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My new dressing room is too amazing. I can't wait to tell Suga about it. He'll surely call me a superstar now, I think.

I should invite Suga down to the studio to meet Kookie. Uh, maybe not. He has no filter and as soon as Kookie asks him how he likes the show it won't be good.

There's a small welcome basket with chocolate, cheese, and fruit waiting for me with a beautiful card signed by Kookie, Jin, and Namjoon. It's a nice touch. Someone certainly favors gift baskets and I'm not complaining. Once again, it's all high quality, like my hottie in the kitchen, naturally.

The show starts in about 10 minutes. I look over to the monitor and see the audience is being warmed up by the staff as they wait for Kookie and me. I shake my head in disbelief as to where I am and who I'm with.

I'm happy I took the risk and kissed Kookie. I can't explain it. I didn't just want it, I needed it. I needed to hold him and be with him.

I sure hope we work out because if it doesn't, I'm going to be a mess. The thought of us not working out produces a tightness in my chest. I already have an irrational attachment to him. It's insane. But, it's real for me.

When I'm with him I don't care about his celebrity. Often, I find that I'm reminding myself that he's famous. I'm excited about the show today, however, the thought of going out for dinner and having alone time with him tonight excites me more. I chuckle and then there's a knock at my door.

"Come in." The door opens and it's Kookie. My eyes open in surprise as I smile broadly.

"Hi, Baby, I only have 15 seconds," Kookie says stepping in and shutting the door quickly. "I can't give you the kiss I want to because we're in make-up," he says and puckers his lips, leans forward, and gives me a few pecks on my lips. "I just needed that, Tae. See you in a few minutes."

He winks and exits, as I fall back into my chair and nearly collapse. Fuck, did he just call me baby? My heart is racing as I'm convinced that it will explode at any minute. I do not doubt that he is into me as much as I am into him.

As I walk onto the set I feel as if I've had a bit too much to drink. I'm still spinning fom that simple yet impactful gesture of Kookie's kisses. I've initiated pretty much every advance until now. He wants this as much as I do. And that's a lot.

Kookie is glowing and so incredibly radiant as I take the seat next to him. For a moment I forget that millions of people are watching us. I feel a tingling sensation all over my body. As I become aware of the audience, I feel a bit self-conscious. Can they tell that I've fallen for this man?

In about five minutes I settle down and find myself in that natural and comfortable flow I have enjoyed several times with Kookie.

"So, Taehyung, we are all excited to hear your Christmas menu. Please don't keep us waiting," Kookie says and smiles that special smile that I suspect, and hope is there just for me. The audience roars with applause and I begin to recite my menu.

Kookie calms the audience down. "How are we to hear his menu if you don't get a hold of yourselves?" he teases them as the audience laughs. "Taehyung, I hope you won't intimidate me with your menu and surpass my culinary skills," Kookie says jokingly as his cute bunny smile broadens.

"Hahaha. Kookie you are an excellent cook and everything I have on my menu you have featured. You are being far too modest," I say as Kookie's cheeks show a soft blush while the audience cheers.

"Thank you, Taehyung. Now let's hear this menu. Don't keep us waiting a minute longer," Kookie says as I feel a gleeful warmth.

I realize that I really want to do a good job for him and all those viewers supporting my Christmas wish. But more for Kookie. I want him to be pleased with me.

I pause feeling a bit overwhelmed by the moment that so many are waiting for. The pause becomes awkward as Kookie recognizes I'm having a bit of trouble.

"So, what shall our main course be, Taehyung?" Kookie says leading me skillfully. His smile is soft and reassuring as I look down at the list I'm holding.

"I have two main courses, Kookie." I tell him.

Kookie's eyes light up and his smile expands.

"A pork crown roast and a baked ham with brown sugar citrus glaze." I take in a deep breath and slowly release it as I begin to relax.

"Taehyung, I love it already and we're just getting started," Kookie says with enthusiasm. He then puts his elbow on the armrest and places his chin in his open palm leaning forward. His eyes are filled with excitement and anticipation.

