Don't wanna let you down

But I am hell bound

Though this is all for you

Don't wanna hide the truth.

I didn't know how I felt punching Flynn, I guess I felt kinda sympathetic because he's already been beaten up by Liam. Sure, the nurse said there was no damage done to any bones but still, judging by the bruises on his face and arm, he was in pain.

I guess his pain could compare to Liam's. Flynn is a horrible, horrible person for backstabbing the one person that was always there for him. I remember when me and Flynn were talking about Liam and he had told me that Liam was like a brother that he's never had.

So why would you go and screw your brother's girlfriend?

I guess when Flynn said that he likes sex too much, he really means it. Maybe he was driven by lust when he went and seduced Naomi or maybe he was so compelled when she seduced him.

I wasn't sure which was the right answer, I didn't take Naomi to be a backstabbing, conniving bitch but I also didn't expect Flynn to be the same.

After my incident with Flynn, I walked out of the room. Even when our biology teacher was barking orders at me to head to the principal's office, I didn't listen because I still had stuff to do around school before classes end and that involved a lot of printing and a lot of cello tape.

I headed back towards the principals office and saw Molly walking out with mum and dad. She ran up to me and I dragged her and pulled her towards the school's library.

The school's library was a nice place; not too shabby, not too full, not overly decorated with posters motivating students to use protection and such. I liked the school's library, nobody really went inside it though because apparently it's a 'nerd hangout' but when I come in here from time to time to get some space and the enjoyment of reading various books, I didn't see nerds, I just saw well educated students trying to get some peace of mind by reading or trying to study.

I sat down at one of the computers. The library was empty considering that everyone was in lesson; the only people in here were those with free periods, the staff and the students with learning difficulties who were studying with the learning support helpers.

I quickly logged in and plugged in the USB that I had brought with me from home and opened up the file that was an image of Jessica's face photoshopped onto a llama's body.

Don't get me wrong, llamas are awesome but they also look funny, even without the photoshopped head of a human.

Molly started snickering to herself when she saw the picture for the second time today. I had to quickly scramble this image up in the morning, before we had to leave to get sushi.

My finger clicked on the enter button and the printer came to life and began making loud noises that could be heard throughout the entire library. Page after page, it printed humiliating photoshop edits.

Molly was going to go for something evil, like throwing Jessica in a bin like they did to Kurt in Glee but I decided against it and thought of this idea, purely because it's absolutely hilarious and it would mean I wouldn't even have to lay a finger on Jessica to get revenge.

So yes, I still do want to get revenge on Jessica even thought me and Jace aren't on good terms. I keep trying to make myself believe that I was doing this just for Cammie but I knew deep down that it wasn't just for Cammie, it was for Jace too. Nobody gets to stomp on his foot and get away with it- except for me of course. I would never do such a thing though.

Molly collected the dozens of sheets of paper and got all giddy as more were being printed out. The printing finished and I logged out and collected the last few sheets and met her by the door. It was still lesson time and it still will be for the next twenty minutes. After that, everyone will be going to lunch.

I started tearing pieces of cello tape and using it to stick the sheets of paper on the walls. We stuck it everywhere, on doors, lockers, tables, chairs... soon, the entire school was covered with posters.

Then we waited, I sat down with Molly in the quad, the area was serene and the weather was holding up. It was actually sunny and kind of warm. The quad was a nice place to hang around, it's right in the middle of the school and its surrounded by all the buildings and the cafeteria. There's plenty of benches too, they're usually all taken up during break and lunch however. Too many students at the school.

The bell eventually rang finally after one hell of an embarrassing conversation with Molly. I can't believe I thought she was decent company, I swear all she wants to do is humiliate me whenever she can.

Students piled out of their classrooms and when we saw a huge crowd forming near one of the posters, I turned to Molly and fist bumped her, we had this telepathic connection also and we were silently admiring our piece of work.

I stood up, casually as ever and strolled towards the pin board. A huddle of people crowded round, staring and laughing at the photoshopped edit. For a second, I felt something at the pit of my stomach but it quickly faded away.

I felt eyes on me, it was weird. Being the tallest person in this crowd of people, It was easy for somebody to spot me and it was easy for me to spot someone else. Cautiously, I turned ninety degrees and look to my left, seeing sea blue eyes directed at me.

I didn't know what to do, should I go and talk to him? Should I keep a distance?

My tummy began fluttering like crazy, it was as if there were monkey's on drugs jumping around in it. I didn't like the feeling, it felt weird. Even though I've been feeling it for quite some time, I still couldn't get used to it. All these feelings were so foreign to be, it was pretty unbelievable.

I wondered If i ever made Jace feel this way, It was a mystery if he even liked me or not. I really really realy hoped for the former because If I ever found out that my feelings were unrequited, it would literally break me.

Jace glared at me, shook his head in disapproval and angrily stomped away. Instantly, my eyes darted to Molly who saw the entire scenario and she motioned me to go follow him. I shoved through the huddle of people, not giving a shit if they bumped into somebody else or fell on the floor from the unexpected force. I need to find Jace, I needed to talk to him. The silence was driving me absolutely insane, I can't handle that. Jace was like my medicine that I had to take every single day, maybe even a few times a day.

