Now I Was Dressed Real Sexy And Was With My Girls Tonight All I Wanted Was To Have Some Fun Thats All

I Just Needed A Night To Myself And I Didn't Wanna Think About August,My Shitty Marriage,Or My Life

As I Placed My Earrings On I Looked Down At My Wedding Ring And I Took It Off And Threw It In My Jewelry Box And Left

We Pulled Up To Rell Party And It Looked Like Half Of Atlanta Was Here

The Place Was Packed When We Walked And Its Black People,White People Hell I Even Saw An Asian Guy Getting His Party On

I Looked Around For Rell And I Couldn't Find Him

"Damn This Party Is Lit"Toya Said

"Its Crowded Can We Go Now"Brea Said

"We Just Got Here Lets Atleast Get A Drink"I Said

Than I Felt Someone Tap My Shoulder I Turned Around And It Was Rell

The Biggest Smile Appeared On My Face Ever "Glad You Could Make It"He Said Licking His Lips

"Well I Had To Come Support My Buddy"I Said Blushing

"Hey Rell"Toya Said Smiling

"Sup Toya"He Said Givin Her A Quick Nod

"You Looking Beautiful"He Said

Than He Looked Down At My Hand And Noticed I Wasn't Wearing My Wedding Ring

"Whoa…..You Missing Something On This Hand"He Said As He Grabbed

"Am I"I Said Flirting With Rell

And Than We Just Smile At Each Other Brea Peeped Me And Rell Flirting

"Excuse Me Ziah Can I Talk To You Outside….Alone"She Said

I Looked At Her And Said "Um Sure..."

"I'll Be Right Back Rell"I Said Smiling At Rell

"Hurry Up"He Said

Biting My Bottom Lip

Brea Took Me By The Arm And Pulled Me Outside In Front Of Rell House

"Whats The Problem"I Asked Her

"The Problem You Flirting With Another Man When You Married Whats Going On Why You Ain't Wearing Your Wedding Ring" She Asked Just Being The Concern Friend She Always Is

"Fuck That Wedding Ring It Don't Mean Shit To August So Why Should I Wear It That Ring Is A Lie To Our Whole Marriage"I Said As I Began Getting Emotional Tears Was Filling My Eyes

"I Know You Hurtin…..But This Isn't They Way You Handle Your Marriage Go Home To August And Yall Talk About This I Mean Really Talk About This"She Said

I Wiped My Wet Eyes And Said "I Can't…I Kick Him Out The House"

She Shook Her Head And Said "What Is Wrong With You...Do You Want This Marriage To Fail.…Or Is You To Blinded By Rell To See That You Playing A Big Part In Destroying Your Own Marriage…You Gon Do Something That You Gon Regret"She Said

"Than Let Me…Brea Why Can't You Be More Like Toy

……"I Said Stopping Myself

"Like What Gon Ahead And Say It Like Toya?…Toya Is A Bitter Lonely Bitch That Want You Too Be Lonely Just Her…..And Just Like A Dummy You Following In Her Direction….You Know What You Losing Your Mind,Your Husband,And Me...I Can't Be Friends With You I Don't Even Know You Anymore Sad To Say You Don't Even Know Who You Are Anymore"Brea Said As She Walked Angrily Away

"Brea.….."I Said Calling Her Name But She Keep Walking Away

Brea Had A Attitude And I Wasn't About To Chase After Her

I Walked Back In This Crowded Ass Party And Bump Right Into Rell

I Smile And Said "You Got A Quiet Room"

He Smiled At Me And Took My Hand And We Walked Up The Stairs Into His Master Bedroom

He Closed And Locked The Door Back And Finally It Was Peace And Quiet

I Sat Down On His Bed "Whats The Party For"

"For My Accomplishments…Im Young Black And Rich"He Said As He Pushed Me Back And Laid His Head On My Chest

I Giggle Because Clearly He Had Way Too Much Hennessy He Was Bent

"Babe Get Up"I Said

"I Wanna Stay Here With You Forever"He Said

I Turned And Faced Him He Was Looking In My Eyes "I Wish We Could"I Said

"I Knew This Was Gon Happen I Knew A Nigga Was Gon Fall In Love With You"He Said

"You Love Me"I Said Smiling At Him

"You Can't Tell"He Asked Me

I Placed My Hand On His Face As He Said "I Never Felt This Way About No One..And Im Scared Shawty I Ain't Never Been Scared Of Anything But Im So Scared To Lose You"

