August had been an off the grid agent for a little over 5 years when you first met him. Things were difficult at first because sometimes he would be gone for months on end. But he always told you when he was leaving. Even when he wasn't supposed to, he knew that he could trust you with anything. So you always knew when he was about to go off the grid. Typically people with this occupation tend to stay away from family life because of the danger and secrecy that comes with the job, but August couldn't help but keep you by his side. Keeping you a secret from his superiors and fellow agents. However, this time was different. He had told you that he finally retired and that he was done with that lifestyle. That he wanted to be at home with you and live a normal life. Even still, two months after he said that, August went off the grid without telling you, leaving you confused, hurt, and worried. For two years you lived without a word from August, and over that course of time, you concluded that he was gone for good and you moved on. Well, he wasn't quite ready to do that.

I laid beside her as she ran her fingers through my hair. We had planned to go out for a walk downtown for date night but I just wanted to spend time with her here at home since I'll be leaving soon. She doesn't know, and I can't tell her. It's hurting me that I'll have to just leave without saying anything, but this is the most dangerous job I have done. One that I've been preparing for, for almost two months. Especially since y/n is involved, I cannot jeopardize her and the life I have with her, she's the only home I have, and I don't want to lose that. So no matter how much I dont want to do this, I have to.

"I'm so glad you're in my life," I told her as my eyes scanned her beautiful features.

"Why?" She asked, stars filling her eyes. No matter how many times I tell her, she loves when I tell her how much she means to me. And I'll never get tired of telling her.

"Because you're the light of my life. You make me happy to be alive. You're the only thing that matters to me in this world." She smiled and my heart stopped for the millionth time since we've been together.

I'm going to miss these nights. Just being with the other half of me, nothing and no one else but me and her.

"Y/n," She was beginning to drift to sleep but I needed to tell her once more what she means to me before the night is over.

"I love you no matter what. Nothing will ever change that. Ever. I will spend the rest of my life wanting and needing only you. You have to believe that." She smiled and brought her lips to mine.

I savored this feeling, knowing it would be a long while until I would feel it again. I wrapped my hand around her waist and squeezed lightly as I deepened the kiss.

"I love you," I told her as I pulled back.

She slowly drifted off again and an hour in I knew I had to get ready to go. I slowly slid out of the bed and slid on my jeans, a black turtle neck, and my black boots. I grabbed my backpack and slung it around my arms before grabbing my cap. I went back over to her side of the bed and placed a kiss on her cheek before caressing her face one more time.

"I'm so sorry. I'll come back to you." I watched her for a few more seconds before placing my cap on my head and walking out of the door. If I hadn't forced myself to leave right then, I would have never left at all.

Me and my best friend bf/n sat on the bench outside of the movie theater as we waited for my boyfriend to meet us here. The day has gone great. Except for the fact that we missed out on concert tickets to see Beartooth.

"Literally I know we were the 10th caller, we called right as he was saying the number!" Bf/n shouted. I could only laugh at her.

"We'll just have to pay full price or not go at all and wait until next time."

I tried to reason with her. She scoffed and stretched her legs out from the bench in frustration.

"Says the girl who's been to a Beartooth concert three times." She rolled her eyes and I chuckled.

"Come on, let's wait inside." The sun had begun to fry my legs that were exposed since I was wearing shorts.

We sat in the lobby and my eyes roamed to the tv screen that was plastered right in front of us on the wall. It played a scene of an FBI agent and his crew. But after a while, I had to look away. I could feel anger fueling inside of me again and I have tried to let it go for so long. Ever since August left two years ago, anything relating to his field of work just frustrated me and still does from time to time. I can still remember the morning after he left as if it were yesterday.

I woke up to the bed being empty and cold. August hadn't been here for a while now. I got up from the bed and slid into my slippers that sat just beneath me and headed down the stairs.

"August?" I called into the living room. He was nowhere to be found in there or in the kitchen.

