two days.

it's only been two days, and i'm thinking this.

my mind is racing and my thoughts are turning over and over in my head as i wonder and i overthink and i ponder every darkest possibility and i hope and i hope and i hope but it's all shot down because i worry and i worry and i worry but really only one thing triumphs in the very end over every loud banging racing thought that makes me want to grab a knife and stick it through my ears just so i don't have to listen to it anymore, only one thing stops the tears from falling from my eyes as i blink and i straighten my face so i stop overreacting, only one question so empty of hope and comfort yet so full of fear and distress rattles and echoes and thunders through the caves and valleys of my skull and seeps through every crack and crevice and corner of my brain as i lay on my bed and i close my eyes and put my hands over my ears to maybe, maybe, possibly muffle the worries that fill me up and drain me out, but to no avail, and i'm stuck here, wondering

is she okay?