Every night he looks at me

And I wonder what it would be-

Like to really be good enough

Just for once

Just for once

I keep repeating those untruthful words

'I'm fine'

'I'm fine'

'Just tired'

'I swear'

And they believe

They believe because they don't-

Want to know how I am failing

At life, at school, at everything

And especially how he keeps looking

Luring

Watching

Just to catch me in the moment

That I give up

And have enough

But I swear I'm fine

I don't need him as an option-

Just to get away from the destruction-

Of life and pressure

Of nothing in particular

'I'm fine'

'I'm fine'

'I swear I'm fine'