After That Night I Put My Army Gear On And A Bulletproof Vest To Protect My Heart He Wanted War Well Now He Got One

He Wasn't Talking To Me And I Wasn't Talking To Him Either We Were Battling Against One Another And You Know Only The Strongest Survive

He Wanna Play The Petty Game Well Nigga Lets Play

First Thang First I Took Money From His Bank Account And I Enrolled My Baby In School And Than I Went Shopping On August Expense

He Been Walkin Around Here Acting Like We Was Struggling...When We Had Money Up The Ass..Even After I Spent A Couple Of Thousand We Still Had More Than Enough Money

I Don't Know What It Is But Shopping Feels So Much Better When Its His Money Im Blowing

I Walked In The House Wearing Brand New Knee High Balmain Boots Holding Bags In My Hands

August Was Sitting At The Kitchen Table

"So..You Stealing From Me"He Said

"No...I Took Care Of Are Child And Went Shopping "I Said As I Stared At Him

"Don't Use Our Son To Right Ya Wrongs I Specifically Told You No And You Go Do This Shit Anyways!"He Said

"Im Not Takin Yo Shit No More August...Im Am Not Those Bitches You Use Too Back In New Orleans Im Your Wife...Im Your Wife Nigga Don't You Know Without Me Theres No You What You Gon Do Without Me"I Said As I Pointed My Finger In Face

"First You Feeling Ya Self To Much Don't Talk To Me Like I Need You I Ain't Never Needed Nobody !All That Money You Took Out Of My Account All That Shit Came From Me Grindin On My Own!...And Them Bitches In New Orleans Would Of Neva Stole For Me...You The Only Petty Bitch I Was Dumb Enough To Married"He Said

"Bitch?..."I Repeated

"You Heard Me"He Said To Me Calmy

"Im The Bitch Thats The Mother Of Your Two Children And Thats Pregnant With Your Baby"I Said As My Face Turned Red

"I Don't Even Want That Baby,You Basically Trappin With Me"He Said

"You Know How Dumb You Sound"I Said

"Its Probably Not Even Mines"He Said

I Was So Angry So I Said "You Right" Just To Be Petty To Him

He Frowned His Face Up Real Quick And Said "What?"

"You Right Its Not Your Baby...I Was Fuckin The Life Out Of Our Chef...You Know Chef Jackson Right Here On This Table Maybe Its His Baby He Ain't Only Good For Cookin"I Said With A Smirk On My Face

August Stood Up And Threw A Chair Across The Room Angrily As I Started Regret Saying Those Words

I Could Actually See The Devil In His Eyes He Walked Over To Me And Placed His Large Hand Around My Neck And Grabbed It So Hard I Couldn't Breathe

"You Think ThatbShit Funny...Bitch I Will Kill You And That Motherfuckin Baby Right Now...You Gon Tell Me You Was Fucking A Another Nigga In My House"

He Looked Me In My Eyes And Said To Me "I Hope It Dies"

My Face Was Turning Purple As I Tried To Remove His Hands From Throat

He Finally Removed His Hand And I Took A Deep Breathe And Grabbed A Knife Off The Counter

"If You Kill Me You Goin Down With Me!"I Yelled Still Trying Catch My Breathe

August Grabbed My Wrist "Put it Down" Because He's Way Stronger Than Me He Manage To Get The Knife From Me

I Was So Filled Up With Emotions I Yelled "You Said You Hope Our Baby Dies...How Could You Say That Im Taking The Kids And Im Leaving You!"

