We finished the quest and now Varvara, Leo, and I are E rank adventurers!

After Elf bro sent out the flare, a bunch of monsters also gathered.

That scared the shit out of me!

But Elf bro, the cool ass stud he is, used melded magic create a mist so we could get out of there unseen.

Leaving the mist we lingered around the area to find another Kobold Leader, we also talked about how awesome I was for single handed taking out a Kobold Leader.

I bragged, but I also made sure to be modest and look cool, Leo ended going

“Wow!!! You’re so cool” and looked at me all starry eyed.

I have succeeded in asserting my dominance; though I may be younger I am now higher on the ladder.

Hahaha I’m awesome.

It was around this time that Kobold Leader stumbled out of the mist.

I was out of mana so it was up to Varvara and Leo was going to fight the guy.

*sigh*

I was being cocky about winning a 1v1, but then Varvara took her place back on the pecking order and knocked me down a peg.

Leo was going to vanguard while she gathered mana for her spell that was the plan but…

She instantly casted 10 fire spears (Holy shit!) and impaled the poor Kobold Leader.

In less than a second the all that was left was charcoal.

And so we took the two Kobold Leader clubs back to the city and into the guild, where they confirmed the completion of the quest and the three of us got IDs.

The IDs themselves are just glowing rocks, apparently the color determines the rank, and ours’ were green for E rank.

I guess it means green for greenhorn or something.

Anyway the clerk told us that she would process the money to go the debt collector, and like that Elf bro told us good job, and left us to our own devices.

…

It was a few hours past afternoon, the sun was going down and called Varvara out to celebrate next to the tree where Leo, Nona, and I train every day.

“Come on start a fire, we can’t celebrate while shivering our asses off!”

She nodded and started a small bonfire to warm ourselves.

Hahaha I got a great surprise for her this time!

I brought out a small two wooden cups and big soggy bag, and with a smile I asked her.

“Come guess! What do you think is in this bag?”

She tilted her head a bit and thought for a second.

“Food?”

“Nope, Alcohol!!”

Yep like any good Soviet, I turned a bunch of trash leftovers into booze.

The Soviets may have fermented all their food into beer and starved, but at least they were drunk.

“Aren’t you going to invite Leo?”

“Naw he’s too young to be drinking”

“Aren’t we younger than him?”

“He’s not going to be any fun to drink with, he’s just going to pass out and waste the booze”

“I see”

I pour the contents of the bag into the wooden cups, and cast some ice magic to make ice cubes for the booze.

There we go I’ve been waiting 6 years this, I pass her the cup and chug me first booze in 6 years.

Varvara takes the cup and widens her eyes, at me.

“You can use magic?”

“Yeah don’t tell anyone though, it wasn’t until after I fought the Kobold leader that I could cast magic, or was it after that dream?

Anyway I can cast ice magic now, but I can’t use any other elements”

I laughed, hell yeah being OP is going to be a breeze now, with magic and the sword I’m gonna make it big.

“Magic Extremity, is probably what you have.

Mana consumption for your Extreme element will be very low, so even with your normal amount of mana it is possible for you reach Emperor ranked in water magic.

But in most cases you won’t unless your soul under goes a certain development you probably won’t be able to cast anything past elementary ranked magic.

I wouldn’t rely on it if I were you.”

“Wow professor you’re so informative!

Come on drink!”

Well damn, so much for being a magic swordsman,

Well I’ve had my suspicions but now is as good a time as any.

“Hey do you also have what did you call it… oh yeah Magic Extremity!”

“Yeah I do, you’re perceptive as always.”

“Of course I am!

That being said, how do you know all this?

We don’t have any books to read, Elf bro never went over this during his lectures, and you yourself never really wander off on your own so no one could have told you this.”

She’s looks at me and stays silent.

Oh well I take her cup and give her a refill, and I pour myself another cup and take a swig.

“Ok let me tell you something Varvara, though I am a 6 year old kid, I also have all the memories from my past life.

Though I didn’t live long I was 20 years old before I was reborn in this world.

That’s why I’m the way I am.

I’m guessing you have similar circumstances?”

Yeah I’ve always had my doubts about Varvara, she was always to mature for her age, and understood everything that went on around her, among other things; though the main reason why I suspected her was that she could get my shitty sense of humor.

And just I was pretty sure after she explained the whole Magic Extremity thing, so might as well come clean if I want to know.

