Chapter 1: The Obsessed Girl

From the time that I was born.

The first thing I had loved, was not my parents, was not my pet, was not my appearance, was not friends, was not my boyfriend, was not a living being.

It was a very simple object, a book, more specifically a book of epics. That tells the tales of heroes defeating the great villains and basking in the glory of their victory then building a mighty kingdom that can send shivers down their neighbor's spine. As I grew older, I also read the books from the Internet that have a larger library of digital books and novels. The more I read these tales of epics, the more obsessed I became with victory and to rule over others like those heroes or demon kings and queens. But as I grew, I also realize that there is no place for my dreams of victory and my founding of a mighty kingdom for me to rule.

I was born as a girl, so I had no place in this society, where I can rule on earth and bask in the glory of the victor. Since that role was only given to the man and a man I was not. But I was proud, proud of my abilities, intellect, appearance, everything that I have, that I own, that I rule over. However no matter how proud I was of them, they were not perfect.

I wanted to have everything that is perfect to be mine. But in this world, on earth, there is no such thing as perfection. Not even god is perfect, because if he is, why is there evil? If nothing is perfect then what can be mine? What is this everything that I seek? If nothing is perfect, then there is nothing that I seek. However, this is not true, I learn of what I wanted to seek.

What I wanted was the impossible, what I wanted is what I can't have. Like the world that exist in those stories, in those tales of epics, in those scriptures of heroes that always beats the final boss character that is seeking the same thing that I had all my life.

To rule the world or to destroy it. That was the role of the villain and it was the role of the heroes to stop them. So I then became obsessed with being the villain. A powerful villain that only can be defeated by the hero, a villain that is to be fear by everyone.

However, I only dream of being one, inside of the books that I hold in my hands. I did not have the will nor courage to act out like a villainess in those stories. So I closed myself inside of my own world of books where I am the villainess that brings great trouble to the heroes or the heroine in those stories. In the world that I had created, I am perfect, I am perfection itself, I can dress however I want, be whoever I want, not like me whose time had stopped in the real world.

My parents had stopped living in this world after I had reached the age of 7, My pet snake is no longer with me after I had reached the age of 8, my friends had excluded me when I had reached the age of 9, my grandmother passed away when I had reached the age of 10, my grandfather follow her after I had reached the age of 11, a boy that use to like me broke up with me after I had reached the age of 12, I had stopped growing when I reach the age of 13.

The only things that had not stop being with me are my books and the Internet. I use the knowledge from my books to make a living for myself, first, I tempted my greedy uncle and aunt with the idea of selling drugs to others, so I could get them arrested and take all of the cash that they had made in the process. While I would be put under foster care and be adopted later on. With the cash I had on hand, I illegally made use of the stock market with my adoptive parent's bank account. After a few failure, I made a big success with the stock market.

I then gave a portion of it to my adoptive parents to make them disown me without telling the authorities and let me live by myself peacefully. but I had to silence them with a hired Hitmen from the dark-web because they had gotten too greedy for their own good. I then paid a poor family to adopt me, in exchange for me to live as I please and they just put my name on their family register and they will get payment from me, just so I can avoid the eyes of the authorities and the child welfare organization.

At this point, I only went to school to put up an image, an illusion that I wanted others to believe, so they don't suspect anything about me and will leave me alone as I had always wanted. Since I had gotten enough money to live by myself without much of a problem, though I was not too rich like those billionaires, I was not definitely never poor. Since I had millions in my pocket after all that backstabbing and illegal things that I did over the Internet and in the stock market. I can finally read my books and search the web in peace without hindrance.

After graduating from school, I bought a small abandon mansion with my illegally and legally gain money and fill it with books that I had found all over the Internet. They were all fantasy books, of course, fairy tale, dark fantasy, tragedy, etc. You name it, I probably got it. My obsession of victory had been fulfilling and my need to rule has been achieved. Now all that is left is to enjoy it.

Oh, how fate hates me, even though I am the victor and the victim throughout my life, karma does not believe that I am in the right... so it had cursed me.... with the flaw that curses all the heroes and demon kings to fall.

It had cursed me to make a mistake, a mistake of buying a book, a forbidden book that I shouldn't have touched.....

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Author note: The beginning of this fiction will start in chapter 4, just to get rid of what happen to the MC in the past early on. Oh, just saying all my MC will have a very odd mentality.