I looked outside and his car was still there. So maybe he went for a morning jog. Sometimes he does that when he can't sleep, so he gets up early and jogs. I went back upstairs to get changed and noticed his phone still on the nightstand. Shoot, now I can't call him. I decided to just wait until he gets home. His runs usually last for an hour and a half.

After two hours had gone by August still wasn't home. I tried not to overthink it but being who I am I began to worry. Even if he was an off the grid agent he could still get hurt. I decided to leave to look around for him.

I searched the whole city for him in a span of three months, and I never found him. It drove me crazy not knowing where he was or how he was. I even filed a missing person report but it led to nothing. He had ben retired from doing missions since two months prior to that day so it's not like he was on one. So I had no choice but to leave that life behind me. Truly, there's no reason he would leave his things the way he did if he didn't plan on just up and leaving me. Maybe he was just done. How could he say all of that to me the night before and then just up and leave without a trace? I turned my attention back to bf/n as she was greeting Lucas who had just walked up.

"Hey babe." He said before kissing me on the cheek.

"Hey, you guys ready to see the movie?" They nodded and we went to buy our tickets.

"Hey I'm gonna run to the bathroom really quick." Lucas went off to the restrooms and it was just me and my friend left.

But after a while bf/n started to get impatient.

"Gosh y/n this is taking forever, can you buy the tickets? Im gonna grab a seat." I nodded as she handed me the money before heading back to the lobby area.

So I stood alone waiting my turn. A few moments later a couple more people had came into the line so I looked around to see how long it gotten behind me. After seeing how long it was I returned to my previous position.

"Wait," I thought to nyself internally. When I turned around the first time I saw a familiar figure. So I turned again to make sure my mind wasn't playing tricks on me. He was just as tall. Built the same. Had the same demeanor of someone trying to hide themself amongst the crowd of people. Could it be him? How am I supposed to react if it is him?I thought about going to make sure for myself, however, I didn't want to embarass myself by getting him mixed up with a stranger. So I turned back around and threw the thought out of my mind.

But as time went on and the line seemed to not be moving at all, the thought began to bug me again. The man looked too much like him for it not to be him. So I whipped my head around again for another look. Only this time, he was walking toward the line. But his head was down and I couldn't see his face, and the closer he walked the clearer it became that he was heading my direction. He was about 10 steps from me, and it was then that everything around me stopped. He lifted his head from the ground and as he came to his final steps, he stood infront of me. Towering me like he always used to do.

"A-August?" His name was stuck in my throat and it took a little extra effort to say it. So many questions filled my mind and I felt too many emotions to express just one to him.

"Hi y/n." He said. His voice. Why did it sound so unfamiliar to me?

"What are you doing here?" Before any more conversation could carry on between us the lady behind us cleared her throat, signifying that the line had moved and significantly at that.

"Can we talk?" He asked. How was I supposed to talk to him after two years?

I don't know if it was the best decision to make, but I stepped out of the line and followed August off to the side where we could talk a little more privately. I waited for him to speak because in all honesty what was I supposed to say to this man? He let out a heavy breath as he started.

"I've missed you so mu-" As soon as the words left his mouth every memory swelled in my chest. Every night I cried my eyes out wondering why he left me or if he was dead. The memory of knowing every word he told me that night was a lie fuelled the fire inside me, and I fell for those lies because I thought he loved me.

"Two years August," I could feel that I was going to let him have it. And I didn't care if it was infront of all these people.

"You disappeared for two years! How did you even know I was here? Why are you here August!?" He dropped his head as if he were ashamed.

"I need you to tell me right now, how it is possible, that you are standing in front of me." He looked at me with eyes that I could no longer read the way I used to.

He reached for my arm but as soon as he did I flinched back. I could not have him touching me while being this upset.

"Y/n you know I'm trained to always know where people are if I need to know. And I had a job to do. The only way I could protect you was if I made you believe that I was done with off griding and then leave without you knowing."

The only thing I could do was laugh. Unbelievable is what this is.