“… I guess you could say that.

I don’t have any memories like you do, but I did have knowledge and the common sense of a resident of this world.

It wasn’t until the pendent broke that I’ve gained knowledge of magic.

Funny huh, that the two of us with our knowledge that stems from another life would end up in the same collection of people”

She takes a swig, and I give her a refill.

Hey, that’s pretty cool she’s doing a new game+ or something like that.

“I know right, some coincidence huh?

*gulp* So do you know what you’re going to do from now on?”

Varvara sighs, and takes another swig.

After thinking for a while she says.

“Maybe hmmm… the pendent told me that if I wanted to regain my memories that I should train until I can sustain God ranked magic, and also that I should stay in this country.”

“*gulp* Are you going to do that?”

“*gulp* Yeah, it’s not like I there are anything else to do with this life.”

Yeah I know right, what the hell are we supposed to do with our lives anyway, it’s not like there’s some big bad boss that threatens our family.

We’re just living, and living, might as well have fun.

“Hey don’t say that!

Your like 6 years old, you’ve got your whole future ahead of you, just have fun and think about the hard stuff later! *gulp*”

“That sounds nice, playing with Leo and Nona and just having fun.”

She give a small smile, is this the “smile that you want to protect” that I always hear of?

Naw, it’s the smile of drunk thinking about good times.

Right even if we wanted to act like kids, we’re just washed up sacks of shits that are still living somehow.

Man this booze, tastes like shit.

Looking at the bonfire, I raised a question.

“I don’t know I have my own thoughts, but for some reason I felt like since we had similar circumstances I felt like we would be able to take about this and that”

“It’s fine, just talking in itself is a good action whether or not we’re compatible doesn’t matter, as we’re talking we can pass the time.”

*gulp* *gulp*

The sun is starting to set, and the white snow that extends towards the horizon and beyond starts take on a different hue.

Varvara turns around and looks at the vast field of white that, during this time of day on a clear sky, is tinted orange.

She takes another swig and asks me.

“What about you, do you have any plans, since you have your memories you must know the reason why you’re here.”

“…”

I take a swig as well, I wonder if a 6 year old’s liver can really handle alcohol, oh well doesn’t matter I didn’t brew it that strong.

“Yeah I know why I’m here.

I chose to come of my own free will.

And the reason was…

Yeah there was nothing really wrong with my life before this.

I just wanted to go somewhere else. *gulp*”

“*gulp* Really?

Why would you want to do something as drastic as being reborn in a new foreign world just to go somewhere else when nothing was wrong?”

“I uhh, yeah nothing was wrong I just wanted to do some stuff, but never found the chance, and figured that I had already lost my chance by the time my teen years were over.

I guess that I despaired, I felt like my life wasn’t in my hands anymore, I worked, I went to college, I studied to get good grades, in my free time I read books and watched anime, I pretended to learn new languages only to give up and try again.

Before all this I had moved out on my own and tried started paying my own bills, I started working more while still going to college, I had less free time.

I said I was going to learn the piano, I didn’t, I said I was going to learn Japanese, I didn’t, I said I was going to read more literature, I didn’t.

And that was while I had an ample amount of free time, to do all the things I wanted to do.

By that point I had seen myself in a cycle working, playing, working, playing doing the same thing over and over, I saw myself trying to save up all my free time, only to waste it drinking the day away, or sitting in front of the key board for a few minute before going to jack off or something.

I couldn’t find it in myself that I had it in me to make a change in my life.

*gulp*

So I thought maybe a changing my environment would have helped.

*gulp*

Though I was still in school, and had the jobs and bills, I couldn’t really go travel or anything.

Anyway I thought I’d be cool to be reborn into another like all these Tensei stories or Wuxia web novels.

And so one drunken Sunday night I looked for ways to go into another world.

I didn’t really think it would work; anyway it was what I wanted.

So yeah I was just fucking around with various methods I found on the internet, and boom here I am.

*gulp*”

Fuck me man the last bit of sun is about to go over the horizon.

Varvara takes the bag and refill her own cup, she asks for some ice too, which I gladly provide her.

“There were a few terms I didn’t understand, but... *gulp*

In summary you felt insufficient and didn’t think that you would have any more opportunities left to improve, and you thought that you would never be able to improve for the rest of your life.

So on one judgement impaired night you wished that you could just leave everything behind and start anew.

