another dream with her again.

it's been two months now.

i realized that...

i don't like her.

"hey, haerin?"

she hummed in response as she played with the flowers.

"what do you think about love?" i questioned her.

she gave me a look and laughed, "it's complicated.

"what do you mean?" i furrow my brows.

"love.

love is complicated."

"and... scary."

i sat next to her in the grass fields as she continued to explain what love meant to her.

"because, whenever we love someone... we would always expect them to love us back... but in reality, love isn't supposed to be like that."

she pursed her lips, "love meant caring for someone. love meant doing things for someone without asking for anything in return."

"but love could also be selfish.

people are selfish.

when they love someone,

they'd do anything for that person even if it already hurts them.

do you know why?" she turned to face me.

i tilt my head, "no... why?"

"because they are afraid of seeing the person they love with someone else. they become better for that person."

"no matter how bad a person could be...

love can always find a way to change them.

that is something i find beautiful about love."

she then chuckled bitterly,

"but still,

that person still won't love them back."

i frowned at her words, "ouch!"

she poked my cheek,

"love hurts."

i snickered and placed my hand on my chest,

"love does hurt."

"hey, lele?"

"hmm?"

i hum in response.

"do you believe in fate?"

i thought about it,

does fate even exist?

well...

i believe it does.

when it come to us.

i know it does.

i want it to exist for us.

i want to believe we are fated for each other.

if someone asks me what do i believe in...

that is what i believe.

that someday, fate would also bring us together.

"of course i do." i answer her.

she smiled at me,

"good."

i then felt her hand on top of mine as we slowly intertwined our fingers together.

"promise me something?" she looked at me as we walked back to the bridge.

i'm getting used to this.

i tilt my head, "what's that?"

"always believe in fate."

i chuckled and gave her a small nod,

"i'll always believe in fate."

"especially when it comes to us."

"i want to see you, haerin." i mumbled and hugged her.

haerin patted my back as i gave her a kiss on her forehead.

"you always see me, lele."

i pouted, "in my dreams!"

"you're silly, cross the bridge now." haerin laughed and pushed me towards the bridge.

i huff and pout at her. "you're discarding me!"

haerin threw a heart at me, "i'm loving you!"

and with that, i felt my heart beat faster.

i realized...

i don't just like her.

this isn't just puppy love.

i really love her.

and i want to see her badly.