Yasmín

Tears streamed down my face as I looked at myself in the mirror. It was one of those days when I was having a hard time loving myself or just being kind to myself.

It has taken me so many years to get to a place where I loved myself. Living in a Haitian household as the only daughter can be tough.

It's always "this is how you need to be to get a man, how you need to cook to keep a man, how you need to present yourself as a lady to find a man."

As if my existence was only here to cater to a man.

A man to me isn't a need. He's a want.

Everything I need I can get but to want someone in my presence is a whole different ball game

I hated how they tried to instill that into me my whole life. Which made me question everything about myself. The small snide comments from family members of my single status, weight, skin color, etc. didn't help me along the way.

"Alexa play Pretty Little Fears by 6LACK"

Alexa played the song as I wiped my tears getting ready for the day. Ironic as it is I hate talking about how I'm feeling to anyone.

My phone rang indicating a incoming FT call seeing Sin's name pop up I was hesitant to answer it but I did.

I broke into a full on smile seeing Zion eyeball in the screen as he was whispering to me " mssss preddy come play plsss. Lovey not here and unc uglyyy. Plss"

I laughed shaking my head cause I knew exactly where he was hiding to. " where is your uncle Zion?"

He shrugged his shoulder rolling his eyes " he in the kitchen talking ta his gurlfren"

I paused for a second scrunching my face confused. Maybe I heard him wrong " his what Zi?"

He let out a exasperated breath " his gurlfren yassy she always here. you come over and play ??"

" Lil man!? Where you at?" I heard Sincere searching for him as me and Zi stared at each other for awhile I would've been hung up but Zi was putting up a finger to his mouth telling me to stay quiet.

Like a horror film he was getting dragged from underneath the bed as he grabbed the phone with him "YASSY! Saveee me he's hideous ah!"

" Yasmín?" Sincere question as he tried to get the phone out Zions hands

" I'll try and see you later ZiZi bye handsome."

" Bye yassy!"

" Aye Yas—" I hung up before he could try and have a conversation.

Yes I am fully aware that getting information from a three year old isn't the best supporting source but the way my emotions and mind are at war right now I'm taking his word for it.

I put my phone on do not disturb after he kept calling me back the second time.

I wiped these baby ass tears up and got dress up in my lounge wear to have a me time type of day

Poured me a glass of Stella Rose blueberry and got my bucket of popcorn out the microwave. Went towards my living room having a seat on my couch as I turned on the tv

You must think you giving THE Miss Olivia Pope right now

And I am.

I decided on a cute little movie called Coffee & Kareem getting comfortable as I started laughing at my tv feeling a buzz come on a bit as I relaxed eating my popcorn.

I was 15 minutes into the movie when my door ring indicated someone was at my door. I placed my empty glass down at the table taking my phone to see who it was instantly making me roll my eyes.

"Yes Sincere? Can I help you?"

He stared at the camera watching me waiting. I stared right back. " Yas you know I don't like games so I'm going to need you to open the door so we can talk"

I rolled my eyes grabbing my glass as I went to unlock the door opening it for him as I walked back to the kitchen pouting another drink.

I smiled softly as I seen him take his shoes off as he came in. So he remembered from the first time he came hmm

" wassup Sincere?"

He leaned against the kitchen island watching me pour my drink silently as he tug his beard lightly

"You tell me you the one with an attitude hanging up the phone and shit. I'm to grown for games if there's an issue speak up so I can correct it and explain"

I rolled my eyes going in my fridge taking some grapes out rinsing them off "shouldn't you be at you place with Zion and your girlfriend?" I stared at him popping a grape in my mouth as he smirked coming from where he was leaning standing behind me plucking a grape popping it in his mouth staring down at me

" it's cute when you're jealous. I see that you're feeling me. Next time just ask." He kissed me softly turning me around lifting me up sitting me on my countertop

"We had a discussion already. I barely like muhfuckas if it ain't about Zion or Love I don't be caring. But somehow your hot head overthinking ass got me getting out of my normal character bout you.

He started kissing softly on my neck making me hot and bothered

Zion was talking about Kinzley you know Chandler's sister the one's who set us up together."

My dumb ass looked at him smiling as I took a sip of my wine which I should put down because I'm the lightest weight when it comes to this shit.

"I apologize for overreacting over something a three year old informed me. But children be telling the hard truth sometimes. It's also not an excuse but I wasn't having a good day mentally with myself so that didn't help matters"

He licked his lips pulling my on my thighs closer to into him as I wrapped it around him making him lift me up as his hands cuffed my ass.

"Imma have you saying sorry over and over again in a minute for ignoring my calls intentionally don't trip."

I gulped as he carried us towards my bedroom. This man had been here a handful of times so comfortable in my shit.

"I won't be saying nothing"

He didn't say anything as we reached my room and he tossed me on the bed pulling his shirt off lowly staring at me

"ok."

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I bet you horn dogs wanted some smut lol nasties.

But looks like even our therapist has some growing up to do. But nobodies perfect

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Sorry for any grammatical errors

Fran💕