September 15, 2020

i have been here for a week and a half, we have been fighting every day for that week and a half, and it has been Timothée's fault, i'm not one to blame, but in this occasion the fault is on him.

so recap, we fight fight fight and then we talk and fuck like nothing happened, but today is different, he's a different kind of mad and cold. i just can't deal with it anymore.

we are sitting on the coach together and as always we start fighting for dumb shit, we start shouting, he starts with alex and i start with the problems we have. he says really hurtful stuff.

"we can't keep doing this" he says what we have all been thinking "yeah, agree, i just feel like i'm not making you happy anymore and you're not making me happy either" a look of hurt flashes on his face "are you serious?" he says "Timmy all we do is fight, this isn't healthy anymore" i mean is the truth.

"i've been trying to talk to you more and everything" he's frustrated i can tell "actions speak more than words" i am sad, i want a hug "Timmy you're the best person i've ever met but right now in this moment you're not the best for me" tears are threatening to spill, he gulps.

he hasn't spoken "maybe it wasn't the right time" i speak again "or maybe it wasn't the right person" he now speaks, and the tears are falling down, this hurts more than anything anyone has ever said to me, this broke my heart into fucking million pieces.

i'm full on sobbing right now, my hands are shaking and i want to leave, "so what now?" i ask between sobs "we can't keep doing this, is not good for neither of us" he says what we both already know "yeah we both know this" i'm bitter, "we should break up" we say at the same time.

we are looking at each other in the eyes and we both nod "Vic i just want you to know that i do love you and that i will always be there for you, okay?" why? why does he have to do this? "Same here Timmy, i wish we could have ended in a better place"

"i'll leave tomorrow to LA and we can keep in touch" i say, i'm saying this just to end good but i know we will not keep in touch "it's fine, you can stay here more if you like" he speaks "no thank you, i want to go home" it's sad that i used to call him home and now i want to get away from "home"

he just nods, he told me i could sleep in his bed and that he will sleep on the couch, and that's what we did.

VIC-T: guys we just broke up

EMBA: wait what?

OLIVE: you didn't tell us it was this bad

VIC-T: i thought we could fix it but no, i'm coming back to LA tomorrow i'm really tired and can't stop crying , i'll tell you everything tomorrow

OLIVE: don't worry vic,

take your time, we can wait ❤️

EMBA: you know we will always be there for you right? no matter what

he is not worth your tears, no man is worth your tears, remember that, we love you ❤️

VIC-T: i love you guys ❤️ good night

September 16, 2020

i woke up, made breakfast and before i could leave for the airport, Timothée woke up too.

he looked really bad, he had puffy red eyes, messy hair, and his dark bags were even darker, and indicator that he cried all night, i did too.

he offered to drop me off, and i was so fucking stupid that i accepted the offer.

after he said goodbye i got into the airport and made my way to the terminal.

before the plane took off i received a message from him "have a good flight! love you always❤️" it was more of a goodbye, he still makes my heart beat like crazy after just one text, i will never get over him.

i arrived and went straight to my mom's house, she hugged me, took care of me, gave me my "chocolate caliente" and she let me cry on her shoulder.

i was a mess, but this is life and i have to get over him, this was going to happen at some point and i have no time to cry over a man.

let's see how this get over him thing goes.

@vicdavisupdates1: Victoria with a fan at the airport in LA!!! the fan said Vic had puffy red eyes and she seemed sad an tired, let's hope she's okay! ❤️

username9: oh no :(

username98: it can be the lack of sleep!!

username65: why is she in LA, wasn't she supposed to stay in NYC for one more week??

username76: i think so yeah

username32 i hope she's okay 🥺🥺😞

username21: and she hasn't been as active as she normally is

username98: you guys are so dramatic honestly

username2: who fucking cares 😤

username44: she's very pretty, she doesn't have any imperfections

username953: what if they broke up? it makes sense right? she comes back earlier, puffy red eyes, they don't interact that much

username91: i don't think so, but let's not make theories about their relationship!!!

username02: she will be fine ❤️

chapter 48 done!! i'm sorry 😭😬 i had to, and this is not even the end of it, don't hate me 😁☺️ do you guys like long or short chapters better??

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