I sing quietly to myself

As conversations go on around me

I hear my voice getting called

But responding seems so tiring

I guess I'm trying is dissociate

To get away from reality

All I want to do is sleep

I feel like I have no energy

But then I laugh and I smile

I decide to interact with people

I appear to have life in my eyes

But my heart is becoming lethal

I wish I could be happy

And I can go out and have fun

Without feeling like I'm being drained

Or drowned in the sun

I feel like I want to isolate

I never get out of bed

But I don't want to destroy myself

I want to shut up the whispers in my head