My heart is pounding so hard I fear that it will burst through my shirt at any moment. And at that moment, I am certain the depth of my feelings for Kookie will be exposed. We shared a sweet kiss however, my feelings, I fear, are far too intense after only three days.

Will he think I'm a creepy stalker? I hope not. It's apparent after last night that he's attracted to me as well and wants to go out with me.

This I'm certain about. We both have expressed an interest that goes beyond a mere friendship. I actually wonder how far things would have advanced in the backseat of the taxi last night.

I do recall him inviting me up to his apartment, to, uh, check his schedule. As much as I wanted to go, I think Jin's interruption was good timing. I need to think .

I don't want a quick fling. God, what am I saying? It's been a long time since I've shared the pleasures of a lover.

But I want more than physical passion with Kookie. I want to take my time, create something special. That's if he would even consider me in that manner.

I'm overjoyed as I accept Jin's proposal. Of course I accepted it, once I was able to process what I was being asked. I understood, yet it was totally unbelievable. An opportunity to spend more time with Kookie. Hell yeah.

While Jin goes over the details I leave my body and shift my attention to Kookie who is sitting so close. I glance at him as he listens and nods along with Jin and Namjoon. His eyes are bright as I focus downward to his lips and lose focus on all that is going on around me.

I lick my lips, feeling an urge to press in to his. They are slightly parted and I see the subtle appearance of pinkness. His tongue.

I want to taste him, again. Slowly. I want to savor him and explore his oral cavity.

"Taehyung, what do you think?" Jin says as I startle a bit and come back to reality.

"Can you r-repeat that, uh question again?" I stutter trying to recover and refocus.

"Taehyung, we start Friday, in two days, with a segment called Taehyung's Christmas Wish. On this segment, on Friday, you will reveal your Christmas menu. What do you think?" Jin says with an eager smile as he leans forward on the edge of the couch.

I clear my throat as I look up and see all eyes are focused on me. "That sounds great, Jin," I say shifting in my chair and feeling a bit self-conscious, as if everyone knows my feelings.

"I have an idea," Kookie says sitting at attention as Jin nods acknowledging him. I feel eager with anticipation. Any comment he makes giving me an excuse to look at him is welcome.

"What if, we not only reveal Tae's Christmas Wish menu, but some of the other things we'll be doing like the Kookie Christmas Cocoa with peppermint?"

I immediately start to laugh and slap my leg as the group looks at me. Oh God, am I in Dorkville again. I'm such a fan of the show.

I know and recall most of the episodes after watching them repeatedly over the years. Okay, might as well be honest and go for it. After all, this is my Christmas Wish.

"Sorry, I was just thinking about the adult version you suggested last year Kookie, hahahaha, with a shot of whiskey. You know to help with the holiday stress," I say as the group all burst into laughter. Spontaneously, Kookie reaches across and taps my leg as I feel a jolt of electricity rush up my spine.

"That is it, Taehyung!" Jin says. "That's what we want to create! That laugh. Your natural excitement and realness is what viewers connect with. Yes, the Kookie Christmas Cocoa with a twist. It will come out on Christmas Eve during tree decorating or some shit like that. Oh, my this is going to be so good. Guys, I am very excited," Jin says as his smile broadens.

We go on to talk about several details and then end for the day. As my Christmas Wish comes together the anticipation of the holiday builds as does my excitement to spend more time with Kookie. I can feel the closeness Kookie has with Jin and Namjoon.

I'm happy for him. He's surrounded by good friends that really care about him. Although we talk business there's laughter and a lightness that tells me there's a great deal of respect in their relationship.

Before Jin and Namjoon leave Kookie makes a quick call. Five minutes later there's a tap on the door and in comes an assistance with a gift basket. It's bigger than my original basket.

"As promised. Tae, your gift basket!" Kookie says with the biggest bunny-like smile. He's proud that he finally delivered my gift basket and I am overjoyed as my smile extends.

"Uh, is it me or is that gift basket bigger?" I say with a smirk.

"Well Tae, I had to freshen it up. How would that look? 'The 'Kooking with Kookie Show' giving you a basket with three-day old treats?! That is not my style. And I have a reputation to uphold. Only the best ingredients." He is too cute and appears playful.

I laugh, "Yes, Kookie only the best ingredients," I say softly as our eyes met while Jin and Namjoon walk towards the door.

The moment is brief, yet it was a moment. Kookie diverts his eyes as I am unable to stop looking at him.

"Tae, I selected a few of my favorites and now that I know a bit about you, I added a few specialty items that I know you'll enjoy," he says as he is twisting a strand of the red decorative ribbon.

As Jin and Namjoon say goodbye and leave, I suddenly realize I'm alone with Kookie. I find myself tugging at the cuffs of my shirt to keep them in place, as if they were going somewhere. My heart quickens as Kookie shuts the door and returns to sit down.