"You Just Said It Ain't Mines"He Said

And I Started Crying

He Looked At Me And Started Feeling Bad And Said "Be Quiet Ain't No Nobody Goin No Where"

"I Know You Not Happy About Me Being Pregnant But That Doesn't Change The Fact That Its Still A Innocent Baby Why Would You Wish Death On Our Fuckin Baby August"I Cried Out

He Held Me And Said "I Ain't Mean It...You Know I Ain't Mean It...Ssh Stop Cryin...You Ight..Im Sorry"

But I Couldn't Stop Crying

He Kissed On Me "Im Sorry...Im Sorry You Heard Me I Love You And I Love My Baby....I Been Trippin I Know Im Just Stressed Out Right Now" As He Stared Me In My Eyes

And I Just Get So Weak For Him Looking In His Eyes I Just Surrender To

We Made Love Right On The Kitchen Counter

It Was What My Soul Needed,And My Body Lacked Of His Good Lovin

The Only Person In This World Who I Can't Stay Mad At..He Makes It Impossible To Hate Him Even Though A Lot Of Times I Just Wanna Hate Him

Truth Be Told August Is The One Person In This World Who Weakens Me With His Love

It Was Something About How He Looks In My Eyes And Tell Me Hes Loves Me That Makes Me So Damn Fragile For Him

We Supposed To Be At War Not Makimg Love On This Counter...Im Suppose To Be Mad...Not So Madly In Love With Him

After We Made Love He Kissed Me And Than He Kissed My Belly

I Think This War Was Over Now

"I Love You"He Said To Me

I Just Stared At Him

"Tell Me You Love Me"He Said To Me

I Looked At Him In Eyes "I Love You"

And Just Stared In His Eyes After All What We Been Threw I Just Wanna Be Happy With Him But Even Though We Just Had Incredible Sex I Still Felt Hurt

He Had A 12 Hour Photo Shoot For Vibe Magazine Cover And I Had A Play Date With One Of Our Neighbors

Her Name Was Toya And She And Her Son Both Came Over

The Boys Were Playing In Aydens Play Room Azian Was Taking A Nap And Me And Toya Was In The Kitchen Eating Red Velvet Cookies That Chef Jackson Had Prepared And They Were So Good

"Ima Need Your Chef Number"Toya Said

I Smiled And Said "I Will Definitely Give It To You"

"You Know What Would Go Good With These....A Nice Glass Of Good Wine Do You Have Any"She Said

"Oh I Don't Drink"I Answered

"You Don't Drink...Why Not"Toya Asked Me

"Because I Am...A....Recovering Drug Addict"I Said Being Honest

"Seriously...?..What Was You Addicted To If You Don't Mind Me Asking"She Asked

"Its Okay....Cocaine And Prescription Drugs Mostly"I Said Being Ashamed

"...My Mother Was A Drug Addict She Recently Died Last Year Heart Failure"Toya Said

"Im Sorry To Hear That"I Said

"Me Too..Even Tho She Was An Addict...She Wasn't A Bad Person She Just Couldn't Fight Her Addiction So For You To Be Clean I Respect You Even More Because I Know Its Not Easy"She Said To Me

"Its Not...Everyday I Wake Up And Look At My Babies And Im Reminded That My Love For My Children Is Stronger Than Any Drug In This World"I Said

"Kids Will Change You Me And My Fiancee Tony We Are Trying For Second Child...We Been Having Problems Conceiving And Plus He's A Ball Player So He's Always On The Road So It Hard To Get Pregnant When Hes Not Around...I Love Your House Its Like A Castle In Here August Makin That Good White People Paper"She Said As She Looked Around

I Laughed And Said "He Does Well"

"I Can See You And August Must Be So Happy"Toya Said As She Smiled At Me

"Not Even...I Mean Sometime We Are Sometimes We Not...Happiness Don't Last Too Long With Us"I Said Venting To Toya

"I Know The Feeling....Its Okay Yall Have Yall Problems Just Like Everyone Else"Toya Said

Than She Said "Everybody Has Theirs Ups And Downs"

Even Though Me And August Had Made Up I Still Was Hurt Over The Things He Has Done And Things He Said

I Was Damaged And He Kisses Couldn't Heal These Wounds On My Heart That He Created

He Couldn't Repair All That He Had Already Broken