These Are The Things That I Been Dying To Hear…It Was The Way I Always Wanted A Man To Feel About Me

I Was Speechless Because He Was Reading My Heart Out Aloud And Those Words Did Something To Me

"I Just Wanna Make Love To You One Time That's It"He Said As He Climb On Top Of Me And Looked Me In My Eyes

"Than Make Love To Me...Please"I Said As I Looked Up Into His Eyes

And Thats Exactly What He Did To Me He Made Love To Me And I Didn't Think Of August Not One Time

It Was Something My Body Needed Some Good Old Lovin,Im Talkin Legs Shakin,Hair Pullin Sex

Have You Ever Made Love To A Savage Before?

Looking Into Rell I Knew I Was Safe,I Know That He Got Me And Never Once Did I Ever Second Guess Him Because I Could Trust Him

The Next Morning I Woke Up My Body Was Sore And Me And Rell Both Know What We Did Last Night Was Wrong But It Just Felt So Right

Rell Opened His Eyes And Smiled And Said "Goodmorning"

I Smiled And Said "Goodmorning"

"You So Damn Beautiful Come Here Gimmie Kiss"He Said As He Leaned In And Kiss Me

I Smile At Him "How You Feeling"

"Im A Little Sore…But Im Perfect Now"I Said

"A Little Sore"He Said Smiling

He Looked Me With This Look As If He Didn't Want To Ever Leave His Presence

I Placed My Hand On Cheeks And We Stare Into Each Other Eyes We Both Know That What Happened Last Night Could Never Happen Again

But That Didn't Stop Him From Whispering "I Love You" To Me

I Smiled At Him And Said "Last Night Meant The World To Me…I Need You To Know That…But..I Should Be Going Get Home You Know"

"Can You Stay Just A Little Bit Longer"He Asked Me

And I Just Couldn't Say No To Him Not After The Loved We Made

Going Home That Afternoon It Was Something Different…I Walked A Bit Different,I Smiled A Little More,I Replayed The Way Me And Rell Made Love In My Head Over And Over

I Was Feeling On Top Of This World Untill I Saw August Sitting On The Couch When I Walked In My House

Couldn't Even Look Him In His Eyes After What I Did With Another Man Last Night

"Where You Been?"He Asked Me

"Where Have I Been?Where Have I Been?"I Repeated While Thinking Of A Lie To Say Shameful

"I Was At Brea House…I Feel Asleep On Her Couch If You Must Know…I Thought I Thought I Told You To Leave"I Said

"Im Not Going No Where I Told You That.…Look…Sometimes I Can Selfish...And I Don't Appreciate You Like I Should And Its My Fault But Baby I Love You So Much….You The Mother Of My Kids You The Reason Why I Smiled And The Last Thing I Wanna Do Is Lose Ya Love Cause Ya Been So Good To Me"He Said

He Stood Up And Looked Me In My Eyes "I Apologize..…For Everything I Ever Did To You But Im Here And Ima Make This Work Even If It Kills Me Ya Heard Me?"

Looking At Him And Looking Around At All We Created I Realized That I Just Probably Made The Biggest Mistake In My Life

And All That Regret,Shame,And Guilt Hit Me All At Once Like A Truck

"Whats Wrong"He Asked As He Looked At Me

"I Think I Might Of Had One Too Many Last Night I Feel A Hangover Coming On"I Said Lying Again

"…You And Ya Girls Was Turnt Huh?…How Bout A Nice Shower…And Tylenol??…Ima Get You Right Than Ima Go Pick Up The Kids From Ya Mama House"He Said

"I Love You"I Said

"I Know…I Love You Too"He Said

"No..I Really Love You"I Said

"Ziah….You Good"He Asked Me

And I Wanted To Tell Him So Bad…I Wanted To Confess To Him So Bad...But As Looked In Eyes I Couldn't Bare To Tell Him The Truth About Last Night