Then he realized something, he didn't bring protection because this is unplanned. His world turned upside down because of Aliya and he needs to straighten it back again.

"Something wrong?" Aliya asks him when she felt him stop.

"I didn't bring any protection with me." He whispers as he buries his head in her neck. "I have to go run to the car."

Aliya wraps her legs around him in response. "No, just stay, it's fine. I trust you Yoongi."

Her words stabbed him through his chest for every reason it should. He never had unprotected sex before and it scares him to do this. "But it's for you too. What if, what if." He can't make himself say the word pregnant. It's a taboo word for him, the mere thought gives him the shivers.

"I'm on a pill, my mom's a doctor remember?" She chuckles.

"Are you sure you're ok with this?" He asks her again.

Aliya pushes him down on the bed and straddles him as she takes her shirt off. "Let's be wild and free tonight ok?" She said as she continues to peel off her remaining clothes.

Yoongi watched her in awe, wondering how can she be this perfect? She's exactly what he'd want his girl to be, should he ever settle for someone. Which is the issue here, he's not that type of guy. He can't trust himself to stay in a monogamous relationship. He's scared that he might break her heart.

Aliya moves her head and kisses his lips pressing her half naked body against him and his body responds to her. He'll make sure he'd satisfy her in every way he can tonight. This is the least he can do for her before he leaves.

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Yoongi watched Aliya sleep. Her lips were still swollen from his kisses and he left marks on her body. He is tired but sleep won't come to him yet, as every detail of this night comes back to him. Getting to feel her around him without any barrier is like heaven. Now that he's tried it once, he wants to try it again.

This just added more complications for him, but he is set with his decision. She seems to be very cool about him leaving. Perhaps she didn't like him as much as he likes her, the thought bothered him a lot. He knows she loves Taehyung, he's the one who has her heart.

This is why he never settled with one partner, he didn't want to develop feelings. But he is not sorry for his decision with Aliya. He desperately wants to hug her tight right now. He clenches his hands into a tight fist to hold himself, but she suddenly opens her eyes and gives him a smile before wrapping her arm around his neck snuggling closer to him.

"Go to sleep Yoongi." She says drowsily.

How did she even know what he wanted? He asks himself as he settles back on the pillow. He feels her sigh against his chest. His heartbeat is drumming too wildly and he hopes that doesn't wake her. He reluctantly touches the back of her head, he runs his fingers through her hair feeling it's softness and inhaling the sweet scent of her shampoo. He finds himself relaxing and didn't even notice that he started to doze off.

He wakes up with a start, his shoulders were stiff for having stayed in the same position for what seems to be hours. But he didn't want to move because Aliya is still holding on to him too. He looks at the digital clock across from the bed, it's past four am. His flight leaves in seven hours, he still has a lot of time because he already had packed his luggage. He needs to leave now though, he hates to break this, but he needs to. He slowly shifts his body and as if on cue, Aliya pulls her arm away from him and turns to the other side of the bed.

His muscles were screaming and cursing at him as he moved, but he managed to sit up and stretched his arms. He carefully got out of the bed and started picking up his clothes through the dark room putting them on slowly before he starts walking towards the door.

"You're leaving?" Aliya's voice came out from the bed.

Yoongi can see her figure moving. She reached out and clicked a lamp on. They both squint at the sudden brightness that covered her room. He can see her better now, her hair covers half of her face, her hands holds the blanket over her chest and she looks confused.

"Yes, I have to go." He tells her.

"You didn't even bother waking me up to say goodbye?"

"I didn't want to disturb you."

"Well I'm awake now, so let's say our goodbyes properly. " Aliya said as she tries to get up from the bed looking around for her clothes.

Yoongi picks up her shirt from the floor and hands it to her. She thanks him and drops the blanket as she pulls her shirt over her head, it barely covered her thighs. She walks towards him. "Don't work too hard out there ok? Make sure you eat on time and rest when you can." She didn't wait for his answer, but reached out and hugged him around his waist, pressing her face against his chest.

He shuts his eyes closed, his arms remain at his sides. "What are you doing to me Aliya?" He whispers.

"What? I'm just hugging you." She replies innocently looking up to meet his eyes.

