He Basically Told Me To Go But Here I Am Still Sitting Here Waiting For Him To Come Home,Waiting For Him To Be What I Need,Waiting For Him To Grow Up

Rell Called Me And Said "Lets Go Get Some Food I Know You Like To Eat Get Dressed Ima Be There In Five Minutes"

I Got Up And Got Dressed Fuck It I Ain't Waiting No More

I Slipped On Something Sexy I Felt Amazing But My Mind Was A Mess

Rell Text Me Like "Bring Yo Ass Out We Ain't Got All Day We On Side Nigga Time"

I Smiled To Myself…I Left The Kids With Vanessa And Walk Out And Hop In His Whip

He Has His Gold Front Iced Up And Looking Mighty Good

I Smiled As He Said "Taking All Damn Day…Fuck Was You Doing…You Look Good Tho"

I Blushed And Said "Thank You…You Look Fine As Well"

He Smiled At Me And Said "Well Thank You This Just For You"

I Just Blushed

"Where You Tryna Go"He Asked Me

"Anywhere Its Just Us.…Im Tryna Dodge Paparazzi As Much As Possible"I Said

"Who Is Telling You...Im On That Same Shit We Can Go Over To My Crib And I Can My Chef Cook Us Up Something"He Suggested

"Sounds Good To Me"I Said

"Say No More"He Said

He Drove Us To His Place When We Walked In He Had A Big Ass Mansion But It Was Empty As Hell He Had No Furniture Not Even A Panting On The Wall

"Its Nice…But When Do You Plan On Getting A Couch"I Said

"I Just Moved In…I Been Busy

..How Bout I Give You The Money And You Gon Pick Me Out One"He Said

As He Grabbed Me From Behind And Said "You Don't Have Any Woman In Your Life Your Mother? Or A Sister"

"My Mama Is Dead Rest Her Soul.…And I Don't Have No Sister Just A Bunch Of Wild Ass Brothers Who Im Trynaa Move Out The Hood But They Head Is Stuck In Them Streets"He Said

"Im Sorry To Hear That About Yo Mom...How She Pass If You Don't Mind Me Asking?"I Asked

"She Died Of Heart Failure In 07"He Said

I Couldn't Help But To Think Of August Grandmother Who Was Having Heart Surgery Today i Also Thought How Wrong It Was For Me To Suggest He Was Lying About His Grandmother

"You Got Me Or Not"He Said

"Yeah You Know I Could Help You Get This Whole Place Together Im Opening Up A Salon In A Few Months And I Designed Every Thing In There"I Said

"A Salon…So What Do You Do Hair Or Something"He Asked Me

"No...I Just Think Its A Smart Investment I Know Females And Us Females We Will Spend Whatever To Look Good And Weaves Will Never Will Get Old Or Played Out Its A Never Ending Business"I Said

He Looked At Me And Said "You Smart Must Of Went To College Or Something….I Should've Went To College You Know Further My Education Most Of The Time When Them White Folk Speak To Me I Sometimes Can't Understand What They Saying" You Can Look At Him And Tell He Felt About Himself

But I Smiled To Him And Said "Its Never Too Late To Go…If You Wanna Go To College Go You Have Enough Money To Go Where You Like...You Can Do It The Sky Is Limit"

"I Like Your Vibe You Know That"He Said

"I Peep It..."I Said As I Smiled

"Nah Its Something About You…You Cool,Smart,Funny I Can't Understand How Any Nigga Could Do You So Wrong"He Said Placing His Hand On Face

Looked Me In My Eyes And Said "Ima Pray For You...Ima Pray That One Day You Wake Up And You Just See What I See"

"What Do You See"I Asked Looking Back In His Eyes

"The World"He Said

My Heart Damn Near Skipped A Beat

"You Can See It Too Just Open Ya Eyes Up"He Said

It Was Like A Breath Of Fresh Air…Its Been So Long Since August Said Anything Nice To Me

But As Sweet As Rell Was I Knew We Was Playing With Fire

"Don't Fall In Love With Me…I Love Him I Do"I Said

He Smiled And Said "Love..Whats That?…I Don't Know What That Is….Come On Let Me Feed You"

Smiling To Myself Because The Way He Was Frontin Hard Was Cute To Me He Knew Like I Knew Feelings Were Being Developed

After We Ate And Had A Few Glasses Of Champagne He Dropped Me Off Back At Home

August Car Wasn't In The Driveway So I Figured He Was Still Gone It Was Around The Late Evening When I Got Home I Walked In And Catherine Was Standing Right In My Living Room

"Who Was That Dropping You Off"She Asked Me Being Nosey As Hell

"Thats Was A Friend Of Mine"I Said

"Married People Don't Have Friends"Cathrine Said To Me

"Tell August That"I Said

"Where Is August I Been Calling Him All Day"She Said

I Shrugged My Shoulders And Said "I Don't Know Where He Is"

"How You Not Gon Know Where Your Husband Is?"She Asked Me

"Apparently He Don't Wanna Be Found Or Else He Would've Called Me By Now Cathrine"I Said

"Yall Having Problems Again"She Asked Me As I Walked In The Kitchen

I Grabbed A Glass And Filled It With Wine

"When Are We Not Having Problems"I Said

She Shook Her Head And Said "Why Can't Yall Get It Together"

"I Don't Know"I Said Hopeless As I Took A Sip Of Wine

August Walked In

"There He Is The Man Of The Hour"I Said

He Ignored Me Spoke To His Mother "Hey Ma"

"I Been Calling You"She Said

"Phones Dead Been At The Studio….Where My Kids At?"He Asked

"Upstairs Watching Tv…I Sent The Nanny Home I Wanted To Spend Time With My Grand Babies...Aren't You Going To Say Hello To Your Wife"She Said To August

August Looked At Me And Said "Im Good"

"Asshole"I Said As I Took Another Of My Wine

Ayden Walked In And Saw August And Ran To Him And Said "Daddy"

August Smiled And Said "Hey Buddy…You Been Good"

"Yes"Ayden Said As He Smiled

"You Do Ya Homework"August Said

"I Didn't Have No Homework Today"He Said

August Smile And Said "We Maybe If Ya Mama Put Her Wine Down Maybe She Can Cook Us Some Food You Hungry?"

