed so innocent but your eyes, there's demons in there and there playing with matches."

I intently stare into his dark eyes and see no emotion. I was so curious about them I could stay here all night and get lost in them, wondering what they see and why?

"You know what? Forget everything I just said." Gavin says standing up he puts his hands to my shoulders. "I'm buzzed and your making my head hurt a whole lot more."

"I thought you didn't drink?" I ask.

Gavin walks away from me. "Not until now."

I knew it was to good to be true, Gavin was a sweet talker he didn't mean anything he just said and now I'm once again annoyed by him. I go back inside and start searching for my friends who seem to be hiding from me. I felt like the walls were closing in on me and just as I walk out the front door a red mustang races out of the driveway.

The only person in town who owned a red mustang like that was Gavin who was potentially drunk, so he says. "Hey Alex we're staying the night." Ash suddenly appears in front of me and he's stumbling around. Were those two already drunk?

"I need to get home." I said.

"Here, just pick us up tomorrow morning." Ash takes out his keys and puts them in my hand before he pulls me into a hug. "Your a great friend."

Definitely drunk. "Where's Peyton?" I asked.

"She's inside with Beckham."

"Well can't Beckham take me home?" I ask, I couldn't drive I've never even stepped foot in the drivers seat. "Is Zach still here?"

"I saw Zach leaving with Georgia." Ash tells me. "Gavin didn't look to pleased about that."

This night was once again a disaster, I'm pretty sure the universe does this on purpose. It didn't like me changing the balance of things. "Just drive yourself home you'll do fine now I'm gonna go find Peyton."

Ash pats my shoulder and heads inside. I couldn't stay here my mother would freak again. I'm a horrible daughter.

I walk to Ash's car and get inside. I put the key into the ignition and it starts which gets my hands all sweaty. This shouldn't be too hard all I had to do was keep the wheel straight and press my foot on the gas.

I put the car in drive without any further hesitation. I look at the time on the radio and it reads twelve-forty. It didn't seem as early as it was but then again I never last long at parties.

I press the gas a little harder this time and I think I'm actually doing it. My eyes focus on the road but can't seem to keep away from that red mustang parked outside that same old diner. "Alex why are you doing this?" I said as I pull off to the side of the road.

I get out of the car and lock it behind me before walking in. The diner was completely empty and I was surprised it was even open this late well except for that one single person sitting on the other side of the room.

"You know consuming high levels of alcohol can put you at a high risk for and accident?" I say sliding into the booth. "Just saying."

Gavin looks annoyed with me. "Get out of here."

I furrow my eyebrows at him. "Someone's in a mood."

"I'm serious." He says. "I just want some space, yeah?"

"Why'd you leave the party?" I asked him.

"What it's not like you wanted me there?" He laughs and shakes his head at me. "Now get lost."

"As much as I'd love to leave your buzzed and the roads are very wet and slippery, I can't let you drive home." I tell him.

"I think I can handle myself." He mumbles under his breath and just as I open my mouth to speak he gets out from the booth.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"Anywhere but here." Gavin replies. I don't think I'd ever get through Gavin's frustrating mixed signals and for some reason that's what intrigued me the most about him. I wanted to know what he was thinking like he always knew what I was thinking.

I stand alone in the empty diner as the door bell rings one last time. The air outside was cold and I could feel every part of my body begging for warmth. Gavin leaves without any further notice and I let him because there was no use.

My hands hurt as I clutch the wheel and I start to hear the sound of my own heart beat getting louder and faster. I have a shortness of breath as I finally arrive home about ready to pass out and it's all because of one thing.

I think I'm dying.