Love

"Nah I don't want to do that"

"This shii boring asf man." Jordan only said that cause he was losing the game forreal Saint had him beat by 20

Everyone was at my Unc house as he went out to handle business he told me. Kinzley had to leave because a work emergency came up but told me if anything happens call immediately.

"What y'all want to do then?" Judi asked the group. I wasn't really paying attention really I was thinking about Zion. He's been a lil sour patch kid for a couple weeks and it was worrying me

He probably up from his nap right now to be honest

" I'm going to go check up on Zi" I told them as I left to go up to his room seeing him wide awake on his bed just staring at particularly nothing. I didn't want to say anything to him just yet.

It's been quiet for about a minute and he still hasn't moved or said anything.

"Zi?" I moved closer to him sitting on his bed as I saw the tear on his cheek and the soft smile as he finally came back into focus tapping my hand "mommy and daddy said we be otay."

I was stunned a bit and froze as he slid off his bed going to his bathroom using the potty. When he finished washing his hands he came back out tilting his head staring " no sad Lovey otay" I nodded my head at him picking him up as we sat on his bed

"No more being sad baby boy. Did mommy and daddy talk to you?" He nodded his head. Then he looked at this picture on his wall he drew which was basically scribbles but to him he saw something

" mama had the baby."

He keeps hitting me with hard balls and imma need him to let up

"She's in heaven with momma and daddy. Her name London. Lovey I'm hungry I want pasta please"

I wiped my eyes trying to hold back the tears that wanted to slip as I hugged him "okay little man let's go make pasta"

We walked downstairs hand in hand when he saw everyone here he zoned in looking for his favorite person

Running to her she instantly put her hands out mushing him back groaning "Willow be my gurlfren please"

We all laughed as she tried hiding behind Judi as he tried to crawl onto her to sit on her lap. Willow wasn't really into kids like at all. The little things terrify her.

"Y'all tryna help make pasta..?" I looked at everyone as they blankly looked at me when Malik spoke up " Love ... you can cook?"

I smirked as I see that everyone was waiting for the answer to the question. I ain't no professional chef or anything but I can cook some things up " lovey pasta the best. Even better than unc" Zion said coming to me as he raised his hands up for me to take him

I think he figured that Willow wasn't going to budge so he needed some love and I try not to pick him up all the time cause he getting to an age where you not supposed to be picking him up all the time but I couldn't help it that's my lil nugget.

"You gon help me ZiZi?"

"Of course.." we started headed towards the kitchen as I heard someone follow us I turned my head around seeing Saint slowly making his way with us to the kitchen

" you gon cook or sit and stare"

He smirked grabbing Zion from my arms " I can be yo taste tester"

Zion tilting his head at him mugging " is that you cannot cook ?"

" does that mean lil man" he corrected

He shrugged his shoulders " let's see what I can do "

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I rolled my eyes as everyone hushed over the pasta. The best compliment is when they go back for seconds

But the only reason I'm rolling them is because they enjoying the garlic bread and broccoli the most and that's what Saint was in charge of

And I'm not talking about no regular pop in the oven Texas toast that man went and got some French bread and did some shit like he was at a bakery. Even my own kin betrayed me and his little ass don't even like broccoli

"Lovey I want more broccoli pwlease" Judi heard him and said she'd help as I was sitting comfortable on Saint only because he wouldn't let me up

As we was eating when I heard the front door open as Yasmín and my unc walked through

My ass wanted to remove myself from this situation immediately but a arm tightened around my waist as I tried to get loose

"Oh. Y'all still here?" He noted to my friends as they said hey to the both of them

" why unc acting like he don't like us"

"I'm not acting. I don't."

"Preddddddy yassssss!" If Uncs living room wasn't as spacious as it is I bet Zion would've been knocking motherfuckers back just to get to her

"Hey lil man wassup" she smiled at him as they walked into the kitchen having a discussion

"Wassup OG" Saint nodded towards my uncle as he glared down on him hard " let go of her before I kick yo ugly ass out my house"

I rolled my eyes at him but said nothing cause I didn't want all this PDA anyways

Saint chuckled before letting me go. Getting up from him I went towards the kitchen saying hi to Yasmín who had a smirk on her face

" So that's developing rather nicely I see" I waved her off grabbing another garlic bread as she started fixing her plate "no therapy session right now Yas"

She raised her hands in surrender as we started a light conversation while she had Zion on her hips as she continued fixing a second plate "you cooked this nugget?"

He nodded his head smiling "yes Yassy I make every thing for you." He a liar but imma let him have it

I leaned against the counter watching her " if things between you and my unc become serious would you have to stop being my therapist?"

She popped a piece of her garlic bread into her mouth as she handed my unc a plate soon as he walked in

" thanks ma. You good Love?"

I nodded my head. I don't want my unc to miss potentially the love of his life because of me but no lie she was one person I was comfortable with speaking my mind to so if that has to end I'd be kind of disappointed and back at square one... and I kind of don't want to see that happen... idk tho

"Yea I'm good Unc." I seen her hand Zion to Sin as she nodded for me to head to my uncles office. I followed her and sat down on one of his plush chairs waiting for her to start talking

" I've already discussed this with your uncle but If at any time you are uncomfortable with the relationship we have let me know because I don't want to lose you as a client you are making progress since our first session.

To answer your question if this relationship does become more serious down the line I may have to refer you to someone else. But that doesn't mean I won't ever be there if you do need someone to speak to. Already told you; you can call me anytime okay lovevbug"

I mugged her cause she knows I hate that nickname "alright now Yas not too much. But thankyou for being here. "

"Of course." She took another bite of her food as she praised the garlic bread

"Who made this it's so good?"

I rolled my eyes gettting up walking away mumbling

"That shit wasn't THAT good now"

"Never pictured you to be a hater lovebug" I looked up seeing Saint coming from out the bathroom

I rolled my eyes "Don't call me that"

"Okay love bug sorry" he followed me back into the kitchen towards the living room where surprisingly Sin was sitting with Zion on his lap playing the game with Jordan and Malik.

Willow was braiding Judi's hair in straight backs

Saint went back to sit and watch with them

And I saw Yas sneak back in kicking her feet up on her phone as Zion went off Sincere and climbed on her lap

I softly smiled a bit looking around the room feeling content

But as soon as the smile came it was gone replaced with a feeling of betrayal

I slowly back from the room making my way upstairs to my room locking the doors. I sat on my floor pulling out the box from under my loose floor board

Opening it up I saw the pictures of me most with my parents. Some of the first ones with Zion when he was still in moms stomach and turning one. I saw the razor blades I kept in there

I took it out with a picture of my parents and just stared at it thinking of what happened to me just now

With all of them down there just enjoying each other's company. It felt like family. Like home. I didn't feel sad about my life in that moment

That was scary.

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Looks like our love bug feeling some way about the relationship it may seem and about this touch of happiness she's receiving

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Sorry for any grammatical errors

Fran💕