I Would Have Never Thought In A Million Years That Me And August Would Be Broken Up Again

We Been Together For A

So Long I Couldn't Even Picture My Life Without August

But I Actually Left Him And Every Since I Left Him Hes Been Blowing My Phone Up

I Was Feeling So Bad For Him Because I Knew How Much He Needed Me And Now He's Finally Realizing What I've Been Known

It Breaks My Heart Knowing That I Want A Divorce When I Love Him

He Just Pushed Me To The Point Of No Return Now I Don't Think I Can Ever Been With Him Again

Before I Went Over To My Mothers House I Met Up With Toya At A Restaurant To Have Lunch With Her I Really Needed To Vent

When I Arrived To The Restaurant Toya Was Already Seated

When She Saw Me She At Me Smiled As I Sat Down At The Table Across From Her

"Hey Sweety"She Said

"I Left Him"I Blurted Out

Her Eyes Got Big And Said "You Did What Now"

"I Left....Im Filing For Divorce"I Said

She Grabbed My Hand And Said "You Really Doin This Shit"

"I Don't Know...He Just Made A Mistake Maybe Im Overreacting He Won't Stop Calling Me He Was Crying And Everything I Really Left Him In Pain"I Said Talkin Fasting

"Aziah"She Called My Name To Calm Me Down

"What?"I Said On The Verge Of Breaking Down

"This Time Its Not About August Its About You....After All The Shit He Done To You All The Shit He Put You Through He Deserve To Feel Like Shit You Ain't Wrong For Leaving Bitch You Should Of Been Left A Long Fuckin Time Ago"Toya Said

"You So Right I Don't Know Why I Still Care About His Lyin Cheating Disrespectful Ass Anyways"I Said

Than My Phone Started Ringing I Look Down At It And Saw "Hubby" Was Calling

"Give Me Your Phone"Toya Demanded

I Handled Her My Phone

"Im Turning This Off...Its Over His Fault Not Yours"She Said

Than She Gave Me A Glass Of Wine

"No Thank You"I Said Politely

"Drink The Damn Wine....You Gon Need Plenty Of Wine To Get Through This Divorce"She Said

She Was Right So I Took The Wine And Downed It

And All I Could Think About Was My Future

I Didn't Know Where Would I Stay Or What I Was Gon Do For Food Or What I Was Gon Do Without August.

Than I Heard A Voice Inside Of Me Sayin "Remember Who You Were Before You Knew Who August Alsina Was...Strong And Independent You Don't Need Em You Never Did Its Time You Gain You Independence Back"

It Was So Hard Being From Him But I Knew It Was Something That Had To Be Done He Was Taking Me And My Love For Granted For The Longest

I Had To Stop Thinking About August And His Feelings And Think Of Me Aziah For Once And Aziah Wanted More And She Deserve More The Way August Had Treated Me Was So Terrible I Just Hate That It Has To Come To This Because I Really Didn't Want To Be Without I Love Him

And That Night Going To My Mothers Was So Hard And Looking At My Babies Was Much Harder Cause All I See Is Him In Aydens Eyes And In Azian Smile

I Decided That I Was Going To Stay with My Mother Just Untill I Find A Place Of My Own

So Many Thoughts Raced Through My Mind So Many Different Emotions Going Through Me And On Top Of That August Continued Calling Me All Night Long

I Looked At My Phone And Hurtfully Decline His Call

Now Is Time I Move Foward For My Children,I Done Cried So Much I Don't Think My Body Can Make A Another Tear

As I Gave My Children A Bubble Bath That Night I Smiled At Them And Promised Them "We Gon Have A Better Life A Little Different But Way Better"

The Only Thing I Want From August Is For Him To Continue Being A Father To My Babies Other Than That I Don't Won't A Dime From Him

I Definitely Never Signed A Prenup Because He Knew He Could Trust Me He Knew I Would Never Be Money Hungry And Greedy

I Don't Want Anything From Him I Just Wanna Spread My Wings And Fly And Be My Own Woman

After I Read And Put The Boys To Sleep I Listen To One Of The 12 Voicemail August Left

"Ya Got Me Over Here Going Through It I Can't Sleep In This House All Alone My Kids Ain't Here You Left Me What Am I Supposed To Do,Im Over Here Throwing Shit Against The Wall..Why Ya Doing Me Like This I Love You You Know That Shit And I Might Of Taken You For Granted Shit I Ain't Perfect I Know Ima Asshole And Baby I Can Be Selfish Sometimes I Know But I Will Change I Promise You Ima Change Just Get My Kids Put In The Car And Yall Come On Back Home Please Before I Lost My Fuckin Mind Come Home Ziah!"He Said

He Sounded Very Intoxicated And Regretful

I Put The Phone Down Than I Kissed My Babies And Went To Sleep Me,Ayden,And,Azian All Slept In My Mothers Guest Room..

Just Me And My Boys Thats All I Need

The Next Day I Started Looking For An Divorce Lawyer When My Mother Walked In With Fresh Lemonade

She Sat A Glass Of Lemoade Infornt Of Me And Said "Take A Break And Take A Deep Breath"

I Pause From Searching For A Divorce Lawyer And Than I Took A Deep Breath

"Baby..You Gon Go Insane Why You Rushing"She Said

"I Wanna Just Get It Over Whats The Point Of Holding On When Its Clearly Broken"I Said

"Are You Sure Its Over"She Asked

"Yeah Why Would You Ask Me That"I Said As I Hald Smile At My Mother

"Because Your Ring Is Still On"She Said

I Looked Down At My Ring And Noticed That My Ring Was Still On

"I Remember A Time When I Was So In Love With Him A Time Where I Was So Happy From Being In His Presence Who Could Predicted That We Would Really Be Apart I Hate It Gotta End Like This"I Said

Right Than And There I Realized That I Really Don't Wanna End Like This... Six Years Can't Go Down The Drain Like This

I Have To Talk To Him......Right Now Itss Been Six Years And We Can't End Like This I Just

I Have Too See Him Now...I Left My Kids With My Mama Grabbed My Keys

I Have Too Look Him In His Eyes And Make Sure Im Not Making A Mistake

I Drove Over His Place...I Still Had Keys So I Used My Keys When I Walked In I Called His Name "August"

While Looking Around

I Walked Up The Stairs And In My Bedroom And My Mouth Dropped Open This Nigga Was Our Bed Fuckin Kacy

I Think Ima Have A Heart Attack Or Go To Jail