March 5, 2043

1:55 p.m

Kaizer POV

I was at the park with A'dream and the kids. I got Alyssa and Ivory this morning so they were with us too. I haven't said not one word to Dream since she told me that shit last night.

I wasn't talking to her because I wasn't trying to say anything I'll regret. Nor was I trying to do anything I'll regret.

My feelings were just hurt because I was actually going to put a ring on her finger.

Now I would go and fuck another bitch and get her pregnant on purpose, but that's too much drama.

Looking as Dream pushed the girls on the swings I smiled. Zyaire was in one with Alyssa, for the girls Alyssa was the sweetest one.

That's when I noticed King was gone. Looking around I didn't see him.

"King!" I called standing up. I looked out into the field seeing him just walking around by himself.

I sighed running over to him. He turned around seeing me. He shook his head continuing to walk until I picked him up.

"Put me down please." He said and I scrunched up my face.

"What's wrong?" I asked as he squirmed around trying to get down.

"Leave me alone." He said and I held onto him tighter.

"What I do?" I asked and he hit me right in my damn face. Shit hurt too, nigga got grown man strength.

"Put me down!" He yelled and I kissed his cheek.

"What's wrong? Why you upset?" I asked and he huffed.

"Can I not just be alone? For once?" He asked.

"You wanna talk?" I asked and he nodded slowly. I put him up on my shoulder holding his hands.

"Ight now talk." I said starting to walk around.

"I'm just trying to enjoy my peace while I can. As soon as we go home you and mama gon tell me to take care of my brother and sisters. Y'all do it all the time, treat me like imma babysitter. What do I look like? Imma kid myself." He said.

"For like two years daddy, I was a dam- I was a babysitter. I took care of Zy and Lai. I DID, WITH NO HELP! I'm that smart and capable tho." He said.

"I just want some space I want time to myself. I wanna spend some time with my dad. But you always gone. ALWAYS. I don't see you-" He cut himself off by crying.

"I don't want you to get angry with me." He cried and I brung him around so I could hold him. I rubbed his back as he cried.

"I kept asking for you and you never came. You never called you didn't do anything. You left and I was waiting forever for you to come back. You missed my 3rd and 4th birthday like mama missed my 1st and 2nd. Y'all not there. Y'all were never there." He said and I shook my head.

"Then fight over me like imma toy. Imma human who's smarter than most y'all in this family. I'm King Isaias Gaulden, a human. Not a fucking toy, so don't treat me like one. If I wanna go wit my mama I wanna go wit my mama. I wanna go with you I wanna go with you. Don't argue over me." He said and I let him go.

"You been holding this in?" I asked and he nodded.

"I just feel tired and.....I'm angry. I'm mad at y'all. I am, I don't say anything tho because I don't want y'all to hurt me. I know you would daddy." He said and I looked down.

"Are you scared of me King?" I asked and he quickly nodded.

"Yes, I see how angry you get. And when you use to hit mama and I would look at her face......it hurts my feelings to know you did that to her. It shocks me that you did that to her. So yes, you scare me. That's why I never tell you anything." He said and I looked down.

Damn, even my son scared of me.

A tear rolled down my face.

"I'm sorry." King said backing away from me. I looked at him seeing him looking at my hands and they were balled up.

"King I'm not gonna hit you. I've never hit you." I said.

"Doesn't mean you won't." He said and I grabbed his hand feeling as he started to shake.

"I love you ok. I would never hurt you King no matter what. Lemme tell you what I told you when you was first born." I said pulling him closer to me

"Imma fucked up ass nigga. I done did shit in my life that I do regret, but it's over and done with. I am hurt and am in pain, I feel hopeless sometimes. I feel like giving up. Because of the fact that sometimes nobody is really there for me. But I can't give up, I got you and your sisters and brother to worry about now. Imma be there for you tho, always. No matter what you do. Cuz I know how it feels to be lonely, and basically abandoned. Shit be having you thinking deep, doing that suicidal shit. I don't want that for you, I don't want you to go through shit like that. But no matter what I promise you, you are going to be ok. And that's one promise I sure as hell know I can keep."