Instead of sitting in his chair he sits next to me on the couch leaving some space. In an attempt to feel more confident, I consciously lift my chin. I can do this.

God, Tae please don't fuck this up. I tell myself to stay my course and set a day with a time for our date. And, if the mood and the vibe are right, go in for a kiss.

Those soft lips. I swallow as he sits and we both look at the other, smile and then quickly look away. Okay, say something but don't sound like a creepy super fan.

That's not how I feel about him. He's a normal guy, so say something a normal guy might say. "Are those peanut clusters made with Swiss chocolate and salted caramel?"

What the fuck, Idiot? What normal guy would say some shit like that to a hot guy he's interested in? This is worse than the start of our phone conversation. Far worse, I can't hide behind my phone this time. I am exposed.

"Yes,Tae, they are. Have you heard me talk about them on the show," What? He doesn't think I'm an idiot? If there's one thing I know about Kookie he loves his sweet treats. He then chuckles and my stomach does a flip.

"May I?" he asks looking at the basket. I nod and he extends his arms forward and pulls the basket closer. I watch his hands as he delicately opens the cellophane and removes the chocolate peanut clusters and opens the gold decorative paper, they're in and offers them to me.

"I'll have one, but only if you share them with me," I say, looking at him waiting for his response.

"Now Taehyung, you know I don't refuse chocolate," he says reaching over and removing a chocolate cluster. He holds it near his mouth and waits for me. We then slide our chocolate clusters into our mouths at the same time while looking at each other.

"Oh God! Mmm." Kookie rolls his eyes, tosses his head back and moans as if he's enjoying an orgasm. Immediately I cough and nearly choke on my candy.

"Tae, are you okay!?" he says quickly sitting straight up.

He then reaches across me to grab a water bottle while firmly grasping my upper thigh to steady himself. As he frantically reaches the bottle falls over and rolls. He squeezes my thigh tighter and moves his hand even higher for better balance. Oh God, my dick responds.

As he finally grabs the bottle and moves back, I strategically place my hand across my lap and pull my suit jacket close to cover my tightening pants as my cock reacts.

He uncaps the bottle and then hands it to me, as I continue to cough. I take a long sip and slowly settle down. That is my cough and my cock.

"I'm fine, Kookie. Uh, those are delicious."

Yummy. Be careful you don't choke before you get your Christmas Wish or your fans will not be happy with me," he says as we both laugh. There is nothing more beautiful than him when he is laughing so naturally.

"Hey Tae? I-I looked at my calendar and uh, Friday night is good for me. Uh, if you still want to go out," he says sheepishly lowering his head and pulling at a tiny tread on one of the pillows. I love his shyness. This the real Kookie and there is no celebrity in the room now.

My heart damn near stops as I try to sound natural and pull back on some of my eagerness. "Sure, Kookie that would be great. Um, after the show. Would that work for you?" I say struggling to contain the wide grin brewing inside of me and dismiss the urge to do a jig right here on the center table.

"Yeah, that would work. So, it's my town and I'm going to show you around. It will be a bit late so I thought we'd have dinner and if you still want to...do some sightseeing, we could hang out on Sunday. I have, uh, some industry commitments unfortunately on Saturday. How does that sound Tae?"

"That sounds great, Kookie."

"Tae, my brother is coming by tonight, so..."

"So you've got to go, right," I says with a hint of disappointment in my voice.

"I do, but if you're ready to leave we could share a taxi again. Like last night," he says and giving me a shy smile.

"Sure, I'd like that, Kookie," I says pulling my basket to me as we prepare to leave.

As our taxi pulls in front of his residence we sit for a moment. There's a lot unspoken and I don't like the uncertainty, so I nervously start to talk hoping I don't say anything that would make him retreat. He's no longer a celebrity but someone I care for. Deeply.

I look down at my hands, swallow hard and turn to him finding his eyes. "I don't want to assume too much Kookie, but I-I like you. I'm excited about our upcoming dates and I-I just want you to know that my intention is to get to know you and see if there's more. We can take it slow. I haven't dated in a few years and I'd like to...date you," I say and wait for his response.

His face is soft, but his smile is gone. Have I offended him in some way? I feel him slightly shift and move back. He lets out a sigh as I anxiously wait to hear his reaction.

Oh God, he's so honest and I haven't been. Is this when I tell him the truth? The truth that I'm a liar. That I never dated Tommie Chen or any of those men he saw me with over the last few years.

I haven't had a boyfriend since college. My focus has been on my career. I haven't been interested in another man until... .

Tae's the man of my dreams and I care for him. . If I tell him that, he'll probably go running and screaming from this taxi and I'll never see him again. Fuck, what do I say? I can't risk losing him, before I get him.

"Tae, I haven't dated much. Uh, none of the relationships I've had in the press were uh, close. They just weren't serious. We all were focused on our careers," I say as he tilts his head slightly to the side.

