currently billie was at work. obviously i couldn't go back yet because i haven't found a good daycare i would want to send my baby.

billie and i have thought about getting our own personal one but the interviews so far aren't what i want for my child.

kourtney was currently sleep like she always is. i was reading a book because there was no good movies to watch.

suddenly i hear the doorbell ring. i stand up and grab my phone texting andrew.

i ask him who is outside but he just tells me he's not even here right now.

i walk towards the window and peek through seeing claudia's car. why is she here?

i walk to the door and open it up to see her standing there with her hands in her back pocket.

"hi" claudia say

"hi? why are you here?" i ask

"i overheard finneas talking about how you guys were looking for a babysitter. i'll happily babysit kourtney for free" she say

"i would have said yes if you didn't do what you did. i'm sorry i just can't trust you with my baby right now. maybe if i think things over with billie but right now no" i say

"i'm so sorry for what happened. i don't know what i was thinking. i love you guys and i messed up your trust with me by doing those things." she say

"yeah,billie was super upset" i say

"i know" she sighs "i'll try to talk to her"

i stand there not knowing what else to say. she turns around about to walk away when suddenly she stops.

"i need to tell you something" she say

"what is it?" i ask

"come i come in? i promise i'll be quick"

"if it's quick why do you need to come in?" i ask confused

"i mean there's a group of paparazzi standing across the street. we wouldn't want anything happening" she say

i think about it for a minute. i think about all the pros and cons. i decide to just let her in.

"i wanted to tell you that i'm happy for you and billie. i just need you to know something about billie" she say

"how can i trust you? plus i'm pretty sure i know everything about her" i say

"well did you know that she has a child with one of her ex's?" she asks

"what."

"yes. billie obviously doesn't take care of the child but she pays child support. well i don't know about now..."

"you're lying" i say

"you passed the test! of course i'm lying,yeah billie needs to keep you. you trust that girl with your whole life as you should" she say

i'm so confused?

"okay but seriously,billie is keeping a secret from you. just one,i think it's best she keeps it a secret too" she say

"what secret?" i ask

"i can't tell you,i would say it's not my story to tell but it is to be honest but i'm not telling you. she's going to have to tell you" she say

"no! tell me"

"i can't,i'm sorry" she say

"why tell me she's holding a secret you know about but not tell me"

"i'm apart of the secret" she blurts out

"did you two kill someone? did you two kiss? did you two both steal the rings and split the money? tell me claudia" i say

"i can't" she say

i head to the kitchen and grab a knife before walking back towards her. "i'll stab you if you don't tell me"

"okay so once billie and i were hanging out and we got really drunk and did embarrassing shit on the side of the street. it was really embarrassing" she say quickly

"hmm what type of stuff"

"like getting naked and chasing random people" she say

"that wasn't so hard to tell me was it?" i ask shrugging

that wasn't even that bad. i don't know why it's such a big secret.

i wake up and immediately start crying. why the fuck is it so bright in here?

i can't stand her ass. nobody gets on my nerves more than my mommy.

suddenly she picks me up. "what you crying for kourtney?" she asks

bitch i'm hungry and my eyes hurt that why. i should let out the juiciest fart ever right now.

she suddenly places the bottle of milk in my mouth and i happily suck.

i'm so hungry i could eat a cheeseburger right now. i wonder how they taste.

either i'm just hungry or this milk taste unusually good right now.

my eyes advert to behind her to see the same lady that kept me . apparently she's my uncle's girlfriend but i don't know what that makes us cause i don't even know what a damn uncle is.

she's nice though. i wonder where my other mommy at. she's been gone too long for my likening.

i'm full now. i spit the bottle out my mouth before crying again.

"what do you want?" she asks

i keep crying knowing good and well nothing is wrong with me.

she takes the bottle and sits it down before laying me on her shoulder. she begins to pat my back lightly and i burp a few times.

i should've just threw up all over her.

my mommy a catfish. she can't even see for real. she have to wear contacts. imagine wearing contacts,couldn't be me.

oh wait i'm a baby...

imagine being old,couldn't be me. actually i can't even say that for real,she still young.

i'm bored. where my other mommy at? boring ass bitch. all she do is watch movies and paint all fucking day.