"Yes"Ayden Said

I Rollled My Eyes "Why Don't You Cook…I Cook Everyday For Them Your Home So Cook!"

"Its Your Job What The Fuck You Mean"He Said

"My Job Do I Look You Maid Or Your Mama You A Grown Ass Man You Want Something To Eat Make It Ya Damn Self!"I Said

"You Here All Day Long It Ain't Like You Got Shit To Do But To Drink Wine"He Said

I Stuck My Middle Finger Up

"Stop It!…Look I Will Cook Just Stop Arguing Yall Don't See That Baby Right There"Cathrine Said

"Mama You Ain't Gotta Cook You Just Landed..I Know You Tired I'll Just Ordered Some Food Like I Do Every Damn Night!"He Said

"Whatever August"I Said

"Stop Talkin To Me"He Said

"Right Cause You Don't Wanna Talk To Me You Wanna Talk To Miracle"I Said

"At Least She Cooks Fa Me"He Said

"What You Just Say To Me"I Asked Calmly

"Ya Heard Me Nigga!"He Said

"Put My Baby Down"I Said As I Walked Over To Him Ready To Kill

"Get Out My Face Gon Drink Ya Wine"And When He Said That I Took The Whole Entire Glass Of Wine And Threw It On Him

Before He Could React Catherine Got in Between Him

"Okay Okay Thats Enough"She Said

August Put Ayden Down Took His Shirt Off And Was Ready To Fight Now

"How You Like That Now Bitch"I Said As I Smiled

"Okay My Mama Can't Save Foreva Remember That!"He Said Leaning Back With His Fist Ball

"Yo Mama Ain't Gotta Save Me…Im Good You Wanna Hit Me Like The Punk Ass Bitch You Is Go Ahead Don't Act Like You Ain't Neva Put Ya Hands On Me Before Come On Nigga Whats Good"I Said

"Keep Running Ya Motherfuckin Mouth...Yo Mouth Gon Get Ya Fucked Up Tonight"He Said

I Made A Stankface And Said "I Know Where You Been You Smell Just Like Her"

"Don't Worry Bout Where I Been"He Said Calmly

"Its Cool You Ain't The Only Who's Been Creeping"I Said Angry

"Creeping What You Tryna Say"He Said

"Why You Been Doing You I Been Doing Me…You Think You Playing Me But I Been Playing You"I Said Trying To Make Him Mad

"Mommy Look Im Wet"Ayden

I Laughed And Said "Im Sorry Baby I Wasn't Tryna Get You Wet Take That Shirt Off Before You Get Sick"

And As I Was Taking My Son Shirt Off August Walked Behind Grabbed Me By My Hair And Dragged Me By Hair From The Kitchen All The Way To Our Living Room

All I Heard Was Ayden Screaming And Catherine Yelling "August Don't You Put Yo Hands On That Girl"

Next Thing I Saw Was His Huge Fist Smashing Into My Face

"Say Something Now Bitch"He Said As He Balled Up His Fist And Punched Me Again In My Face

I Couldn't Think,Cry,Or React All I Could Do Was Feel Pain In My Face

He Hit Me One Last Time This Time In My Face "I Told You Ya Mouth Was Gon Get You Fucked Up"

He Yelled At Me I Couldn't Really See Him Because My Vision Was A Little Blurry

He Walked Away And Than I Heard The Door Slammed Soon Afterwards

Cathrine Ran Over To Me And Said"Oh My God Are You Okay"

"Mommy"I Heard Ayden Screaming

When I Heard My Baby Scream I Faked A Smiled And Said "Im Okay Ayden" But I Wasn't I Was In Pain And Tears Slowly Filled My Eye Balls

"No Your Not Your Bleeding"Ayden Cried To Me

I Felt My Nose And Felt Blood

After I Calmed Ayden Down Cathrine Placed Frozen Peas On My Nose As Ayden Sat On My Lap

I Quickly Moved The Peas And Said "It Hurts I Think He Might Of Broke It"

"Why You Get Him So Angry"She Asked

"Angry Or Not He Shouldn't Have Put His Hands On Me Like That"I Said

"You Poured Wine On Him"She Said

"So What Look What He Did To Me He Hit Me In Front Of My Child...Im Calling The Police And Having Locked Up"She Said

"Now Why You Wanna Do That"She Asked

"Because He Hit Me…Why Everytime August Always Do Something Yall Always Tryna Justify His Wrongs Like That Is A Grown Ass Man Stop Babying Him"I Said

"You Was Picking At Him"She Said

"I Don't Care! "I Said

I Grabbed My Baby And Just Went Up The Stairs I Called Toya She Answered Like "Whats The Deal "

"Come And Get Me Now This Nigga Just Hit Me"I Said

"Bitch Im On Way I Already Got The Bat In Trunk"She Said

"Hurry Up I Wanna Be Gon Before He Comes Back"I Said

"Im On My Way"She Said

"Okay"I Said As I Hung Up

I Looked In The Mirror And I Saw That This Thing Between August And I Was Uglier Than I Thought