"We'll start with an orange, radish, and butter lettuce salad and sea salt poppy seed cloverleaf rolls with salted brown sugar butter."

"Ohhhh, Tae," Kookie moans as I shift a bit in my seat as my body again reacts to his sensuous moans. Anymore of that and I'll have an embarrassing situation with tightening pants. "I like that touch of the salted brown sugar butter with the cloverleaf rolls. It's a nice compliment to the baked ham," he says nodding.

I smile as I know he is pleased with my selections so far.

"Awesome start, Tae. Please continue." Kookie urges me on. "Let's hear those sides." Kookie is so supportive and helps guide me through. He is a true professional.

"Melting sweet potatoes with walnuts and whipped potato casserole, are the sides."

"Mmmm yes," Kookie responds. "Keep going. You have us now," he says as he effortlessly moves the segment forward. Kookie doesn't know it, but he is the one that has me as my dick twitches to the sound of his moaning and I again shift in my seat.

"Our vegetables are creamed greens with garlic breadcrumbs served alongside root vegetable and butternut squash," I report as Kookie dramatically tosses his hands up.

"Ohh,Taehyung, you are killing us." Oh I'd like to kill it alright. My thoughts quickly shift to pounding him in his bed as he elicits those beautiful moans. I exhale and pull myself back to the present moment.

"Now you know what I want to hear next. What is it, everyone!?" Kookie shouts as he looks towards his audience. They shout, "Dessert!"

I'm really tickled by Kookie's response as I laugh and continue. "Finally, a triple chocolate mousse cake and the ultimate pumpkin pie."

"Oh God, Mmm yes, Tae yes! I'm a whore for chocolate," Kookie responds in a low sensual voice. I'm grateful to be at the end of my menu because my twitching dick can not stand any more. How does this man do this to me?

The audience, without any cue from Kookie, stands and applauds. After nearly a minute Kookie manages to settle them down.

"Well, Tae, that's an ambitious menu and it will take a lot of work. I'll certainly need help in the kitchen," he says as I nod and expand my smile, hoping he'll be wearing my favorite pants.

"Kookie, I was hoping all along to assist in the kitchen," I say crossing my legs the knees and feeling confident.

Kookie and I do a segment on decorating specific rooms in the home for Christmas. I can't help but think about how much I'd love to be decorating our home for the holiday. His ideas are great, and I feel truly seen when he asks for my opinion which I'm happy to give.

Then, in the last 10 minutes of our show, I prepare to tell a Tannie and Zeus story. However, before I start Kookie tells the audience there something he wants to share with them. His smile is gone, and the moment feels somber as he looks down briefly, pauses and proceeds.

"You guys all know about my little fur baby, Uno." Kookie says. "Well, I have good news and some sad news." The crowd settles down and waits for Kookie to continue. I can feel the tension in the studio.

"As you also know Uno is cared for by a wonderful family in the country. With me living and working in the city I cannot visit him as often as I would like. He loves his family home in the country. There's a generous amount of land for him to run and play on and he is very attached to the children as they are naturally attached to him," Kookie says as the audience is silent and I bite down on my lip.

I wonder where Kookie is going with this story. I search his eyes and they appear sad as does his tone. I feel a quickening in my pulse as he continues. I wish I could hold him in this moment, which I know will be sad.

"The family will be moving soon, and the children are heartbroken that Uno is not coming to their new home. They are small and don't understand," Kookie says as the audience can be heard responding with gasps and sounds of sympathy.

Kookie's legs are crossed, and he is bouncing one foot. Naturally, he is having difficulty with sharing this. I can't help but think I would have liked him to share this with me earlier so I could have supported him before the show. I'm quickly reminded that our relationship as friends is new and that trusting me in such a vulnerable way is unrealistic. I slowly nod my head as he continues.

"I made the decision earlier today to allow Uno to stay with the family that's really his family more than me." The audience, coos, and murmurs "aww" in response to this statement.

