The car ride was silent they basically ignored me. Annoying, I know. We finally reached home I walked out of the car as quickly as possible wanting get away from the silence which is slowly killing me.

"Not so fast. Antonio is waiting for you at his office" Leonard says pulling me back from my shirt.

I sighed in annoyance.

I was walking to Antonio's office with the boys following behind them why do they have to follow me?

I reached Antonio's office and pushed the door open I saw Antonio on his desk doing some paper work as usual and Gavino at the couch. Great even Gavino is here.

"Sarafina" Antonio greeted

"Sup?" I say nodding my head

I heard him sigh

"I heard that you got in quite some trouble" He says his voice emotionless like always

"I don't remember doing anything mind if you tell me?" I asked since none of the other boys are going to tell me why not ask Antonio

"You don't know what you did? Let me show you what you did?" Lorenzo said

he removed his phone out and gave it to Antonio I tried to see what he was showing but couldn't see a thing.

"What does this mean?" Antonio asked handing me the phone.

Finally.

How the hell did he get this? On the phone it shows a video of me beating up that blondie who was messing with Leo even the thought of any one messing with Leo makes my blood boil

"What?" I ask looking at all of them bored

"What!? Really? Your saying like you didn't just beat up an innocent student?" Lorenzo said

I chuckled and the thought of that blondie being innocent

"Enzo this blondie is anything but innocent" I said coldly

Lorenzo looked confused

"Violence isn't always the solution" Antonio spoke calmly.

Maybe not for you Antonio but sometimes violence is the only solution.

"I wouldn't beat up any one for no reason" I said smiling just then my phone rang I removed it from my caller ID and saw unknown again.

What does he want? it can't be him again can it?

I glanced at Gavino's direction who was looking at my phone

"Are you going to pick it up or not?" Leonard said

I hesitated before picking it up I placed the phone on my ear I waited for the caller to speak but it was silent I could hear heavy breathing.

This is definitely not Dimitri. I was about to speak but then the caller spoke

"Do you even think about ?" He questioned he's voice was deep and rough as he spoke lowly.

I was beyond confused what is he talking about.

"Have you even tried to find ?" He spoke again.

What the fuck? Gavino saw my confused look I think even the others did.

"Do you think about or have your forgot?" He continued off I was about to ask who he was.

"DON'T YOU REMEMBER? YOU DON'T REMEBER WHAT HAPPENED AT 5TH JULY 2017 ?" I stood frozen at my spot with my eyes wide and my phone still pressed against my ear. No! This cannot be happening.

The phone went silent from the other side I couldn't move he can't possibly talking about him, right?

"Sarafina" Gavino spoke worriedly

I blinked. I felt a tear slip down my eyes I quickly wiped it away and looked down I gulped the flashbacks of that night came back to my head I clenched my eyes shut.

I can't breathe! Why can't I breathe? I looked around

"Sarafina are you okay?" I heard Gavino speak I shook my head I took my head in my hands.

"GO! don't turn back RUN" He shouted

I was breathing heavily as I stood in front of him I couldn't move my feet were stuck on the ground tears streaming down my face.

I shook my head

"I can't leave you why don't you get that" I screamed at him

He turned to look at me before he could utter a word we hear a gunshot.

End of flash back.

"No, no Stop just stop" I muttered I don't want to remember

"Sarafina look at me" I heard someone say I didn't want to look up scared to what I will see but I looked up and quickly looked back down.

Tears streaming down my face. The ones I couldn't hold back

"Make it stop" I screamed the voices everything came crashing towards me and I couldn't do a thing about it

"No, please" I sobbed I saw someone pull me to their chest

"Hey your okay" The voice was gentle and calming but it didn't make the flashbacks stop

"It hurt's so much. Make it stop! Make it stop PLEASE!" I cried out

"Bambina you're safe" I heard someone say with the same voice.

Antonio.

"It was all my fault, I let it happen. IT'S ALL ME" I screamed

Everything wrong that happens is because of me whenever people get close to me they get hurt just like .

I can't bear my close ones getting hurt. I just can't.

I pushed Antonio away and ran to my room I could hear them following me but I didn't stop.

"Sarafina stop!" I heard some one yell I reached my room and quickly locked the door I slid down the door and banging my head.

I cried for the first time since that incident I cried knowing everyone close to me will either die or get hurt.

I heard a knock at the door but I didn't care Happy and sad flashbacks of came to my mind. I couldn't help but think that all of this happened because of me.

I was starting to get a little close to my brothers those weren't my intentions.

"Sarafina baby, please just open the door" I heard Antonio say his voice was gentle and calm the same voice he used with me just a minute ago.

I didn't open the door not now.

They have seen a part of me no one has ever seen.

They saw my weakness.