While eating lunch, I thought about the person that was there. Was it Amol? I was still quite confused cause I always saw him in my dream. For the past 5 months, he had been haunting me. My body was still in pain so I took some more pills and after taking a rest for like an hour, I took a shower.

After that, I opened the window and the soft wind kissed me. The view was beautiful and then the person sitting in the garden caught my eyes. It reminded me of the day when I saw him there on the bench. The person's back was facing me, he had long messy hair. Who is he? Is he one of the guards? But he didn't look like one. Somewhere I knew who that might be. I wanted to look at his face so slowly I went to the garden.

I stared at his back for a while and when he felt my presence he turned. My heart fell a little at the sight of him. It was Amol. He was a total mess. He didn't look like an old Amol. I wanted to ask him if he was ok or if something was wrong. I even wanted to ask him why didn't he stop me from leaving. Why wasn't I enough? There wasn't a day that went by without me not asking about where I got wrong and why I wasn't worthy. I stood there staring at him. If anyone came and looked at him, they wouldn't recognize him. Prarthi would be here anytime and seeing him in this condition, she would know something was wrong.

So, I didn't dream about him last night. He was there in the room. Looking at him, I realized how much I missed him. I wanted to run to him and hug him so badly. A tear rolled down my cheek. There was not a single day that went without me crying. Tears never left me and so did the pain.

He came close and I looked into his eyes. Those beautiful brown eyes and then everything came at once. Our marriage, divorce, and our baby.....yeah 2 weeks after I left, I found out I was pregnant but as a cruel person, I was. I wished it to never be born. What kind of mother wishes that? and so life punished me for wishing my own child, death. It took away our baby. After two months, I lost it in miscarriage. I came back to my sense when I felt him wipe my tears. I shook my head took a step back and then left.

The whole day, I stayed in the room, feeling miserable. Tears wouldn't stop. I locked the room so no one would open the door and see my condition. I looked at the room and realized it was not the room we used to live in together. How didn't I notice it? My mind was filled with memories that I didn't care in which room I was in. Then the thought that he may have married Ratna crossed my mind. My heart dropped thinking about them being married.

If they were married, she must be here but I didn't see her anywhere. Maybe she has gone out or maybe it doesn't bother her that I am here cause she already has him. I wanted to see that room. See if they live together. I went towards the room. At first, I hesitated to go near it. I took slow steps towards it but I couldn't bring myself to open the door. Every single memory hit me and my body started to shake. Thoughts of them living together made we wanna scream but pulling up all the courage in me, I opened it. It looked just the same as the day I left it. Everything seemed untouched. Even the bed sheet was the same but why?

"He locked this room after you left," A voice came from behind me. I turned to find Tina. She kept the glass of juice on the table and looked at me with a smile.

"I missed you, princess," she said coming to hug me. It was the first time she had called me by that name.

She hugged me and I hugged her back.

"I missed you too,"

"I am glad you are back. Now, it feels like a home," She handed me the glass of juice and left. I just couldn't quite understand what she just said. I ignored what she said and sat at the edge of the bed. Why did he keep this room locked after I left? Did he despise me so much that he couldn't bring himself to live here? Does he hate me? Of course, he does. He kept me here for the blood and nothing more.

I heard voices coming from the outside.

"Prarthi must be here," I thought and got up. I stared at the door thinking if I should go out. What am I going to say to her? She must be so angry.

I slowly went down and there they were all three of them. I looked at the smiling figure, Amol. He had shaved his beard and cut his hair. He looked good than before. I stood there watching him. He looked so handsome and that fucking smile always made my heart flutter. Our eyes met and I almost trembled. A tear rolled down my right cheek.

"Didi," prarthi said and I looked at her. She was shocked to see a tear on my face.

( Didi = sister in Nepali )

"I missed you too," she hugged me.

"I never thought I would see tears in your eyes. You really miss me, huh," She said in a teasing tone, wiping my tear and I rolled my eyes.

"My toe...i..i hit my little toe," I said looking down at my leg. I lied to her.

"Don't lie," she said studying me.

"I am not,"

I got nervous while she laughed.

"I know, how much you hate crying,"

I always hated crying but it always loved me.

"Ok, whatever but I am still angry. You lived for 5 months without bothering to meet me and came here without any call."

"I....i,"

"Now you guys are not going anywhere," she said turning to look at him and then at me.

We then sat talking. Prarthi did all the talking. She kept telling me that I lied and she was still angry about that.

"I was so angry, how could you be so heartless," she shook her head.

"My..my phone was dead," I lied again.

Time and again I felt his eyes on me and that made me nervous. After all these months I was still nervous around him. I couldn't even look at him. My heart was heavy and I wanted to curl up in the corner of the room and cry.

We then ate dinner. Rima and prarthi were the only ones who were talking like a long-lost friends. Suddenly, Our eyes met and I forgot how to breathe. Prarthi coughed and I came back.

"Love Birds," I heard her say.

"Are you free tomorrow?" Rima asked prarthi.

Thanks to her for diverting her mind away from us but what's with her question?

"Yes," she replied.

"Let's go shopping then,"

Hearing shopping she almost screamed.

"Yeah let's go. Didi, why don't you join us?" She asked me.

"Ah..umm Prarthi. She looks tired so let her rest tomorrow." Rima said and Prarthi nodded.

"I was also thinking....a.umm why don't you stay here for some days. You will get to spend some time with your sister and we can go clubbing," Rima suggested.

Prarthi looked at me but I said nothing. This was not my house and I was quite shocked at Rima's request but can't ask her to stay. What if she knows about us?

"Yes, please stay. It will make us happy," Amol spoke softly. I looked at him and then he looked back. Why are they doing this? I turned my eyes towards Prarthi.

Why was he doing this.? Instead of telling her the truth, he asked her to stay?

"No, you can't stay here nor can I cause I divorced him." I wanted to say screaming but I didn't.

Prarthi was looking at me asking for permission. Even if I didn't want her to stay, I nodded, and after dinner Rima and she went clubbing while I was alone in the house with the devil.