after changbin left the cafeteria, he went into the music room which he knew was open during his lunch period.

he walked in, flicking on the lights and making his way over to the piano.

changbin tried to ignore the pesky thoughts that attacked his brain and he just tried to focus on his music, but lately, his music had no meaning.

changbin had two people in his entire life that inspired him to write music, that motivated him to be better... yet he managed to lose them both and the only person he had to blame was himself... or so he thought.

changbin sat there, hitting the keys in a beautiful symphony, yet no lyrics would come to him.

the only thing he could think about was the day he left felix...

"binnie, you've been so quiet, is everything okay?" felix asked, his beautiful doe eyes staring at me.

"uh... yeah, im fine." i shrugged, trying to figure out in my head exactly what i was going to say to him.

"i feel like things have been differnet between us lately," felix frowned, "did i do something wrong?"

i took a moment to answer, and before i could, i watched felix check his pulse out of the corner of my eye.

i was making him anxious.

i watched him play with his hands nervously, i could tell he wanted to hold my hand. i even watched him reach to grab onto me, but i moved away and just stared at him.

"i think we should break up." i told him simply.

in that moment, i felt the instant regret, but it was too late.

i had already ruined felix, i just needed to stop the pain while i still could.

i watched as felixs shoulders dropped, his body turning in on itself.

he curled up into a ball practically, feeling himself shake from his rising anxiety... i hated seeing him that way.

i knew he was trying to speak up and ask me why, but he couldn't.

he just sat there in shock of my words as his walls came crumbling down.

i looked down at felixs exposed wrists and saw the fresh wounds that were traced onto him.

i knew he was harming himself, it had to be my fault.

i couldn't make him happy and it was killing me.

he was slipping away from me more and more and there was nothing i could do to stop it.

all i could do was end it. end us.

changbin was then snapped out of his thoughts upon hearing the music room door open.

he turned around and saw hyunjin looking at him with a sense of shock on his face.

hyunjin walked into the music room, knowing this is usually where changbin goes when he's upset. the only reason hyunjin actually knows this though is because of felix.

one day last year when changbin and felix were still together, the two got into an awful fight. felix knew it would do more harm than good to check on changbin, so he asked hyunjin to. felix sent him to the music room where he knew changbin would be.

hyunjin knew how much felix cared about changbin, and how much he still cares, that's why it hurts him so much to know he might be in the way of the two being together.

looking back now, hyunjin knows the day he checked on changbin was the day everything changed between the two of them.

he stared at changbin who just stared back with a confused expression.

hyunjin finally spoke up, "is it true?"

"is what true?" changbin responded as the confusion grew.

"do you have feelings for me?" hyunjin asked, being very straight foward because he just wanted some answers.

changbin's face grew red as he heard the words hyunjin had said.

do i have feelings for hyunjin?

changbin didn't know how to respond, he claims to have feelings for the boy... but in reality he doesn't know.

he doesn't get jealous when he sees hyunjin and jeongin together.

he doesn't get jealous why hyunjin flirts with jeongin.

he doesn't get jealous when hyunjin is touchy with their other friends.

but when it comes to felix, all of that makes his blood boil.

he gets jealous of chan and felix.

he gets jealous when anyone flirts with felix.

he gets jealous when felix is affectionate to their other friends.

yet he still left felix, but hyunjin is the only person who could have an idea as to why that would be.

still, the easier option for changbin is to blame it on his "feelings" for hyunjin.

"i do..." changbin said, not sounding very convincing, but the shock of the words was enough for the uncertainty to fly right over hyunjins head.

"am i the reason you broke up with felix?" hyunjin asked.

"you are..." again, his voice sounded a bit apprehensive, yet hyunjin still didn't catch it.

with that, hyunjin left the music room in shock. he couldnt stand to be near changbin, not out of anger, but just out of guilt.

changbin sat there at the piano, recalling better days when things were not so confusing.

he missed her.

the one person who made his life simple.

he saw her in felix.

if only he didn't have to lose them both.

a.n.

i hope y'all like sad stories 🥲

but in case any of you are sad... here is hyunjins smile to spread happiness onto you🥺❤️