I looked him in his eyes seeing the hurt in them.

"King I promised myself I would never hurt you. No matter what because that's really not gonna help anything and it's gonna push you away." I said and nodded.

"King do you know who you are?" I asked.

"A big brother." He said and I smiled.

"That and a lot more. But you my first child. My first boy. You are the smartest child I have ever met. The way you think will get you so far in life ok, King listen to me." I said.

"You could be the first person in this family to accomplish so much. None of us have ever made it to the 12th grade." I said and he laughed making me smile.

"So y'all dumb?" He asked and I chuckled.

"Honestly, yeah. And we crazy. But that's just us, that's how we are, that's who we are. But don't be like us ok." I said and he nodded.

"Daddy I hope you know all I want is space. And for you to change-"

"I am working on that ok. Look at dat girl right there." I said turning him to see A'dream playing with the kids in the sand.

"Mama?" He asked and I nodded.

"I'm trying to change for ha, and for y'all. I'm trying Ight, just give me a chance ok. Shit don't happen over night." I said and he nodded.

"And you want space? Ok." I said.

"I wanna spend time with you too." He said.

"For my fifth birthday I just wanna spend the day with you." He said and I smiled.

"Ight it's up for dat." I said and he smiled giving me a hug.

"Please don't ever leave again. I need you here." He said.

"I promise you I won't. But you trust me, right?" I asked and he nodded.

"Then believe I'm not going anywhere. Without you. And imma change and give you space when you want it." I said and he let me go.

"Thank you, but hey I remember seeing a black box and it had a ring in it. Are you and mama married?!" He asked getting all excited.

"Uh no- no King. Daddy was going to do it, but he didn't." I said.

"Why?" He asked.

"Because we not ready, yet. We need a little more time." I said and he nodded.

"Y'all mad at each other huh?" He asked and I laughed.

"You just be observing." I said and he laughed.

"But uh yeah kinda." I said and he squinted his eyes at me.

"Stay right here please." He said before running off.

"Wait King!" I yelled and he looked at me.

"I love you." I said and he smiled.

"I love you too." He said before running again. I watched as he ran over to A'dream. He said something to her and she looked at me.

I seen her laugh before she ran over to me.

"You wanna talk now?" She asked and I stood up not saying anything.

"Listen I don't give a fuck about you being mad. But if you just let me explain Kai. At least hear me out." She said and I pulled out my phone only for it to be snatched.

"It was 3 or 4 months after I had Zy. I had took the kids to Miya and Trell ok. Me and Sierra met up and went out." She said as I just listened.

"It was one of her friends that was having a party. We got there you know having fun and stuff. Drinking smoking all that." She said.

"I drank a lot like a lot. I started winding down ready to go home. Sierra was nowhere to be found and I rode in her car there." She said.

"A guy a very nice guy came up to me and I told him I wanted to go home. He offered me a ride ok." She said and I rolled my eyes.

"As we were riding he started touching on me and stuff but I didn't mind it. Then things started to escalate. We ended up in the backseat of his car Ight." She said and I chuckled.

"You realize you cheated." I finally said.

"No I-"

"Yes the hell you did. We were together before you had Zy. I was in the hospital so we didn't break up. All that time we were together. You cheated on me." I said and she sighed.

"Listen I was drunk as the fuck, I was gone ok. I wasn't-"

"Alcohol ain't no excuse A'dream." I said and she huffed.

"Kai I swear ok. I just got a little carried away. I love you so much I would never just do that. I'm sorry, it was a one time thing. I didn't even remember until like 2 days after." She said and I nodded.

"Go get my kids so we can go." I said walking away from her going to the car. All the sudden something hit me hard as fuck in the back of my head.

I looked seeing she threw my phone.

All she gon do is push my buttons and then when I snap on her ass she gon call herself "scared of me" she ain't scared of shit and she know that. A'dream Masaia Rose ain't dat dumb she know what the fuck she be doing.

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