Yoongi is losing his inner battle to leave right now as his hands moves towards her buttocks caressing them before pressing her against him. With a grunt, he takes his shirt off again and peels his pants open. He lifts her up to him. "Legs around me." He commands her.

She obeys him and she gasps when he shifts her back against the door and with one thrust enters her with a grunt. He continues to pin her against the door as his hips continues to ram against her. His hand grabs her breast and molds it, before his teeth bites her nipple through her shirt not so gently making her yelp. He knows he is being a bit too rough on her right now but it's his frustration over everything that's controlling him. He stared into her eyes and he moves his hand to trace her lips. To his surprise, she opens her mouth and sucks his fingers. When she opens her mouth to release him, he moved and had his tongue replace where his fingers had been. His hands cups her butt and he thrusts harder. He felt his climax getting near but he didn't want it to come yet, he wants to hold it as long as he can. He can feel her coming and when she clings against his neck, she starts moaning out his name as she began to tighten her grip around him before a surge of vibration followed shaking him to let go too. His knees almost buckled at the intensity of their orgasm but he steadies himself as he tightens his arms around her.

They both tried to catch their breath after. Aliya had her eyes closed and he wished he knew how she's feeling right now. When she opens her eyes, she reached out to touch the side of his face. "You've got some way of saying goodbye." She gives out a short laugh.

He snorts before slowly letting her legs go down until she's standing on her feet. "You're a crazy woman."

"And you are just as crazy too." She tells him. She looks at the clock which says it's almost five am. "You have to leave right?"

"Yes." He answers as he starts getting dressed again. "You have work today too."

She shrugs. "I still have time."

"I should go." He said after an awkward silence where both of them were just standing and looking at each other.

"Yes you should." She opens her bedroom door and walks Yoongi towards her front door. "Well, goodbye again." She tells him as soon as he had his shoes on.

"Uh, yeah, bye." He answers, he turns to give her a brief smile before he unlocks her front door. Aliya didn't hug him anymore and he can't make himself kiss her again even though he is dying for one. He didn't look back either as he started walking away. When he heard her door close, it somehow felt that it's the chapter of their lives closing.

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Aliya settles back at her bed knowing she needs to get some more sleep, because she still has work. The problem is, she's not close to falling asleep, even if she had a long night with Yoongi. She'd go in and out of her sleep the past night because he has a way of getting out of bed without waking her and she didn't want to miss him out before he goes.

His announcement that he's leaving for an assignment in Japan is quite a surprise. No one has mentioned it during the party but with the project being extensive, it's not impossible.

The way he said he'll be away for awhile had an obvious underlying meaning. She's taken aback by it but she knew from the start what they had isn't permanent. She had hoped that he'd consider going back every now and then to see her, which is why she asked if he'd come back in between during his assignment. When he said maybe, he might as well have answered no.

She can't react like a broken hearted girlfriend and demand that he at least tries to see her from time to time, because this is a no commitment relationship. He hates clingy women, and she will not try to behave like one, although she thought after their weekend together, things might get different. Not that she is in love with him like she is or was with Taehyung. She just finds him more likeable than she thought he would be. Honestly, she couldn't give an exact word for how she feels for him.

All she knows is that she needed to hold him close last night so she could hear his heartbeat that calms her through it's drumming and feel his warmth though his cold façade. They've gone a long way since that first night after Taehyung's wedding, she's glad she got to know who he really is and she is more than grateful that he let her see that side of him.

She wondered if Yoongi got to sleep when he got home. She didn't expect him to send a text if he gets home safe, neither does she expect him to text her when he is about to board the plane. Yoongi can be a very complicated person and they are in a very complicated relationship. Correction, they were in a complicated relationship. The unspoken words were very clear last night, it's in his touch, his kiss even when they had sex. It is their last and she has to accept it whether she likes it or not. She feels a lump grow at her throat, she's a sentimental person but she holds all her friends close to her heart.

She has to admit her best friend is right, first about this relationship with Yoongi not going anywhere, and sleeping with the same man more than once eventually makes you develop feelings for him. Even Jimin and Jungkook warned her about it. She can deal with this, she is fine. It seems like it was easy for Yoongi to say goodbye to her, then she has to do the same thing too, let him go.