I've been in my room for a long time now. I can't face the world all alone I'm tired. I'm staring blankly at the ceiling above my head as the tears are falling down my face continuously.

I need some air I got up I checked the time 1am was I in here for that long.

I unlocked the door and went outside only to meet with silence they must have slept I walked through the corridors I saw a door I've never been in.

I walked in and it was gorgeous in the middle of the room there was piano and the place looked cozy. I walked to the middle where the piano is.

My fingers trailed the keyboards softly. I sat on the stool I pressed a random keyboard before I know it I was playing Paralyzed by NF.

(Song is above. I love this song the singer shows a lot of emotion in it.) My hands moved with my voice.

"When did I become so numb?

When did I lose myself?

All the words that leave my tongue

Feel like they came from someone else I'm paralyzed

Where are my feelings?

I no longer feel things

I know I should

I'm paralyzed

Where is the real me?

I'm lost and it kills me inside

I'm paralyzed

When did I become so cold?

When did I become ashamed? (oh)

Where's the person that I know?

They must have left

They must have left

With all my faith

I'm paralyzed

Where are my feelings?

I no longer feel things

I know I should

I'm paralyzed

Where is the real me?

I'm lost and it kills me inside

I'm paralyzed--"

I stopped I couldn't anymore my cold fingers were shaking as my eyes watered I bit my lip to prevent the tears from falling.

"That was beautiful" Someone whispered.

I jumped I didn't expect anyone to be awake. I turned around to face Vito.

"Thanks" I whispered back

He smiled he walked towards the piano and where I am

"I thought every one was asleep I just needed a walk but I found this" I said quickly

He nodded his head after a moment of silent

"Are you okay?" He said softly

"Fine" I whispered looking down my lap there was another moment of silent it wasn't awkward it was actually comfortable

"You scared me. All of us" He spoke all of a sudden I looked up to see him looking down

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you guys" I said.

"Never do that again. Run away and leave us hanging. It really scared me" He said his voice broke in the end.

Guilt consumed me and my eyes soften as I looked at Vito who had tears welled up in his eyes. I bit my lip.

I can't. I can't stay away from them they might not be there with me my whole childhood but I know they had a reason and I'm willing to take the risk getting close to them , I can't face the world alone.

Call me weak I don't care.

What if it hurts them? I won't let it happen.

Am I being selfish? At this point I don't care.

I just want my brothers love something I have never had I stood up and rushed to Vito and hugged him.

He tensed not expecting this but slowly he put his arm around my waist and his chin above my head

"Vito I can't. Please don't leave me." I said weakly my voice cracking his hold tightened around my waist

"Never in a million years. Your not getting rid of us anytime soon" He said and kissed the top of my head.

I smiled

"Let's get you to bed, Yeah?" I nodded my head but I didn't move from my spot Vito raised his eyebrows.

Yeah I'm not going to walk all the way to my room early in the morning so I quickly jumped on Vito's back in a blink of an eye he stumbled a bit infront

"Oh My God Sarafina" He squealed in surprise. Yeah I know he fucking squealed like a girl.

I stared at him for a moment

"Yeah, Never do that again you sound like a dying pig" I blurted out

"Offense taken" He said with a hurt expression.

I rolled my eyes

"Now can you walk I need sleep" I said putting my head on his shoulder as he made his way to my room.

He placed my on my bed

"Good night il sole (Sunshine)" He whispered softly and kissed my forehead I closed my eyes. He was about to walk away but I stopped him with my hand

"Stay" I whispered with my eyes still closed after a moment I heard some shuffling on the side of the bed as Vito came on the bed next to me.

He put his arm around my waist and brought me closer to him I put my leg over him.

"Good night fratello(Brother)" I said there was a moment of silence before he spoke

"Goodnight Sorella(Sister) "

I immediately fell asleep knowing I'm safe with my brother by my side.

"Wake up Sarafina" I heard someone say in my sleep while shaking me.

I groaned

"Leave me alone" I shout sleepily

"No, you have to wake up" They kept shaking me

"Leave" I scream as I put my comforter over my head.

I heard the person sigh and footsteps living I sighed in relief and went back to sleeping peacefully.

But it didn't last long because someone decided to pour cold water on me.

I gasped for air as I sat up quickly I found my self glaring at Leonard who is laughing his ass of and Lorenzo who is trying his best not to laugh but failed miserably as he joined his twin on the floor I looked at my side to see it empty.

Where did Vito go? Just when I was about to ask I heard my bathroom door open and Vito walked out glaring at the twins who are still laughing and when Vito entered their laughter doubled up.

I was curious on what they did then I saw whip cream on the side table and then I turned to look at Vito he had some whip cream on his chin and then I laughed so hard that I was in the floor with the twins.

Vito looked even more angry but soon joined in after we all calmed down

"Get out" I said in a serious tone

"What, why? I want to stay" Vito pouted

I shake my head

"No, Get out" I said pointing at the door all of them looked at me for any sign of me joking but these stubborn mother fuckers didn't get out.

"I swear if you don't get out I am going to tare your body pieces by pieces and limb by limb" I said in a deadly tone which made all of them gulp and eyes wide.

Vito was the first one to run out screaming.

I raised my eyebrows at the twins who in the blink of an eye were out of the room. I quickly closed the door calmly walked to my bed and laughed so hard tears were streaming down my face.

Their faces.

I quickly did my morning routine and wore my usual clothes. I was nervous to go down but I'll have to face them sooner or later.

I walked down the stair case to the kitchen where all the boys are having breakfast. Just as I entered the room all the boys stopped talking and turned to look at me they had concern in their eyes.

I gave them a small smile

"Morning" I said quietly I walked to the stool in between Vito and Leonard.

I started eating my breakfast the atmosphere was tense I was almost done my breakfast when Antonio spoke

"Sarafina I want you to come to my office after this" Antonio says taking a bite of his breakfast I gulped and nodded my head I took a sip of my juice.

I was done breakfast and I'm following Antonio to his office. We reached his office I sat at the couch as usual as Antonio took his seat

"How are you?" He asked his voice soft

"I'm good" I said

He nodded his head

I heard him sigh

"Do you want to talk about it?" He questioned relating the event that took place yesterday

"Do you think I want to talk about it?" I answered he stayed silent

"Are you ever going to tell us?" He asked his voice quiet

"Maybe. Maybe not" I replied

He nodded his head

"You may leave for school you'll be late"

I nodded my head and walked out.

I headed to the car where by brothers are waiting I sat at the backseat Vito glance at my direction I gave him a small smile which he returned.

Can't wait for school. Yay!

Note the sarcasm.