August

I Can't Rememba What Had Happened Just Too Much Hennessy Thats All I Rememba When I Woke Up With An Extreme Headache

I Woke Up Next To Miracle In Her Bed I Was Naked And So Was She

"Fuck"I Mumble To Myself

Trying To Remember What Happened Praying To God I Ain't Fuck Her

She Opened Her Eyes And Looked At Me And Smiled Said "Good morning"

" We...Fuck Last Night"I Asked Her

She Smiled "I Tried To Stop You...But You Was Like An Animal"

I Shook My Head Mad As Fuck Really Mad At Myself Tho Cause I Promise Myself I Wasn't Doing Shit No More To Ziah

I Jumped And Put My Draws On Pissed

"Whats Wrong"She Asked Me

"Im Married! Thats Whats Wrong"I Snapped

"I Know But You Said That You Love Me"She Mumble

"What!"I Asked

She Spoke Up And Said "You Said That You Love Me Last Night!"

Her Eyes Began Getting Wet

"I Was Drunk…You Know I Ain't Mean That Shit Ya Know That"I Said

"Why Do You Keep Doing Me Like This August"She Cried

"Like What!"I Asked

"Keep Dragging Me Along

….You Keep Selling Me This Dream That Maybe One Day We Can Be Together Than You Just Break My Heart"She Said

"How Can I Fuckin Be With You When I Got A Fuckin Wife And Kids"I Yelled At Her

"Was You Thinkin About Them When You Was Lickin My Pussy! I Think Not ! "She Yelled

"Well Im Thinkin Bout Em Now...Go Find You A Man Who Loves You Stop Thoting Settled Down And Maybe One Day You Can Have What Ziah Have?"I Said

" What Does She Have? A Man Who Can't Keep His Penis To Himself?"She Asked

"You Mad..."I Said Smiling

"Mad About What?"She Asked Wiping Her Tears

"Mad Cause Ima Fight For Her But You Can Only Get Drunk Dick From Me "I Said Putting My Clothes On

"Go Fight For Her…I Don't Care August Im Done!"She Said As Tears Fell From Her Eyes

"Whatcha Crying For Cheer Up You Got Ya Pussy Licked"I Said Being An Asshole

"Yup Sure Did"She Said Wiping Her Tears With Her Mad Ass

Fuck How She Feel…I Gotta Find Ziah…I Gotta Talk To Her Now

Aziah

Rell Left My Hotel Room Early This Morning I Surprised The Boys By Having Room Service Bring Up Chocolate Chip Mickey Mouse Pancakes

When They Woke Up They Were Both Filled Up Energy And Smiling And Just Kissing Me I Felt Like A Million Dollars Even Though Me And August Was Kinda Going Through It

I Sat Em Down And Watched Them Eat When I Heard A Knock At My Hotel Room

"Who Is It"I Asked

"Its August"I Heard Him Say From The Other Side Of The Door

"Its Daddy"Ayden Said Smiling Being Excited

"You Sit There And Eat Your Pancakes Ima Go Talk To Your Daddy Alone Keep An Eye On Your Brother"I Said To Ayden

"Okay Mama"Ayden Said To Me

I Opened The Door And Step Outside…I Couldn't Even Look Him In His Face After What Happened Last Night

"I Can't Come In"He Asked

"You Good"I Said

He Smiled And Said "Damn..Its Like That"

"You Hit Me In front Of Our Son…Look At My Face August…"I Said Pointing To My Face With Tears In My Eyes

"Ziah…I Was Just Pissed You Know How Ya Mouth Is And Sometimes You Pissed Me Off I Didn't Mean To Hit You Like That I Just Blackout…You Know..I Would Neva Hurt You Or My Kids..I Love You"He Said

"Oh You Love Me? "I Asked

"More Than You'll Eva Know..I Know Things Been Rough Between Us And Its Mostly Been Because Of Me But Im Here I Want Us…I Want This To Work"He Said To Me

I Looked Him In His Eyes And I Just Had To Asked Him "Did You Sleep With Her"

I Could Fell My Eyes Fill Up With Tears As My Heart Begans Breaking

"With Who Miracle?....No…I Did Not Sleep With That Girl Baby I Only Love You You The Only Woman I Eva Wanna Sleep With"He Said To Me

But Behind Those Pretty Brown Eyes Of His I Knew He Was Lying I Felt In My Heart That He Was Lying

And Even Though I Knew He Was Lying I Still Just Pretended That He Was Telling Me The Truth

August Had Lied So Much To Me I Think That His Lies Don't Even Don't Hit Me Like They Use To No More Im Ashamed To Say

He Leaned In And Kissed Me

Another Reason Why I Think I Believed His Lies Is Because I Felt Guilty Guilty For Falling In Love With Another Man

