The burning desire to feel Flynn's lips on mine was strong- too strong for me to fathom.

Why didn't I have these feelings with Jace? Of course, I had thoughts about kissing him or cuddling him and all that cutesy stuff but the more sexual part of my thoughts? They were of Flynn.

It's been three days since the music room situation and no rumours of it have spread around the school yet, which is surprising really considering it was Benjamin and the mysterious little girl who knew.

It's been two days since Flynn came out to his parents who took it surprisingly well, especially his dad who still scares me shitless. Of course, like Molly's parents, they asked if he was sure that he was bisexual but of course he was.

Today was going to be one hell of a day, there was a Torvux meeting as well as a meeting for the prom committee. It's kind of ridiculous of them to plan the prom four months in advance. It was only coming to end of March.

I felt like it was dire to talk to Ben, I needed to warn him what would happen if he leaked my biggest secret but then again, would talking to him make him pissed off enough to leak it? Sure, I'd have warned him but what is done is done and I'm not one to take revenge. Plus, there's not much I could offer to warn him with other than getting him beaten up.

But wait, would the Torvux beat him up for me if they found out that I was gay? Oh damn, I didn't think this though. Would they kick Liam, Flynn and I out? Would they ever have our backs? Who knows.

I feel stupid, assuming everything would go to plan- it never does for me anyways.

I thought over every single time something doesn't go to plan for me from the short walk from my locker to the classroom where the meeting would be held. There was a time when I agreed to not allow my bratty cousins take authority over me in my own home or let them sleep in my bed.

Oh and what about that other time when I told myself I'll never buy a play station because it would distract me or when I agreed at the beginning of the year that I would get better grades.

I arrived early in front of Lab 4, where our meeting would be. I wrapped my hand around the metal handle, feeling the coldness of it on my palm.

I suddenly dreaded attending this meeting and seeing the faces of all the members on Torvux and knowing I'm keeping something from them. I felt guilty, i mean, would they really have a problem with my sexuality because they're like my family and family means ohana and-

Let's not go there and reference Lilo & Stitch.

I couldn't work up enough courage to push down on the metal handle. I just... I had no strength whatsoever.

A familiar deep voice sounded behind me and I had to stop myself from grinning like an idiot.

"'Sup lil' bro?"

"Oh nothing, just contemplating life and death matters." I turned around to the culprit of the voice.

"Nice. You gonna open that door or what?"

At that, I just stood there, doing nothing but staring at the dull grey door in front of me but then Liam got frustrated and moved my hand away from the handle.

"Can't even do a simple job." He rolled his eyes and flung open the door to an empty lab room.

We both went inside and sat down at separate tables across from each other.

I remained quiet and he mimicked. You could literally hear a pin drop because that's how quiet it was.

"What's up?" He seemed concerned... Well finally.

"I don't know... Boy problems." I massaged my head, the amount of thinking I was doing annoying as hell.

"Elaborate." Liam raised his eyebrows.

Should I tell him?

Should I not?

Oh what the hell.

"I really like Jace but then I kissed someone and I liked it... Now I'm not sure." I sighed and lay my head down on the table.

Liam seemed almost amused, "you slut."

"Thanks."

"What made you like both of them?" He questioned.

"Jace is... Cute, he's funny when he doesn't mean to be, he's cheeky and he's just as childish as me." Just thinking about that loser caused me to grin from ear to ear. "The other guy, he's... Hot, muscly and quite experienced but underneath all that, he's incredibly caring and kind and I know him really well." Just thinking about Flynn and our awesome make out session, I did get kind of turned on.

Naughty Zach!

I looked up to see Liam texting on his phone, looking as if he just ignored everything I just said. Great.

"Hello?" I glared daggers at him and he slipped his phone inside his pocket.

"When I have a dilemma similar to yours, I get it on with both of them and decide which ones better-" Liam was cut off by the raised voices down the corridor outside our room.

As the door flung open, he gave me a look that meant 'we'll talk about this later' and took his phone out again and typed on it in record speed.

Calvin, and the rest of the brothers all walked in and sat down; immediately bantering and conversing with one another. Like nearly every single meeting, Flynn sat down next to me. It should be a fact to everyone that we're literally inseparable.

"So we held this emergency meeting because somebody in Torvux has given their bracelet away recently." Calvin summed up. Everybody looked to Daniel, already knowing about the recent event.

"You should understand that the bracelet is so important and you should be a hundred percent sure when giving it away. Only four of us have actually given it away in the past year and a half."

I kind of zoned out after that, nothing he was saying was really affecting my life in a huge way so I didn't really care about what he was saying. My eyes felt tired and they remained just staring at Calvin, just pretending to focus so that I didn't get told off.

His lips were moving for what felt like hours and hours but I wasn't reading them. I wasn't doing anything.

In the midst of my half awake half asleep trance, I was slapped on the arm by none other that Flynn.

"What." I groaned out.

"Are you even listening?" He asked.

"Not really."

"Typical." He rolled his eyes.

After that, I carried on just staring up at the front, doing nothing but contemplate the chances of this meeting ever ending anytime soon so I could go to the prom committee meeting.

"Zach." Is what I read off Calvin's lips. Did he just say my name or was I just picturing things?

His dark brown eyes looked towards me in the most demeaning manner.

"Wha-"

"We were just saying how you're definitely not a great example of a Torvux due to your lack of caring in these meetings."

"Oh, right." I nodded and leant my head on on my hands that were propped up on the table by my elbow.

As much as I could piss Calvin off by my lack of caring, he wouldn't kick me out or anything, not when we're such great friends.

