felix got through his day of school, feeling rather exhausted.

his body was slowly starting to give up on him, wanting to go off to sleep now more than ever.

he sat in the cafeteria with the rest of the boys, crashing his head onto the table, finally allowing his eyes to shut instead of having something to eat.

"is he okay?" jeongin asked as he looked at felixs lifeless body upon entering the cafeteria.

"it's lix, he probably just stayed up playing video games until an ungodly hour." jisung joked with the boys, but it didn't convince changbin.

changbin knew something had to be wrong with felix... he knew the boy had trouble with sleeping in the past... he just thought felix would be doing better now.

"do you actually think he's okay though?" changbin asked, everyone shooting him slight glares aside from hyunjin. hyunjin just stared at his food, trying to ignore the tension at the table.

"i don't know, why don't you ask his broken heart?" chan said through grit teeth.

"alright then... sorry for caring." changbin sighed as he got up and threw out the rest of his food.

hyunjin then stood up to follow after the boy, "felix isnt the only one hurting guys. obviously changbin has some shit going on, why can't you just be a little kinder to him?"

"yeah his 'shit' that he has going on is you." jeongin had enough of hyunjin being oblivious. he just needed to be outright and honest with it.

"what?" hyunjin asked, feeling both confused and annoyed.

"he's in love with you or something! we can all see it. you're the reason he fucking left felix!" jeongin raised his voice, causing felix to stir, but after catching a few words of what jeongin said, felix decided it was best to keep his eyes closed.

"what're you talking about innie? you're making that up!" hyunjin said defensively.

"he's not..." chan sighed.

"yeah... he really isn't." jisung added.

"so changbin actually likes me?" hyunjin asked, being compeltely shocked by the words he was hearing.

"yeah, i mean that's why we all got so angry with him when he ended things with felix. we all thought it had to be for you." seungmin explained.

"b-but..." hyunjin didn't know what to say, all he knew was he felt terrible for felix.

"he still wants to defend changbin," jeongin scoffed, "go after your little boyfriend. i'm sure he'd be happy to be alone with you."

"don't be like that jeongin." hyunjin pleaded.

"then dont fall for a guy you know you shouldn't have!" once again jeongin raised his voice, but this time he stormed off right after.

felix felt his eyes begin to water as he thought about the words the boys were saying.

did changbin actually leave me for hyunjin?

i try to tell myself he didn't...

but deep down i know he did...

he confirmed that at chans when he thought i wouldn't hear him.

he said he doesn't care about me anymore.

he's always all over hyunjin... even when changbin and i were dating he was all over hyunjin...

maybe he never even loved me.

felix felt like he was drowning. he was trapped under this sea of hurt and he couldn't escape it.

everywhere he turned, there was another obstacle he had to get over.

he was sick of trying to be happy, he just wanted to actually be happy.

felix was starting to think happiness wasn't for him.

he couldn't be happy while he was with changbin and now without him he was certainly much worse.

the pain was never ending, a constant cycle of heartbreak that made breathing harder and harder as his chest began to tighten on him.

felix felt himself starting to panic as he laid there, his head still down on the table.

he heard the other boys side conversations and wished the period would end so everyone would just leave, but he knew they wouldn't just leave him there.

so quickly, without really even thinking about it, felix stood up and ran out of the cafeteria.

all the boys turned and gave eachother knowing looks.

"he heard us..." chan sighed as he watched felix run off, keeping his head down so no one could see his face.

a.n.

so now hyunjin knows 🤠✌️

ALSO TA DANCE PRACTICE UMMMM SOFHEODO GOODBYE

I AM DECEASED.