"I Love You"He Said Looking Me Dead In The Eye

"I Love You"I Said Back

He Took Us Home And I Swear Soon As I Got Home Again I Started Feeling Real Sick Again

Within A Few Days Cancer Was Flaring Up Badly I Couldn't Get Out Bed For About Four Days

August Was Packing Up Getting Ready To Leave For Chris Brown One Hell Of A Night Tour He Was Only Gon Be Gon For A Few Months Or So

He Felt Bad For Leaving Because He Knew I Was So Sick

He Made Sure I Had About Three Nurses Two Extra Nannies And A Bible

I Could Barely Sit Up Straight Watching Him Leave

"Okay I Think I Got Everything"He Said Packing His Things

He Picked Me Up And Said "Everythings Gon Be Okay" He Was The Only Person In The World Who Could See How Weak I Was And How Afraid I Was

"You Hear Me"He Said

I Slowly Nodded My Head

He Kissed My Forehead "Smile For Me"

I Gave Him A Half Smiled

He Laughed And Said "That Was So Fuckin Weak"

Making Me Giggled "I Don't Feel Good"

"I Know…But You Will In Due Time Mama.. So Get Back In Bed And Get Rest"He Said Laying Me On My Back And Placed A Blanket Over Me

"I Got A Driver Thats Gon Drive You Back In Fourth To Chemo…So Don't You Worry About Anything..Just Get Better"He Said

"I Love You"I Said

"Love You...Ima Call You When I Land"He Said

"Hurry Back"I Said

"As Soon As Possible"He Said

August

Things Ain't Always Perfect With Us But I Will Do Anything To Make Ziah Feel Better

I'll Rub Her Feet,Make Her Food,Give Her Hot Baths,And In Some Situations I Will Even Lie To Her Just To Protect Her Cause I Don't Wanna See Her Hurt

Just To Keep Her Happy I Call Myself Protecting Her This Way Cause I Can't Stand To Break Her Heart Again

I Was Drunk When I Fucked Miracle It Ain't Mean Shit To Me…If Ziah Ever Found Out She Would Divorce My Ass Quick She Already Told Me That Cheating Shit Wont Be Tolerated

And I Tried So Hard…I Just Had To Get Drunk And Take My Ass To Mircale House

I Can Lose It All For One Mistake So No Matter I Gotta Keep This From Ziah

A Month Has Passed By And Things Were Going Smooth Ziah Was Feeling Better,I Was On This Tour Getting This Money And Me And Ziah Was Getting Along

Life Was Good And As I Was On My Way To The Airport I Gotta Call From Mircale I Haven't Heard From Her In Weeks

Things Was Going So Good I Ain't Even Answer The Call From Satan I Sent Her To Voicemail

And I Called Ziah

She Answered The Phone "Hello'

"What You Doing.. ."I Asked Her

"Im Getting Ready For My Mother's Wedding August She Looks Amazing I Wish You Was Here"She Said

"I Know Man...Did She Get The Gift I Sent To Her"I Asked

"Yes...You Brought My Mama A Bentley Truck That Is Crazy You Made Her Get Real Ghetto Up In Here She Gotta Bentley Now She Don't Know How To Act…You Made My Diamond Pearls Look So Shitty"She Said Laughing

"Nah Ya Mama She Deserves It She's Been Through Alot She Gave Me My Whole Life…Ayden Being Good"I Asked Her

"No He Keeps Trying To Eat In This Tuxs"She Said

"Did You Feed Him Before Him On It"I Asked Her

"Umm Yes But These Are Your Kids They Like To Eat All Day….Im Bouta Send You A Picture Of Azian He Looking Just Like You"She Said

Miracle IMessage Me : Call Me I Have Something To Tell You Its Important

The Fuck She Gotta Tell Me Im Asking Myself

"Hello"Ziah Said

"Yeah Baby…Send Me A Lot Of Picture…..Im Almost At The Airport Ima Call You When I Touch Down In Dubai"I Said

"Alright I Love You"She Said

"Love You"I Said

I Hung Up And I Called Miracle

She Answered The Phone And Said "Hello"

"Wassup?"I Asked

"I Been Calling You And Calling You"She Said

"I Been Busy You Got My Attention Now So Wassup What You Got To Tell Me " I Said

"August…Im Late"She Said

"Okay And….What That Gotta Do With Me"I Asked Her

"August I Took A Pregnancy This Morning And Its Positive"She Said

"What?"I Said

"I Been Sick Ass A Dog Lately I Thought I Had The Flu But Im Pregnant…I Can't Believe This"She Said

"Pregnant Are You Sure?"I Asked Her

"I Took Three Pregnancy Test And They All Positive"She Said

"Is It Mines?"I Asked Her

"You The Only One I Been Sleeping With Its For Sure Yours Congrats You Gon Be A Father Again"She Said