"So Zach," Calvin smiled in my direction. "Any ideas who you're giving your bracelet to?"

That bastard. He was putting the spotlight on me.

I absolutely hate being in the spotlight and everybody knows that.

"Somebody I love." I said bluntly, pointing out the obvious.

"Because any girl would be so happy to have you." He snorted and caused everyone to laugh.

"Hilarious." I rolled my eyes. The fact he said 'girl' just cut deep. He could've said 'anyone' instead.

"But honestly, any ideas? I mean, you've had your bracelet on for like three years now man."

"Can't I give it to like a best friend instead? What if I'm non-committal?" I said as chilled back as ever; I didn't want to accidentally slip up.

There were a few snickers heard around the room at my stupid comment, it would've be a whole new revelation if I was allowed to do that.

Only Liam knew what I really meant.

"No, that's like ridiculous." Calvin scoffed. "Meeting is finished."

Everyone scurried out the room and slapped each other on the back. Liam came behind me and told me to not take too long in the meeting I was going to next otherwise he'd drive off and I'd have to walk... Again.

"Zach, you mug." Calvin snickered as he walked beside me down the corridor.

"I was being serious!" I told him.

"If that's what you want then fine. I don't see any girls chasing after you as much anymore anyway."

I almost squealed with joy, I felt over the moon and felt like I could take on the world. I also felt like Spider-Man, being able to climb walls and shit.

"R-really? You serious bro?" I cocked an eyebrow.

"Well, I mean, at first I was a little taken aback but it doesn't seem like a big deal. If you're non-committal then so be it."

"Thanks man." I grinned from ear to ear and hugged him.

"No problem." He ruffled up my hair and took off in the general direction of the car park.

I walked alone after that through the empty halls of Kingston High. I was already late for the prom committee meeting and I contemplated just skipping it but in all honesty, I haven't seen Jace in a while and I'd very much like to.

I flung open the door to the classroom, earning everyone's attention. I stifled a laugh after seeing Jace nearly jump out his seat.

I took a seat next to him and like usual, felt warm and fuzzy next to him. I didn't get the same feeling sitting next to Flynn which was quite odd.

The meeting droned on and on and I was seriously ready to go sleep. My eyes stung and I was rubbing at them and yawning.

I earned a poke on my left side by none other than Jace and I nearly fell off my seat from how much it tickled me.

"Zach, you get the lovely job of figuring out the table plans. For example, how many chairs at each table and how many tables. You also need to decide how the tables will be set and they need to match the colour theme." Said the queen bitch herself, Rebecca Jones.

Ever since I broke her heart, all she ever does is glare daggers at me and now, she's finally got her revenge- she gave me the most crappiest job ever.

"And the colour theme is?" I asked rudely.

"Burleywood."

"What the fu-"

"Can we reframe from the profanity please."

I just rolled my eyes and slouched in my chair, slumped for ideas. Burleywood? What in god's name is that?

"Isn't that like a gross brown colour? Why not all white?" a new voice piped up.

"I like burleywood." Rebecca said.

This time, I got pissed off and stood up from my seat. "This is why we never worked! You always think it's about you, well it's not." I refrained myself from calling her an offensive name.

"We didn't work because you're a cocky dickhead!" she huffed.

"Partially, yes, but does my cockiness not allow anybody to have an opinion different to mine? Nope. Didn't think so." And at that, I walked out the room.

I was just so sick and tired of everyone today, for some odd reason. I just wanted to get home and lay down in my bed and sleep.

"Woah." Liam was the first to speak after I angrily slid into the car and slammed the door shut.

"Can we just hurry up and get home." I sighed and clicked my seatbelt in.

He fumbled with his iPod and put on Ariana Grande before he pushed down on the pedal and drove out of the student car park, never have I felt so relieved.

We finally got home and I was just about to open the car door when I was pulled back in to the car. "So, boy problems?"

"Can we not speak about it right now?" I sighed and propped my feet up on the dashboard.

"Come on, we won't get another chance. I'm not going to be back till late today." Liam sighed and I took a wild guess and guessed that he would be going gym.

"There's nothing else to say. I thought I was in love with Jace but after kissing somebody else, I was wrong." I shrugged. "I still have strong feelings for Jace but I also like the other guy for all the opposite reasons.

"All the opposite reasons?" He quoted.

"His body is just... to die for and oh my god, his face." I imagined Flynn's face in my head. The chiselled jawline, the light stubble, the shaggy hair that I love running my hands through. "Underneath all that though is just... a caring and kind little boy."

Liam smiled.

I smiled.

"Jace seems like a great person." Liam said. "The other guy seems to me that you like him more because of how he looks like. It's something you miss out with Jace, he's not the most muscly or fit. He's always sat down with his guitar, that boy."

Okay, now he's just pointing out facts.

"Is that why you asked Calvin at the meeting about giving your bracelet to your best friend?"

"Yup." I popped the p.

"Once you give the bracelet away... you can't just take it back because you made a silly mistake with deciding who you like."

"I know and out of all people, I ask for your help but you're just talking facts." I rolled my eyes.

"It'd be helpful if you tell me who you the other person is." Liam shrugged.

I contemplated on it.

Still contemplating.

"It's..." I closed my eyes, working up the courage to say it. "It's Flynn."

I opened my eyes, seeing shock on Liam's face, just shock. Nothing else. I felt nothing but regret telling him, he's always accidentally slipped up and I just hope he doesn't make it obvious to people. I felt bad for Flynn too, it was our secret to tell.