minho left jisung to tend to felix, and he decided to run after changbin who looked as though he was two seconds away from throwing up.

his face had turned pale and his shakiness was evident as he stumbled out of the room.

minho watched changbin dart into the bathroom, and immediately he worried about just what could be going through changbin's mind.

minho followed in after him, calling out for the boy while he knocked on the stall door.

he heard changbin gagging, with a bit of dry heaving. minho wanted to comfort changbin, but he wasn't sure how to.

"bin... you can't make yourself sick over this. come out please." minho pleaded, this was the first time changbin had ever heard minho sound so worried over something that had nothing to do with jisung.

changbin opened the stall door and allowed minho to see him in his completely disheveled state.

"changbin, you know felix loves you. he said it today, he's not going to leave you." minho knew why changbin was worrying so much, it was because felix had made the claim once again that he does not want to live.

"it doesn't matter minho," changbin shook his head as the tears streamed down his cheeks, "no matter how much he loves me or how much i love him, no matter how kind you guys are to him, no matter what any of us do... he will still want to die at the end of the day when he's alone and laying in bed with nothing but his thoughts to attack him."

"then we will take shifts staying with him. you can spend most days with him, but we can take some days too. it's not good for you to worry so much." minho suggested.

"what do you mean stay with him, like over night?" changbin questioned.

"yeah, maybe he'll let us all spend a night or two at his place. jisung and i can go together one night, jeongin can go, and you can go of course." minho explained a bit further.

"if felix is okay with that then yeah... but i don't mind staying with him every night." changbin said shyly.

"i know," minho stifled a laugh, "but felix can't be entirely dependent on you. he will never get better at that rate. if you guys have even the tiniest fight he will lose all hope again. he needs to know he has every one of us, not just you." minho always was the one in the group to use logic to reason with the rest of them, and his ideas always seemed to be the best and most thought out.

"i mean... i guess you're right." changbin sighed, knowing minho was entirely correct on everything he said.

"i know i'm right," minho put out his hand to help changbin off the floor, "let's go back to felix and ji now. i'll call the other boys so we can all help you out with comforting felix."

"maybe we should ask felix what he would want. i don't want to overload him with people if he wants to be alone." changbin suggested, knowing felix hates people seeing him breakdown.

"you're right, let's go talk to him... if he's even willing to talk." minho said as he and changbin walked out of the bathroom and back towards the room felix was in.

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when the boys made it to the room, they saw the door shut and jisung comforting felix on the ground outside of it.

"what happened?" minho asked, but jisung shook his head and gently tried to lift felix to his feet.

"let's just take felix to changbins house." jisung suggested.

"my house?" changbin whispered to the boy.

"he doesn't want to go to his grandmothers house." jisung whispered back as he walked with felixs had burried in the crook of his neck.

"hey bokkie, you can't walk like that, it's difficult for jisung. why don't you come over to me?" changbin suggested, but felix didn't budge.

"it's fine changbin, i don't care." jisung said as he tried his best not to fall or trip felix in the process of walking.

"but—" before changbin could say anything else, felix ran behind him, wrapping his arms around the boys waist, and burying his head in between changbins shoulder blades.

"s-sorry..." felix mumbled against changbins back.

"don't apologize, bokkie. you're fine, okay?" changbin said as he walked slowly, rubbing felixs hand that rest on his stomach.

"mhmm..." felix hummed, but he still felt guilty for always being a burden to them.

"let's just get you to my house, and then you can rest, my love."

hearing changbin speak so sweetly to felix made both minho and jisungs realize some more things that were blind to before.

they knew changbin loved felix, but they never truly knew how much until now.

they felt bad for always placing blame on changbin, and attacking him for leaving felix. they now know changbin has only ever done what he felt was best for felix.

what they failed to realize before is that sometimes people make mistakes, and changbin's mistake was thinking felix was better off without him.

a.n.

a bit of a shorter chapter today

i am very anxious at the moment 🥲