Chapter 35:First Fight

As I walked to class with Jess by, my side raving about some guy's party she went to over the weekend,I couldn't help but get nervous about what was going to happen today in Mr Garner's class,I didn't even want to think about tutoring after school.

It was monday and I haven't spoken to him ever since saturday night at the lake. Come to think of it,he was never around on Sunday and I never saw anyone at his house...odd?

"Charlie?" I was taken out of my dreamy thoughts by Jess waving her hand in front of my face.

"Yeah? What?" I replied pretending that I was paying attention all along.

"Landon..."

"What about him?" I asked a bit confused.

"You weren't listening to me,were you?" she said,putting her hands up in exasperation.

"I-well not everything. What about Landon?" I asked.

"Me and him are together now. I think he's the one..." she spoke,putting on her dreamy look.

"Oh..that's amazing...but what about the other guy?"

"What guy?"

"The one you told me about last week,I can't recall his name...You said you-" I stopped speaking when I saw Mr Garner approaching us.

"Er- you okay?" Jess asked puzzled.

"Sure. Can we go to the restrom please." I asked,not waiting for her to reply but instantly grabbed her hand,spun her around and dragged her to the restroom.

"Can you let go of my hand please...your grip is too tight,like I'm being gripped by a....wait! I am being gripped by a werewolf.

She said it loudly and I almost slapped her.

I rolled my eyes at her,not wanting to express how her statement annoyed me.

"Sorry." she shrugged as we entered the restroom and found no one in.

I rushed inside one of the stalls and locked the door.

I couldn't help the tears that suddenly wanted to escape my eyes.I didn't even know why I was crying but I just felt like it.

My life was such a mess.

I'm inlove with my teacher and I know that I can't be with him....hold on a second,did I just say 'inlove'?

I mean,I know that I like him and all that,but do I love him?

I know for a fact that if he went absent right now,I'd go insane missing him and his awesome scent.I'd miss his lips on mine and I'd spend sleepless nights thinking about him.I can't go a day without thinking about him,let alone an hour...everytime he's around,I swear my heart just speed up involuntarily,he's the first thing that pops in my mind when I wake up and before I go to bed. And even though the dreams haven't been coming on gradually,whenever I have any dream about him,I feel like my whole world is right. Does this mean I love him?

Yes! Yes,yes,yes,yes,I love him. So bad it hurts.

A tear escaped my eye and another follwed and then I was sobbing.Ugh...I fell like I'm stupid.

Jonathan wants to be with me,why can't I just tell him that I feel the same?

I think I'm afraid. Afraid of rejection. Or is it love? Am I afraid of love?

I've never felt anything so strong in my life and I know he feels the same way,but what if being a werewolf will be too much for him to handle? What if I scare him off?

Ugh...so many questions. But only one kept me up the whole weekend. Why didn't I agree to be his girlfriend at the lake?

"Charlie?" I heard James' voice from outside the door. What's he doing in the girls' restroom?

"Go away James. I need to be alone."I said trying not to sound like I was crying. He'd break the door if he heard that...

I heard him whisper something to Jess and then heard the door open and close,I guess they must have left.

Poor Jess,she didn't know what to do...so she decided to call James.

I wonder why James left,if it was back then he would have forced me to open the door or break it himself.

But I guess that was back then,now it's now and I have to deal with what's happening now.

What am I going to tell Jonathan if he asks about Saturday night?

I acted foolishly and I regret it,but even worse,I can't stop feeling guilty about the hurt I saw in his eyes when I climbed off of him that night without saying anything and literally ran home.

I didn't know waht to say or do. I've been waiting for him to ask me that question ever since I first kissed him and yet when he finally does,I reject him.

It wasn't my intentions to hurt him,but I couldn't be with him unless he knows who I truly am and if he loves me like he claims he does,he will accept me,right?

I took a long deep breath as the bell rang,signalling the beginning of class.

I'll deal with Jonathan later,right now,I have to go to class.

I stood up from the seat and opened the door.

Leaning on the sink casually was James.

I gasped a little to found him there.

"James? Uh-what's up" I wiped my face,hiding any traces of tears.

"Come here." he opened his arms for me and I hesitated a little before throwing myself at him.

His arms around me were so protective and warm I just felt safe.

I tightend my hands around him and he did the same.

We stayed like that for a whil,until the door flipped open.

I turned my head to meet Jonathan staring at us disbelievingly.

''Sir it's not what you think it is.'' James stated unwrapping his arms around me.

I felt like crying when I saw the hurt in his eyes,his fist clenched and unclenched like he was keeping himself from doing something unexpected.

James took my hand in his,gripping me tightly.

''I can explain.'' I said trying not to sound too desperate.

''Can you too please go to class.''Jonathan spoke,his voice was so cold and filled with anger and a part of me wanted to explain to him waht was going on instead of going to class but I was forced to comply as James pulled my hand,walking to the door.

Jonathan....gah I should realy stop calling him that,he's Mr Garner.

Mr Garner stepped aside to let us pass and I flashed him the 'I'm sorry' look before walking out but he ignored me completely,causing my heart to ache a little.

''Will you restroom be okay?'' James asked as we stepped out of the restroom and to the hallway.

And then it hit me when I saw a graphic indicating that I was in the males' restroom.

Shit! No wonder Mr Garner was able to find us...he must have wanted to use the restroom.

''Charlene?'' James waved his hand in front of my face.

