I love you

I love you every heartbeat just a little bit more

And I feel it when I sleep

I feel it when awake

I feel it when I feel like I feel nothing at all

my paradoxical love

I love you when we fight

I love you when we don't

I love you when we have sex all night

I love you when we sit for days just touching hands

I love you because you're you

I love you because you found me

I love you even if I don't

Because you're my paradox

My paradoxical love

I love you so much

But you'll never know

And I can't ever show

because my love has turned its volume down

And it's killing me, love, it kills me

My love has a leash that holds it back

My love is in chains that are just too heavy

My love is a wall that's pushing me down

My love is a bowl with a hole on the bottom

My love has a 50 km sign

Though it wants to go beyond

it just won't

And if I had it in me

I'd tear off the leash

I'd cut all the chains

I'd break through that wall

I'd tape up that bowl

I'd tear off the sign and take you on a road trip

But the road trip is too far

And my hands are just too tired

my painful little paradox,

my paradoxical love whom I love and I don't

It's just not fair that I loved him more

And it's not fair that I loved him freely

On a highway at night with no cars in sight

I sped and sped and never stopped

The car that only knew of gas

it's broken

why?

Why am I cursed to only once speed the road?

My paradox whom I can't reach though I can touch

I want to travel miles for you

I want to

I want to

I want to

For I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you so much, my endless torture

Just not as much

I love you as much as I can bear

but I can't bear much

My paradox

My paradoxical love