And somehow or another you achieved your goal, and here we are today.

*gulp*

Drinking your oddly produced alcohol.”

Yep right on the dot.

She’s starting to gain the drunkard’s grin.

“So what now, are you going to do all those things that you felt couldn’t do before?”

“I don’t know, the language that I wanted to learn and all things that I wanted to read don’t exist here. *gulp*

I guess if the piano exists I might as well try to pick it up. *gulp*

Computers for sure don’t exist here.

There’s no reason to write a novel in this world. *gulp*

I guess the only thing that’s left is that I want be a good person, yeah or was it that I want to be someone awesome that does great things. *gulp*

Since I’m in this world being an S rank adventurer seems like a good goal, I can clear our Sis and Bro’s debts and live happily or something like that. *gulp*”

The sun has gone down already, it’s starting to get dark, and bonfire is the only thing left that provides light.

Varvara takes another swing, and looks at me

“I see, well don’t expect too much even if you’re in a new world I doubt that anything will change.

A good person is subjective, and you will never be recognized as a good person in the eyes of everyone.

But well, trying to reach your expectation of what a good person is might be even harder, since you know, you treat yourself like a sack of shit *hick*

No matter how hard you try you’ll never reach your own goal since your ideal can’t be reached. *hick*

Oh well maybe the concrete goal of becoming an S rank adventurer is good, at least it’s something that you could achieve and watch as your efforts cumulate into something.

Just don’t get trapped in another cycle of despair like your last life.”

“Hey fuck you, the whole point of going into this world was leave that cycle. *hick*”

“Ok ok, hey thanks for the alcohol, it was pretty good, why don’t you teach me how to make it sometime *hick*”

“You should act, more lady-like, what happened you your quiet taciturn self over the past six years? *hick*”

“There was never any reason to talk, and besides Bro was always too busy, I didn’t want to worry him either.

Besides I blame the alcohol, also what are you talking about, you were the one who spent most of the alcohol talking about yourself*hick*”

“Yeah I ended up spilling a lot of shit huh?*hick*”

“Yeah”

“Thanks for listing to my shit”

“It’s ok, talking about things is good”

At some point we just laid in the snow my head was adjacent to hers, our bodies were facing opposite directions.

“I think I’m going to pass out*hick*”

“Me too*hick*”

“Hey so I had this dream today, I was a cloud and before I knew it I turned into water.

No matter what I did I was in this cycle over and over.

So yeah there’s this guy name Freud and he used to analyze dreams say that they are our repressed memories, and that by observing these dream we can come to a conclusion about the person, so I was thinking that…*hick”

“You’re thinking too hard about something meaningless; just do the things you can, and work towards the things that you want to do, that should be enough. *hick*”

“I guess…”

Today was a clear night; I saw the half a moon shining away stealing all the sun’s light to make itself bright.

It’s noble attempt of one that has nothing using everything at its disposal to shine brightly.

I wonder if I’m the only one who sees it this way.

Varvara, smelling like a wet sock, splits out a question.

“Hey do you think I’ll be happier if I had all my memories back?”

“I don’t know, but if you live long enough you’ll become your own person I think.

Then when you get your memories back you’re going to suffer from an identity crisis between the current you and the past you,

Probably you were a very evil person in your past life, and you will feel torn about it finding yourself disgusting.

But wait!

With the power of friendship your friends will convince you that who you are now is the real you and that you’ll gain the thing that is more important than anything or something. *hick*

Friendship or something or another.

But Wait!

There’s more we’ll also include a morally free from having to accept your past life ending, you get to split form your old self, as it takes on a form of its own and will attempt to strike you down and steal your body.

And so the final battle will commence with you and your friends against your evil past self.

Once you win, you will be absolved from all the sins of your past self, and can live freely knowing for sure that your old self was not you since it came out to kill you and shit.*hick*”

“That was oddly specific”

“Yeah that’s how the story normally goes.

I don’t think it matters either way.

You’re still going to live after that.

That’s why some abstract goal like being a good person is a great goal, you can chase that ideal for the rest of your life and never reach it *hick* haha”

“That’s a horrible way of thinking, you should really change your way of thinking, otherwise you’re going to end up the same way.*hick*”

“Yeah probably, but at least in this world the things that you need to do are clear, and the everything feels real… ahhh fuck night”

“Good night”

And sleep tight.