I chased after him and ended up in the art coridoor. Posters were scattered on the floor, they were stuck on the doors and alot of the wall wast taken up by them too. Jace was walking way too quickly, his entire body was stiff, and as his lean body stomped down the coridoor, I kept calling out his name but he didn't listen.

"Jace!" I tried again and ran a little. The spacious coridoor was overflowing with students and it was beginning to get harder for me to see him.

I shoved past all the students, trying to catch up with him but he was walking way too fast for my liking. It was literally like he was running, I could tell he really didn't want to talk to me, but he had to because for me, It wasn't a matter of wanting to talk to him, it was a matter of needing to talk to him. He was my everything, and without him, It was difficult for me to live my life back how it was.

"Jace, for god's sakes.. please slow down!" I whined and he stopped and turned to face me. He didn't look happy at all, he looked infurtiated. His eyes were wide open like a deer in the headlights and his lips were pursed together. He looked like shit, as if he hasn't slept or taken care of himself, his had dark circles under his eyes and his hair was spiked up in places they shouldn't be. For a second, his eyes widened and he moved his head to the left a little to see behind me. I curiously twisted my head so that I could see behind me and the sight I saw was definitely not a great one.

Apparently, luck wasn't on my side today because Jessica stomped down the corridor I was standing in and began yelling something along the lines of 'whoever did this, I will end you. I will rip off your balls and put them in my trophy case'. She was absolutely seething, her composure was all rigid and her fists were clenched to her sides and if this were a cartoon, there would be steam coming from her ears.

"You did this, you prick." she spat out as soon as she saw me.

Come on Zach, she's thirteen. You an deal with a thirteen year old in a mature as responsible manner.

I should probably start digging my grave now- she knows my biggest secret.

I decided that I should buck up and stop being a wimp. I was Zach Hamilton, I can deal with this. It's time to bring back the old Zach, the one that existed before I met Jace. The anger bubbled up inside me and I turned around a little to see Jace walking towards us. I was beginning to lift my hand up so that I could point all dramatically but Jace grabbed my wrist and brought my hand down again. I turned to Jessica and with a tone that I've never ever used before, the words spilled out:

"You want to know something, bitch? You deserve it. Karma's just come to bite you in the ass." I snapped and grabbed Jace's wrist in an iron grip and dragged him past the witch. I made sure to bump the side of my body into hers to make her stumble over. I didn't even bother looking at her reaction, I didn't care to be frank. Right now, all I cared about was making sure I talk with Jace because I don't like the silence at all.

I could feel Jace's skinny and calloused fingers trying to pick off my fingers that were on his wrist, probabaly hurting him. I wasn't trying to hurt him, in fact that was the last thing I wanted to do but I knew that if my fingers were any looser around his wrist, he'd be able to escape.

You can't run from your problems after all.

I was making my way to school's field, where I'd be able to talk to him without any interruptions. It was usually deserted. Jace kept trying to pull his hand back and he was constantly whining and pleading so eventually I had to lift him up over my shoulder. I was trying to refrain from it because he's heavier than he looks and it would seem weird to people to just happened to walk past but I had no choice because he did almost escape.

"Zach!" Jace cried and continued to bang his fists against my lower back and arse.

"We're talking." I told him, "Whether you like it or not."

I finally reached the school's field, as expected, there was hardly anybody here. I went to the far back corner, where nobody would see us and put Jace on his feet. He straightened his clothes out and rubbed at the wrist I was holding tightly. I honestly didn't mean to hurt him, I did feel really bad because of it.

Jace looked down at the ground and I started taking slow breaths to help calm myself down, It didn't work very well, I was hyped up from the whole Jessica issue and the fact that Jace doesn't want to talk to me. It honestly hurts to know he doesn't want to talk to me.

"Hear me out-" I started but got cut off.

"No." he crossed his arms over his chest and finally looked at me in the eye with his gorgeous blue eyes, "You hear me out."

"Fine."

"Who do you think you are getting involved in trying to sort out Cammie's bulling, huh? You've just added fuel to the fire, you absolute knobhead. You probably thought it was a great fucking idea at first well guess what? It's not!" he put his hands up in exasperation and then brought them down again and poked my chest with his index finger, "You had no right. Cammie's issues aren't any of your concern!"

"For god's sakes, Jace. You've been taking the safe route the whole time and it's done nothing! I did this all for you and her! I was fed up seeing that witch calling Cam names and hurting you!"

I was pretty sure that with all the yelling, our secret spot wasn't exactly secret before. The field was huge but the yelling we were doing was really loud and the smokers that hang around by the other corner of the field could probably make out what we were saying.

"You know what? Fuck you!" he yelled and walked away, across the field and back towards the school's quad, stiff as a plank and furious.

It took me a little to process everything that's just happened, I was absolutely mind blown. How comes when i'm trying to help someone, all I'm doing is screwing it all up? I should've known from the start that Jace was too good for me, he was too reasonable. If it were anyone else, they'd be cheering me on for getting back at the bully.

All I want to do right now was curl up into a ball, fall asleep and hope to never wake up again. Who knew meeting Jace would bring a ton of baggage? All I wanted to was help but it turns out that Jace wanted to deal with his own problems.

i just stared at the field while I watched the one person whose ever made me feel amazing and like shit at the same time stomp away from me, from our friendship, from any love life we might've had together.

To say it broke my heart would be the understatement on the century.

Because not only did it do that, It smashed into even tinier pieces with a hammer.