"You think Im just gonna believe that's the case? When since the moment I met you, no matter what the job was, you always told me when you were leaving. And you told me you were done with it anyway so how do you expect me to believe you when you say that!?" He sighed heavily.

"August, you don't know the pain I dealt with and felt every day. I sat up day and night worrying about you. For two years, I didnt see you, I didnt speak to you, I didnt know where you went, I didnt hear a word from you! Now what? Am I supposed to just act like you didnt leave me?" He shook his head before explaining himself further.

"Y/n please. You have to believe this. There was no possible way to keep you safe unless I had done what I did." I scoffed. "Everything I told you that night-"

"It was a lie." I stopped him. Everything he told me that night was a lie.

"No. Not in any way shape or form was any of it a lie. I loved and still love you with all my heart. And I know what I did put you through so much. But that's why I had to do it. So that you wouldnt worry about me going on jobs anymore. So that I could really quit and live the life with you that we always wanted. I still want that y/n." My eyes began to burn. My chest began to burn aswell.

Words can't describe the heartache that was rushing through me right now. He doesn't even know that I've moved on.

"Y/n you don't know how hard it was to leave you that night. What I went through when I went on the job, will scar me for the rest of my life, but I did it for your safety. Because you fell in love with a man who didn't value his life before you came into it, which is why I became an agent all those years ago. Because I didn't care about me. But you came into my life and changed it in every aspect." I couldn't listen to this anymore.

"Stop."

"The way I feel about living now is not because of what I have done for me, it is because of what you mean to me."

"August..."

"You mean the world to me, you're my everything. The one thing that I refuse to lose in this life."

"August stop!" I said aloud. His eyes flickered in shock and he stood quiet.

I looked down at the ground because I could feel eyes on us but that's not what bothered me the most. Hearing all of that come from him caused a confliction within me. Why was I feeling this way? Why was I starting to miss him as the words came from his mouth? I thought I got over him completely. I looked back into his eyes and suddenly I could see what they were saying. And it wasn't until then that I realized I still felt something toward him. And it made my chest ache.

"Y/n, please. I am so sorry. We can start over. I promise this time I am done, I swear it. You will never have to worry about me leaving ever again." He placed his hand on my forearm and grabbed it lightly.

But suddenly it was harshly pushed away and I stumbled back a bit. When I looked up, it was Lucas and bf/n.

"Hey what are you doing!? Y/n what's going on?" Lucas then pulled me closer to him by my waist and August threw his hands back in defense. Bf/n stood beside Lucas. I couldnt bring myself to look away from the shocked expression that August held on his face.

"Who are you?" August asked. Lucas pushed me slightly behind him and scoffed. Bf/n placed her hand on my arm and I wished this wasn't happening right now. I wish he never showed his face to me and that us three could go back and watch our movie. Which by now has probably already begun.

"Who am I? Who are you talking to my girl?" August looked at me from infront of Lucas and I had to look away. Now, I could see it again. The pain in his eyes, because he knows that I moved on without him. But I can't let that make me feel bad, he left me without a word. So how could he blame me?

"I see you've started without me." August said with a defeated look on his face as he looked at the ground and stuffed his hands in his sweatshirt pocket. He referred to the plans we set when we were together. But he doesn't know anything about my relationship now. And he doesn't know that I will never do any of the things I promised with him, with anyone else. That dream belongs to that relationship. and that relationship is over.

"August," I said so he would look back up to me.

"You left me remember? You can't blame me for starting a new life. I didn't know what happened to you." Lucas moved from infront of me and furrowed his brows.

"Y/n, who the heck is this guy?" I sighed and stepped up to have the both of them infront of me. But I couldn't tell him exactly in this moment. In fact I never planned on telling him. But I had to settle this first before leaving it behind. For absolute good.

So much for our movie.

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Hi yall! So I did the ending like that because the chapter was gettin a little long haha. Buuut there's potential for a part twooo. However, I won't say anything yet. We'll just have to wait and see!

Also I'm still working on a couple requests so stay tuned for those :)

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