I wish I had taken the drugs. I barely slept all night. If I had the drugs I wouldn’t know what Jimmy was doing to me, but I would have at least had a full nights rest.

Jimmy started the night with having his arm over me. His grip was tight and I was afraid that I would be stuck like that all night. He quickly fell asleep though and about an hour later he rolled over taking his arm off of me. I rolled over too and stared at the window. I looked at the bars and imagine my way to escape. If I wasn't thinking of ways to escape, my mind was on worse thoughts. I was thinking about what my life would be like here if I couldn't get out.

It was things like us growing old together. We would probably have a couple of children running around that were half-me and half-Jimmy.

Charles has to go get Tommy a girl in a couple of years. Maybe we can team up and escape together? I've heard Tommy say that he is eighteen, and I can't possibly wait two years before leaving. I couldn't let another girl go through this.

When I did manage to fall asleep into pockets of sleep, I dreamed of being with Lina. We weren't in the club or in our tiny apartment. We were sitting on the beach, like we had always dreamed of doing. Thinking about moving out to the coast and running our fingers through the sand always gave us hope on those long nights in the club.

My heart would pound every time I woke up. I had that sensation where I felt like I was falling. I'd realize that I wasn't getting out of this house and that was just as bad as being in this club.

The last time I woke up, I spent about two hours waiting for Jimmy's alarm clock to go off. Part of me wished it never would. Jimmy wasn't touching me, no one was hurting me and I didn't have to talk to murderers.

Unfortunately, his alarm did go off. Jimmy let out a grunt as I felt his weight shift on the mattress as he reached over me to shut it off. He rolled back over and I slowly rolled over onto my back. Jimmy was sitting on the edge of the bed looking out the window. I watched as the muscles in his back moved as he stretched out his arms and back. He looked over his shoulder at me and smiled. His hair was tangled and his eyes looked tired.

"How'd you sleep?" he asked me.

I pushed myself up on the bed so that I was sitting. I wasn't sure how to answer his question. I didn't sleep well, but if I told him that I wouldn't have a choice and he would sedate me every night. If I lied he'd be able to tell I was and he would punish me somehow.

"I want an answer," he said sternly.

I was taking too long to answer. I didn't know which answer to give.

"Good," I said quietly. Choosing to be sedated was one of the only decisions I had and I didn't want that to be taken away.

"That's good," Jimmy said moving his body around so that he was facing me.

That's when my eyes locked on his chest. He had a long silver chain dangling around his neck and at the end of it was a key. It must be the key to the doors. They were wearing them that way I wouldn't be able to steal it. I needed to get that off of Jimmy's neck.

Jimmy's lips curled into a smile and he cocked his head to the side. "Come here."

I shuffled over to Jimmy across the bed on my knees. He put his hand on the back of my neck and pulled me in for a kiss. After he was done crushing his lips against mine, he put one final kiss on my forehead.

He got up off of his bed and went over to his dresser. I watched him as he opened up a drawer and dug through it.

"Here," he said dropping a pile of clothes on the bed. I swung my legs off of the bed and picked up the pile of clothes. Jimmy's back was turned to me, so I ran into the bathroom before he could say anything.

I got changed as quickly as I could. Jimmy gave me a long red skirt and a black T-shirt. I tied my hair up into a bun and pushed my bangs out of my eyes.

When I got out Jimmy was also changed. He had on a faded pair of jeans and a white shirt. The key was no longer visible and that must be why I haven't noticed he was wearing it earlier. He had his arms crossed over his chest.

"You know you don't have to hide from me, right?" he asked.

"Yes," I mumbled under my breath. Jimmy's already seen me naked. It was just that now I was conscious and I had a choice.

Jimmy grabbed my wrist and pulled me towards him. My heart jumped as my feet stumbled, and it wasn't a very gracious way for me to come over to him. He wrapped his arms around my back and pressed his lips against mine. The thought to push him away was slowly leaving my mind. I just had to stand there and now move. My hands were pressed up against his chest.

"You're beautiful," he said put his lips against my temple. "I'm so lucky to have you."

My lips lifted in a faint smile, but I quickly wiped it away. I can't let myself accept compliments from a murderer. I refuse to lose my mind that way.

Someone began to loudly bang on our door. I heard a groan come from Jimmy's throat and I lifted my head up to look at him.

"We're coming, Tommy," he shouted at the door. He turned his head to look back down at me. He slid his hands up around my neck and pulled me in for another kiss. "We better get going."

I shook my head and he grabbed my wrist and pulled me downstairs with him. Tommy and Charles were already sitting around the table eating. Jimmy shoved a bowl of oatmeal into my hands and I sat down at my usual spot.

My heart jumped up in my throat. Nothing is usual about this place. I cannot think that way. I will only be here a couple more days before somebody finds me.

As I ate I looked around at all of them. I saw the same silver chains around Tommy and Charles neck too. They all have one on them.

"Taylor says that Emme is pregnant," Charles announced to them. Their eyes lit up and Jimmy and Tommy high-fived each other across the table. "They've already moved into their place, so it'll be good if they can have a boy soon after."

"That means Juliet should get pregnant soon," Tommy said.

I could feel my face flush. It was more because of the typical Tommy smirk that followed than the sentance that he said. It still haunted me though. I knew that they would want children, but what kind of rush were they in?

"Juliet has only been here for a week. It's more important that she gets settled here first before she starts giving me grandchildren," Charles explained to him. I wondered if he saw the shocked expression on my face. He must have.

"What if I don't get settled?" I piped up.

"Don't worry," Charles told me. "You'll be settled before you know it. We are your family and we love you."

I felt all of their eyes staring at me and it felt like acid burning through my skin. I fought off the urge to shiver. I didn't know how to respond to that.

"Juliet, what should you say?" Jimmy asked me, arching an eyebrow.

"Thank you," I guessed.

"No problem," said Charles. "Now boys, I think we should get out there and start working before the sun goes down."

They all agreed and got up from the table. They left their bowls at the table, so I stacked them up and brought them over to the sink and began to wash them.

There was a moment of shock when I saw the old blue pickup through the window over the sink. I hadn't seen it since the night that Charles had taken me. That night seemed like months ago.

As I scrubbed the bowls clean, I thought about my escape plan. I knew where the keys are now, but now I needed to get them somehow. Jimmy slept with his on, so I wouldn't be able to pull it over his head without him noticing. I had more hope now though then I have ever had before.