I Was In Bed Laying Next To Riley Early In The Morning "Would You Ever Go To Rehab" I Asked

She Laughed

"Im Serious"I Said To Her As She Continued Laughing

She Paused And Said "Nah I'll Probably End Up Overdosing And Dying Some Shit Like That"

"Why Tho Aren't You Afraid Of Dying"I Asked Her

"Nah I Be Through Alot Of Shit Dyin Seems To Be Easy"She Said

"I Don't Wanna Die,I Wanna See My Son Grow I Wanna Have More Kids I Wanna Get Marry"I Said

"You Snorted Coke Off My Ass Last Night Nobody Gonna Marry Yo Ass"She Joked

I Laughed And Said "Funny Seriously Though Don't You Ever Wanna Get Marry"

"Marry Girl You Dream Too Much,But Thats Why I Love You Ima Make Us Some Food You Makin My Head Hurt With All This Serious Talk"She Said As She Kissed Me And Got Up

But I Couldn't Eat Too Much On Mind I Needed Pain Relievers Like Now

I Was Thinking About How Many Precious Moments In My Son Life I Was Missing,How Serious August And Mircale Might Be,How I Hated My Mother,How My Father Abandoned And How My Grandmother Ain't Here To Save Me

My Mind Was Overfilled I Got Up And Searched My Purse For Pills Drugs Like A Maniac

Riley Walked Back In And Said "What You Looking For"

"We Out Of Everything?"I Asked Her

"Yeah"She Said

I Threw My Purse Down In Frustration

"Its Okay I'll JT He Got Percs Xans Whatever You Need But You Gotta Pay I Haven't Got My Allowance Yet"She Said

"No Problem Just Call Him Now"I Said

Than I Called The Bank To See How Much I Had I Found Out That I Had Not One Dollar In My Account

I Just Checked My Account Yesterday Everything Was Good Now Im On The Phone Arguing With The Bank Because I Been Robbed

Untill It Occurred On Me That August Took Everything Out He's The Only Who Has Access To My Bank Account

I Was Pissed,I Didn't Have Money To Get High I Was Losin It My Face Got Bright Red And My Heart Was Filled With Angry

I Was So Angry I Felt Like I Could Kill Someone With My Bare Hands

I Immediately Drove Over To August Place When I Pulled Up Him And Mircale Was Just Walkin Out The House I Hopped Up My Whip "Where's My Money"I Yelled

Walkin Up To Them Both I Was Furious I Was Havin Withdrawls Real Bad Withdrawls

"You Mean My Money I Took It All Back Last Night While You Was Somewhere Getting Fucked And High"He Said

"August Thats My Money!"I Yelled Losing My Temper By The Second

"Nah Let Me Correct Ya,That Money Was For You Take Care Of Ayden Ayden Is No Longer Living With You Now So You Cut Off You Wanna Get High Do It With Yo Own Money"August Said

Mircale Started Giggling And I Lost All Control And I Lost All Control

"Ima Give You Something To Laugh About"I Yelled

I Turned Around And It Went To My Car And Popped The Trunk

"Nigga You Gon Give My Money...You Got Money To Spend On This Bitch You Gon Give Me Back My Money"I Yelled By This Time All The White Rich Other Folks Who Lived In The Neighborhood Were Peeping Out Their Windows

I Was Causing A Scene

"What Ya Doin"August Asked Tryna Figure Out What My Next Move Was Gon Be

After I Popped The Truck I Pulled Out An Metal Baseball Bat

Mircale Immediately Ran Behind August Scary Ass Bitch I Wasn't Even Gon Hurt Her

"What You Doin"August Asked Me As I Walked Over To Mircale Mercedes Benz Trunk

I Took That Bat And Smashed It Into Her Front Windshield All You Heard Was Glass Shattering

"How You Gon Take My Money..My Money !"I Yelled As I Repeatly Bashed Her Truck Wit The Bat

Mircale Broke Down To Her Knees Screaming

"Aziah!"August Yelled

"Nah Don't Aziah Me You Took My Money Now You Gon Pay To Get This Bitch Some New Windows"I Yelled Walkin Over To The Drivers Side Of Her Truck

I Took The Bat And Busted That Window Out Too Travis,His Girlfriend,And A Few Other People Ran Out Too See All The Commotion

Travis Ran Out Holdin August Back Mircale Still Screaming Louder And Louder As I Broke Each Window Out Of Her Truck

Glass Scattered Everywhere "You Should Of Never Touched My Money"

I Said As I Threw The Bat Down On The Ground

"You Crazy Bitch"Mircale Cried Out

"You Aint Seen Crazy Yet...Keep Talkin Ima Beat All That Make Up Off Your Face "I Yelled

August Was So Mad Was Like An Animal Four Grown Ass Nigga Was Holdin Him Back

"Nah Let Me Go,Ima Kill This Bitch"He Shouted

"She Ain't Even Worth You Think About Ayden,Your Career Ya Fans"Travis Said To Him

" Yeah Think About Your Fans August..Thats All You Care About How You Just Gon Take My Shit! "I Said As I Walked To My Car With A Smirk On My Face I Got In My Car

And Pulled Off

I Got Home And Before I Sat Down On My Couch The Cops Were At My Door I Got Arrested For Vandalism And Someother Shit

Took A Mugshot And Everything Even A Few Hours In A Cell Didn't Do Me No Good The Only Thing I Regreted Was Not Smashing Mircale Head In With That Bat

I Called Riley To Bail Me Out But She Didn't Even Accept My Phone Call So I Sat Alone In A Cell For Some More Hours Until My Mother Finally Bailed Me Out When They Released Me My Mother Was Standing Out In The Lobby

She Shook Her Head Me "Are You Crazy"

"Just About"I Said

Than My Mother Looked Me In My Eyes And Said "Is It True...Aziah Have Been Doin Drugs" She Said With Tears Forming In Her Eyes

I Look At My Mother Smiling Sayin "Mama What Can I Say Im Just Screwed Up I Wish You Would've Just Followed Your First Mind And Just Had An Abortion With Me"

"Oh Lord"My Mama Cried As She Wrapped Her Arms Around Me And Whispered In My Ear "Listen To Me You Are The Best Part Of My Whole Life Im Sorry For Hurting And Abandonin You And Tellin You Those Things Aziah I Love You More Than Anything Else In This Life"

My Mama Cried Like A Baby Holding Me I Was Starting To Breakdown Seeing Her Cry So Hard For Me

I Felt Bad Makin Her Heart Ache Like That

"Mama Im Okay"I Said Tryin Not To Cry

"No Your Not...Your Not Your Sick "She Cried Hysterically

My Mother Was Literally Breaking Down She Became Weak To Her Knees And Began Praying For My Rotten Soul

She Dealt With Addiction In Her Past So She Knew What Road I Was Goin Down And As A Mother I Guess Your Biggest Fear Is Your Child Growin Up Becoming The Monster You Once Were