Warmth. You knew that you felt warm and cozy when you're with him.

"I like you" he confessed while looking extremely nervous, almost stuttering.

Feelings. You certainly don't know what it was. If what you feel about him was the same or not. You just know that you like his presence.

"I.. don't know what to feel about that" you honestly said, while looking down.

You never really know how to express your feelings yourself.

He looked down when he heard your answer.

"It's alright" he said, smiling.

It's a fake smile, you know him so well. Xiaojun, your best friend. He assured you that it's alright and you don't have to reciprocate his feelings for you.

"Nothing will change, right?" you asked and he nodded, he then said he had something to do so he went home early.

That was two weeks ago, you haven't talked to him properly after that.

"You're ignoring me" you blurted out one time when you got him to talk to you.

He smiled as he replied, "What are you talking about? I have to go, see you later"

You sighed. You felt extremely empty without him by your side.

You used to walk to school together, he would wait outside your class if he finished earlier than you and he would know when you feel sick. He even knows the date of your period. He cuddles you and buys you chocolates when you need them.

That's when you realised that you weren't just acting like best friends, its not something that best friends do.

"I miss him" you blurted out.

"Talk to him" Kun butted in.

"He doesn't want to" you frustratingly said.

"Yangyang's throwing a party on his flat, he's probably going" he said, putting his book away.

So, even though you hated crowded places, you still decided to go.

"Hey jun!" you called out when you saw him on the kitchen.

"Oh hey, I thought you hated parties" he asked while holding two cans of beer.

I'm here to see you idiot. You almost said but you stopped yourself.

"I do" you said, chuckling a little.

"I have to go, Lili is waiting for me" he said, excusing himself.

"Lili?" you asked.

"My classmate, I bought her here with me" he replied.

"Okay" you whispered and he went out of the kitchen.

You absentmindedly grabbed a can of beer and drank half of it in one go.

"What the hell Y/n!" Hendery exclaimed, grabbing the can of beer from you.

"Relax it's just beer" you laughed.

"It's just beer" he mocked you while drinking from your can.

"Remember when you got drunk after you drank two cans on Ten's house?" he reminded you.

You have low alcohol tolerance so Xiaojun would often restrict you from drinking. You smiled bitterly at the thought.

"Well, no ones restricting me today so I'll drink" you stubbornly said, grabbing a new can and drinking from it.

Hendery looked at you in horror, he knew how messy you act when drunk so he went to Kun.

"I think Y/s is planning to get wasted" he said making it loud because of the music.

"Where is she?" he asked and Hendery pointed the kitchen.

"I told you that you can't drink right?" Xiaojun scolded while looking at you.

"You're... not here anyway" you trailed, slighting tearing up.

"I'm here" he said, stating the obvious.

"No, you have Lili" you stubbornly said, hitting his chest a little.

He went silent so you spoke again, "I just said that I wasn't sure about that!"

The guys looked at you with confused faces, Yang yang was there too, but he was busy shooing people away from the kitchen.

"I didn't say I didn't like you too!" you shouted, emptying your second can.

He took the can from you, "You don't have to like me Y/n" he sighed

You shook your head in disapproval, "I miss you, come back to me" you said, hugging him tight as your head crawl on his neck.

"I miss your scent, I miss your nagging, I miss you" you whispered.

"Let's talk when you're sober" he said, hugging you back.

"Okay love birds go upstairs. You're ruining my party" Yang yang said, shooing the both of you away.