Bye👋

I type away finishing the last of my file and a knock disturbs me

"Come in!" I say packing my file.

Luca comes in and sits in the chair

"You called me?" He says.

"Yeah, why are you here?" I ask leaning into my chair.

He takes out the blue file and places it on my my desk.

"I was invited" he states leaning into the chair

"We both know I wouldn't want you here so why are you here?" I ask propping my elbows on the table.

"Can't I see my mate?" He asks copying my position and smirking

I lean back and crossing my arms, which draws his attention to my now lifted boobs. I immediately let my arms drop to my side.

"It's ex-mate and didn't I make it clear that I don't want to see you by running away?" I ask sternly

"But you know you missed me Novia." He says smirking

I get off the chair and open the door for him to leave.

"Please leave" I say gesturing to the passage

He gets up and closes the door.

"But Novio that's not what you said 5 years ago when I came to your room." He says uncrossing my arms.

"Please, I'm sure the only reason you here is to revive your now broken pack" I say crossing my arms again

"Actually, that reminds me I have to say hi to my beta and sister" he states turning to open the door

I stop his hand as it reaches the knob

"Stay away from my family. Losing two is enough" I say

With that is open my door and head to my room and changing into my gym clothes.

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I'm going under this time i fear there's no one to save me

This is all or nothing really got a way to drive me crazy

I need somebody to heal, somebody to know, somebody to have somebody to hold

Its easy to say but it's never the same. I guess I kinda like the way you numbed all the pain. Now the day bleeds, into night fall and you not here to get me through it all. I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug

"Nice voice" Luca says from the door holding up a book

"How did you find this room?" I ask.

No one is allowed in here not even Justin, he knows of it but he's not allowed in

"You should really watch your surroundings" he says lowering the speaker and holding the punching bag for me

I continue punching the bag after raising the volume again

"I need somebody to know, somebody to heal somebody to have just to know how it feels

It's easy to say but it's never the same, I guess I kinda like the way you help me escape. Now the day bleeds, into night fall and you not here to get me through it all

I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug. I was kinda getting used to being someone you loved.

And i tend to close my eyes when it hurts sometimes I fall into your arms I feel sa-"

"I'm sorry" I open my eyes and look at him.

"Excuse me?" I ask taking my water bottle and taking a sip.

"I said I'm sorry" he repeats. I sit on the bench and he sits soon after

"It's not that easy Luca. I opened my heart to you, after all that you did to me I forgave you and soon after you broke me...again" I say looking down

"I was forced to, my father made me choose between you and-"

"You chose the alpha title Luca" I say cutting him off

"I had no choice. He came after I left to the office. He say we were becoming cosy, he reminded me of the incident and how I should be blaming you for her death. Either I was going to choose you and be kicked out to the street with nothing or have a roof and the alp-"

"You chose the Alpha title Luca. We could've made it work. I spent those years dreaming of the incident, how incident blamed myself everyday saying to myself that i deserved the treatment i was getting.

You know I used to play this song every night, I'd cry myself to sleep. Blaming myself first the rejection and how I deserved it.

There was nothing Jus nor Lizzy could do. They'd always see me in the morning with bags under my eyes and how bloodshot my eyes were.

For 3 years Luca, 3 years i played this song to help me sleep which was highly unlikely. Justin would stay up holding me and telling me to get over you.

After those years in decided that I can't cry over you anymore. It took me some time to get back on my feet and now you back which makes situations more worse" I said

my voice croaking making it harder to breathe, my eyes sting from the unshed tears.

I struggle to keep it in as a tear slides down my cheek. I hug my legs tightly to me with my head between my knees.

"I'm so so-" "leave!" I look up to see Justin by the door folding his arms glaring at Luca.

He gets up and kisses me forehead "im sorry" he says with that he leaves.

Justin comes next to me and I place my head I plan his chest allowing my tears to fall freely

...the day bleeds, into night fall, and you not here to get me through the it all. I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug, I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved.

I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug, I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved