"Are you listening to me Ivy?"

My vacant stare eventually landed on Draco's pleading eyes. "No."

I didn't allow my eyes to linger for long, before I could even anticipate Draco's reaction I was already back to the dwindling fire that was in dire need of some fuel to build back its roaring flame.

Days had passed since our last time at the Astronomy Tower, now the peaceful place that I craved for my moments of normality was tainted by the loss of part of my soul. I couldn't lie to myself anymore, I couldn't lie to the people around me. I was lost, I was completely and utterly broken and there was nothing that I could do that would even come close to fixing the permanent tear through my heart.

"Don't do this Ivy." His voice wasn't as soft as what I had been used to hearing off him recently. The change in tone made my head snap to look to him. I couldn't help but allow the rage that lingered on the surface of my emotions for the last few days get the better of me.

"Don't do what?"

"Push me away.." His eyes flittered all over my face reading each piece of pain that had consumed me.

Even though he was the last person on this earth I would want to upset, the overwhelming darkness that had now thoroughly invaded me didn't seem to have the same remorse as my usual self. I watched as he sat waiting eagerly just for something from me, a word, a reaction, even a mournful breath but nothing came.

The sound of his pretentious scoff sent the rage even closer to the surface.

"What's wrong Draco?! Disappointed in my attitude? Confused by inability to flounce around you like some pathetic hormone driven, love struck teenager anymore?"

"Don't Ivy." He clasped his hands together tightly.

"No honestly! What is it Draco? Am I not good enough for you anymore? Too messy? I thought that's what you liked huh? A girl so fucked up she worships the ground you walk on!" I threw my body up off the sofa, striding my way closer to his defeated posture. "C'mon Draco! Don't go shy on me now! Not happy with the person you fucking made me?!"

"Don't say that." He avoided my gaze at all costs, running his eyes around anywhere in the room except for me.

"Why? Why not? It's fucking true isn't it? I'm not lying am I Draco?" I felt the bitterness seething its way out in my harsh words. "Take a long hard look Draco....look at the monster you made." My eyes so wide in pain and anger and I felt an ache in my head, the grip of my fists causing a incredible stinging sensation from my nails penetrating my palm.

His breath become more distinct, more irrational with each second that passed. His anger was racing up to mine catching up to me quicker than I expected.

"What the fuck happened to 'You'd do anything for me?' or 'You'd stand by me through anything' because to me you're doing a pretty shitty job of that. I'm fucking trying Ivy. What more do you want from me?" He paused but from the quiver in his lip I knew he wasn't finished. "I didn't make you into this. You chose this. You did this all by yourself."

For a moment I felt I could burst into laughter right there and then at the sheer audacity of his words. The fact he truly believed that this wasn't because of him. That I was going to walk into this life regardless, that I wouldn't of been fighting from the other side if it wasn't for him.

"...Fuck you Draco"

"Ivy, stop! Come on just come here. I didn't mean that, it- it's just hard for both of us right now."

"No I fucking mean it Draco. Fuck you."

I felt the familiar burn from the agony shattering its way through my body, my legs were moving me at such a pace I was completely unaware of my surroundings, that was until I felt my body collide with a force knocking me backwards, I quickly caught my footing and was greeted by an unfamiliar face staring back at me in dismay.

"I-I'm so sorry Ivy, I didn't realise anyone would be here at this time" My eyes scanned over the brunette, dainty Bambi looking back at me. Her eyes so soft and her face so pure, a face that I'm sure I would remember in a place like this but for the life of me I had no recollection of her. My confusion magnified by the fact she knew my name yet I didn't know hers.

"Do I know you?" My words came out bleaker than I had attended.

"Erm no probably not..I'm Astoria. Astoria Greengrass."

"Right." I tried my best to dart around her and get the hell away from everything but her words caught me up again.

"Are you ok?" I couldn't help but look at the honest concern sprawled across her face.

"Fine."

"Well if you want to talk about anything, I'm here" a smile reached her face and for whatever reason it sent a tremendous anger straight through me. The happiness of others no longer seemed to help me, instead only sending a fire of complete jealousy through me.

I traced a disgusted look from the top of her head to the tip of her toes.

"Move."

-

"I don't know if I prefer the bitchier version of you or not...I feel like I have competition." Pansy sneered slightly from over her book.

I flashed a conceited eye roll in her direction.

"So are you going to tell me what's going on or am I just going to have to go along with it again." She placed her book down on her bed.

"Go along with it."

"Well saves me the trouble of having to be your therapist I suppose. Anyway on a brighter note you know what time it is don't you?" Her extra large smile almost made me laugh slightly.

"Not a clue Pansy."

"Slytherin Party!!" She threw her hands up in the air.

"I have more important stuff on my mind than to entertain your alcohol problem Pansy."

"Rude..but no I'm not taking no this time, last time I got stuck with Blaise all night and I swear to god if I had one more shot...I think I would of gone there...I need moral support to make sure that DOES NOT happen!"

I rolled my eyes once more at her. "When?"

"Tomorrow" Her giddiness was almost infectious, I could feel myself lightening the more she spoke.

"Fine...on the condition I can use your clothes."

"Well obviously, I'm not going to let you go out in any of of your stuff."