It's been months since Celina had died, and as expected.. Allen is not in his usual self

We know that the two of them love each other so much, that even his mother and father already talked about marriage

But this happened....

It will be the start of our final year, and I'm sad that Celina isn't here to perform on the biggest performance of our lives

And I'll work twice as hard, so that I can fulfill Celina acting like she's here with us performing

And I know she'll be having a blast like we planned to...

If only I told her sooner, what if I just let go of her? What if I didn't crossed the street so I cannot be hit again

I'm so guilty right now... I have lots of if's in my mind right now... I know that noone can dare bring up to blame me...

But I know that they think its my fault... This is all my fault... And I felt sorry for her

If only God will gave me a chance to make up to my mistakes, I will turn back time to tell Celina everything when Luke appeared

"Hey Anastasia"

I snapped back from my thoughts when I saw Luke with a sad face sympathising with me

"I know she's your best friend...but please concentrate" he said as I nod but I couldn't help it and be sad at the thought losing my best friend

He looked at my state and sighed as he hugged me, its been months but I can't still accept it

"she'll be sad if she saw you sad, Anastasia... Please do it for her, for us" he whispered at my ear

I feel protected... With him embracing me, Am I really lovesick at him? I remember the time when he opened up to me at Earth

He's literally perfect in every aspects, even now.. I kept falling for him again and again

5th year of school, after this year will end... We will go in our respective lives

I miss her... We all did, she's bubbly and cheerful... Even my gift of butterflies is sympathising with me

Whenever I performed my performance will be a sad and gloomy one

And the teachers is very dumb saying that I embrace the sad melody

What am I gonna do!!!

If it continues like this... Will I even get to dance hiphop without being sad?

Will my grades drop?

This is making me go crazy... Lord have mercy on me please... I don't want any more of my love ones be away from me

It's time for class, and this is the class that I'm afraid to come... Will the teacher scold me?

Were dancing hiphop.. And my emotions is still overflowing... Will the teacher sense it?

Should I fake it that I'm not feeling well?

Should i-

"OK class... Let's start by grouping yourself into 4"

The teacher said as we nod and a split second Crystal,Joshua and Luke then went to me

"You'll do great Anastasia" Crystal told me as I gulped

"I hope so"

"Will you court her again?"

I heard Joshua whispered in my ear as I smiled lightly

"i don't know... But she's with you, isn't she?" I ask him and raised my right eyebrow

"Tsk... How many times I've told you, we aren't together.. You know she's waiting for you" he said with a smile of encouragement

"She's always waiting for me, you know that"

"even Crystal knows... She's an easy girl to read.. Even how much she says that she never ever like you anymore but her actions and words say otherwise" he said

"I remembered her running up to you everyday... She's shameless, even though there's someone who is much famous and talented than you even richer and more handsome? She always choose you, and what's the difference now? She chose you as I chose Crystal" he added as we took a look at the two girls who are comforting each other

"It's not everyday when you lost your bestfriend... We've been through that" I said as he nodded

"Look, if you really love Anastasia, then... Court her ask her to be your girlfriend... You don't want to repeat what happened do you?" he told me raising his right brow as I nod

"I know, and I don't want to redo that mistake..." I muttered enough for him to hear

Remembering what really happened when were in earth, she confessed to me but I rejected her

Knowing its not right, I was older than them by a year... Me and Joshua are

She was devastated of course, every one rooted for her to be with me but I broke it

She distance herself from me and all kind of rumours then roam around school

Rumours that are not good to her... We haven't had that contact since then

She became cold towards me, she doesn't even lift her head when we're facing each other that's when I realise I love her too

I never knew... She's a cheerful and beautiful girl... But why me? Why me when there's other guys who is way better than me?

I guess love really has its own ways...

"Tell her to meet me at the rooftop tomorrow in early morning"