"Uno is very connected to this family and those little ones. They are all excited. Although I am sad," Kookie pauses, and sighs before he continues, "I am happy that Uno has a family and home where he is loved and very well cared for." Kookie ends as the audience all stand and clap as several members shout out.

"We'll miss Uno!"

"It's okay, Kookie, we love you!"

"You're the best Kookie!"

I swallow hard and join the audience as I stand and clap smiling softly at him. After Kookie repeatedly thanks the crowd they return to their seats. Kookie clears his throat and continues to talk.

"Everyone, when I came into work today Taehyung was entertaining several staff members with a few stories about his pets. Taehyung does not know this but the joy others were getting, from his loving pet stories gave me the lift I needed. Unfortunately, I missed the stories."

"I can't wait to hear one of those pet stories, so I asked him to share one today with all of you. I think we all could use a lift because Uno belonged to us all."

The audience madly cheers as I feel a warmth radiate throughout my entire body. Suddenly the birthday picture I shared with Namjoon appears on the large screen as the audience responds with a mixture of laughs, claps, and coos.

The audience is right there with me as I share my story, but most importantly, Kookie. He laughs so hard that tears run down his cheeks as I tell the part when Zeus nudged the table too hard trying to get his special birthday treat, which was a baked apple, and everything went flying. In the end, Zeus got his treat and most of my cake.

We later have dinner and my time with Kookie is immensely enjoyable. We have an amazing connection which seems to expand as we spend more time together. We are truly getting to know each other.

We both have shared about our brothers and parents. He's very interested in what I do. It appears that he or someone, probably Jin has done their homework on me.

He knows about my corporation, money and what we do. I get it and I like it. He would not have looked into me if he did not care. He's a big celebrity and naturally should be careful.

We kiss and are close throughout the evening. Leaving him each night is difficult but we both are committed to taking it slow. My body responds to his touch which is amazing. I find myself pulling back to limit my arousal and growing need for him.

One evening, Kookie invited me over and I met Jimin. He is delightful. Like Kookie he is smart, classy, and on the top of his game. He also is flirtatious but not in an inappropriate way.

I think it is just his way. He, like Suga, doesn't have much of a filter. Although they are opposite in many ways, I look forward to their meeting.

A week has passed, and I have completed three appearance on Kookie's show. There is always so much to talk about, and I always end with a Tannie and Zeus story. I would have thought that my popularity on social media would have diminished by now however it continues to swell.

Namjoon and Jin couldn't be happier with the ratings and viewers reaction. Several times we have been trending on social media. Like the first week we put out my Christmas dinner menu. Jin said that many viewers are adopting our Christmas dinner menu as their holiday menu. It is a wonderful compliment.

Kookie and I have had three amazing dates. He showed me the city in a way I could never have seen on my own. I have to admit that the best views were him. We usually see each other daily if Kookie's schedule permits. One time he wanted to break an engagement he said was boring and spend time with me. I suggested he not do that although I would have loved to be with him. Reputation and one's word is important. He agreed and kept his commitment.

His beauty and adorableness are distracting in a good way. I feel so incredibly lucky to have him to myself at times. On our last date which was yesterday, we did a bit more than kissing.

Kookie invited me up for a drink to his beautiful penthouse in the sky. It didn't take long before we found ourselves on his couch grinding our hard cocks together with our hands all over each other. It took every ounce of strength in me to stop and not carry him off to his bedroom.

It is frustrating in a way I have never experienced before, because he is dear to me. I desire to make him happy. I want to please him and give him incredible pleasure. I want to taste him all over in the worst way. My dick throbs for him. I want to be with this man physically and emotionally. I-I love him.

Thinking back on this amazing week, I return to my hotel room after dropping my Hottie-in-the-kitchen off at his apartment. I'm excited because tomorrow Suga and Tannie arrive. I can't wait for Suga to meet Kookie.

There's another reason I'm excited. I will ask Kookie to be my boyfriend tomorrow evening. I want to be with him on a deeper level. I want a commitment.