''Uh-sure. I'm fine.'' I replied and then I heard the restroom door close with an unnecessary force,I almost thought it was an earthquake.

Jonathan is so mad at me...

''Okay,i'll see you later?'' he asked,concern visible on his face.

I nodded and started walking to my first class alone since James had a different class from mine.

I hope I don't get detention for being late....

I walked inside my first class and forunate enough I didn't get detention. Jess had saved me a seat and I walked over to her.

''Are you okay?'' She asked as I sat next to her.

''Yeah.''I replied,whispering back to her as the class went on.

I shifted my gaze to the front and started taking some notes.

*****

''Can you believe it? Me Jessica dating the geek. You know I've been thinking about our couple name during class,What do you think?'' Jess was raving about Landon as we headed to the cafeteria for lunch.

''What about Jessandon?'' I shrugged replying.

''Ugh...it's too non-existing. I was thinking Landonicca,or Jesson,or my favourite Jay.L.'' she kept on ranting.

''Jess just settle for whatever makes you happy,okay?'' I patted her shoulder and walked to join Luke and James on the table.

''Hey guys.'' I greeted them as I sat down next to Luke opposite James.

They both replied giving me bright smiles.

''Are you okay?'' James asked as I started eating my lunch.

I nodded,not wanting to talk about it.''So Luke,how was your weekend?'' I asked,breaking the awkward silence that was threatening to build up after James' question,especially since Luke knew nothing about what had happened today.

''It was...well...fine I guess,I realy had nothing to do so I settled for Watching football.'' he spoke and took a bite of his sandwhich.

''How about yours Charlse?'' James asked.

''It was alright,I also had nothing to do so I settled for ....well nothing?'' I replied.

I looked over at Jess and noticed that she had decided to eat with who I assumed to be Logan and they were flirting shamelessly.

''I have an idea,how about we go out this coming weekend,just the three of us.'' James suggeted,finishing his lunch.

''Sounds fine by me.'' Luke replied.

''What about Jessica?''

''Oh don't worry about her,she's going out with Landon.'' Luke chuckled.

''Okay then'that's the plan'' I said taking the last bite of my meal.

The bell rang signalling the end of lunch and we departed to our respective classe,with Jess still cluched to Landon.

My next class was English and afterwards it was Chemistry.

I got nervous just thinking of facing Mr Garner but I decided to shrug off the thought.

I decided to sit at the back of the class as I walked in the English class.

Jess was nowhere to be found,so I had to spend the entire period alone.

The class seemed to go by quickly as always since I was dreading my next class.

And then the bell rang and I couldn't control my nerves,I was edgy and so nervous and I didn't even have a good reason why. I mean it's not like Mr Garner was gonna go all rampage on me.

I slowly walked to the Chemistry class,breathin in and out to calm my nerves.

Where the hell is Jess when I need her?

I walked in to the class and there he was,leaning casually on his table with his hands tucked in his jeans. Gosh.. This was gonna be a long class.

As I was about to go to the back of the class,I noticed that the seats were all occupied so I was compelled to sit on the front row.

I took my seat and fiddled with my bag,taking out the required books.

''Alright class settle down. Now,let's get to work.'' Mr Garner called the class to order and started handing out paper for an activity.

All this time he kept is eyes off of me,so I decided to ignore him and focused on the activity.

The class was long and boring,especiall since Mr Garner spent most of his time assisting some girls who pretende d to not understand just to get his attention. It sickened me,but I didn't show it.

When the bll rang signalling scool out,I almost jumped out of my seat. Happy that I could finally go home.

I was about to walk out of class when I heard 'him' call my name. I stopped on my track and turned around .

''What?'' I asked as all the students exitted the room.

''We need talk,please close the door.'' he spoke walking over to his table.

I closed it and walked over to him.

''About today...James and I are just friends. That's how far our relationship goes,nothing more.''I explained.

''I know that. I need to ask you a question and I need an honest answer.'' I nodded and he stared intently in my eyes.

I was mesmerised but scared of what he might ask me.

''Why can't you be with me?''

''I just...I...'' i stuttered not knowing waht to say,I mean waht do I say to that.

''I can tell that you feel something for me,this chemistry we share I know you can feel it too.Just tell me why. Is it because I'm your teacher?'' he was getting upset...

''No,it's not that.'' I replied,speaking quietly.

''Then what is it?'' I could sense the anger building up at this point. I had hurt him and he had every right to shout at me,but that didn't help my nerves.

''It's just....'' I trailed off,again. How do I explain this without telling him the truth.

''What? Huh? I'm not good enough.'' he was yelling at me at this point.Throwing his hands up in exesperation.

''Do I even mean anything to you?''his voice was cold and angry.

''Don't yell at ME!'' I shouted back at him,unable to bear my anger any longer.He had no right to talk to me like that and I wasn't gonna stand back and watch him do it.

''I WON'T UNTIL YOU FUCKING ANSWER ME!''

I have never seen Jonathan this angry and I deifnitely did not like it.

''Johnathan I'm warning you!'' I could feel my eyes turning dark."Back off now." I raised my own voice at him.

''ANSWER ME CHARLENE!'' he shouted back,walking towards me.

''I'M A WEREWOLF,OKAY!''

A growl escaped from my mouth as I unleashed my anger.

Oh shit! What did I just do.

He looked at me shocked and astonished....and a little scared. I couldn't read exactly what he was feeling at the moment.

I was angry and frustrated...I didn't know what to do....

And then....he walked out.

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