Okay, now I just sound like a whore. I don't want him to think I was fucking a bunch of hot actors. Fuck, I wasn't fucking anyone. Damn, this is hard.

"Tae, I feel a connection with you that I did not feel with any of those guys. I-I really like you. I'd uh, like to go out with you also. You know, a few dates and see if there's more," I say as I pull a bit closer feeling more confident and stare into his gorgeous eyes.

God, I want to kiss him. I don't want to go straight to sex with him, well my body does, but thank God there's a bit of sanity left. I hope.

My heart suddenly expands in the back seat of that dimly lit taxi as I see a smile move across his beautiful face. I chuckle nervously. I feel a lovely surge of energy move through my body as his hand moves around my waist and gently pulls me forward. He's so strong that he easily moves me to him.

As I feel the heat of his breath on my cheek, my eyes close and my lips part as he gives me what I craved all day. His kiss, our kiss. I quickly surrender and give myself over to him.

His tongue is hot and skilled. We engulf each other in the back of that taxi. I let go and allow him to take charge and it is wonderful. It is as if I'm being kissed and touched for the first time ever.

There is a safety I feel with him that I can't put words to. I am lost in Kim Taehyung.

My Alpha. I want to be taken by him. It surprises me somewhat because giving up control has never been easy for me. But with Tae there is no struggle; only compliance to his tongue and his touch.

He is my body's master and I welcome him. Our intensity quickly increases as our hands explore each other's bodies. Fuck, his muscles feel good under my hands.

I have a strong urge to pull off his shirt. I want to see more of him. He slowly pulls back as I suspect he is experiencing a similar rise in temperature.

"I guess I should let you go. I'll call you later tonight, Kookie," he says with lustful eyes.

I nod, and then lean into him again as he captures my lips and slowly devours my mouth. As the kiss intensifies, I feel my cock reacting and I pull back. We will take it slow, no need for torture. We both laugh as I look outside the window and see my brother Jimin walking towards my building.

"Excuse me, Tae," I say turning slowly and lowering the window. I call to Jimin. He turns, pauses, and then comes over.

"Tae, I would like you to meet my brother before you leave. Is that okay?"

"Sure Kookie, I'd love to meet him." He says as I open the taxi door illuminating the inner cab to where I see the brightness in Tae eyes.

"Hi Jimin, this is Taehyung. He was just dropping me off."

Jimin has a huge smile and I never know what he'll say or do. I question whether making this introduction now is a good idea. Whatever, it is now too late.

"Hi Taehyung," Jimin says. "Aren't you yummy?"

Tae smiles and surprisingly does not shy away. I don't think he's a stranger to men commenting on his attractiveness.

"I think my best response would be, 'thank you'," Tae says, maintaining his smile.

"So you're the hero farmer that I've heard about," Jimin says as he looks over to me and back to Tae. "That was an amazingly unselfish act. How are you handling all of this instant celebrity status, Tae?" Jimin says leaning forward as he engages Tae.

"The attention has not been easy, Jimin. However, everyone has been too kind," he says looking at me. "I will soon return to a simpler life."

I know my brother and he notices everything. Our closeness, Tae's tone, body language and more.

"Surely being the gentlemen you are, you'll come up and properly meet me." Jimin says teasingly.

Tae is relaxed and doesn't miss a beat. "No, this is your time with your brother who has told me that you don't see each other enough. I'd only get in the way."

"Tae, you would most certainly be welcome. As far as a distraction goes, probably, but a good distraction. C'mon and have a few drinks with us. I'd like to get to know you and honestly see more of you," Jimin says as he leans into the taxi a bit more and quickly scans Tae.

Tae responds with laughter. Jimin is shameless, yet I envy his ease and confidence with men. If he wasn't my brother, I'd fear him to be an opponent.

"How about this, Jimin? Your brother has agreed to show me your beautiful city and I will be here for the month. I'd be happy to come by for a few drinks next week, that is if Kookie would be in agreement," he says smiling at me and raising his eyebrows as I nod in agreement.

"Tae, I will consider that as a date," Jimin says as he nods, looks at me and then heads toward the entry way of my residence allowing me time to say goodbye to Tae. Once more I'm shown another side of Taehyung. He is confident and charismatic. I easily fall deeper for him.

"I'm sorry Tae, Jimin can be a bit much. I hope he didn't offend you."

Tae chuckles softly as I turn to him. "Are you kidding me? He is delightful and I look forward to getting to know him and spending more time with you. Anyone else you want me to meet so I might get another invite and more dates?" He says playfully as I feel a sweet flutter in my belly. Oh god, he is eager to be with me as I am with him.

"Hahahaha," He laughs and my cheeks flush. He then slowly pulls me into another deep kiss and releases me. My head is actually spinning as I exit the vehicle and watch as his taxi pulls away.