the boys returned to school the following monday and tried to act as though nothing happened. there were apologies separately through each boy that deserved one and everyone was ready to move on.

seungmin and chan however were still not on speaking terms.

"seungmin, can we talk?" chan asked as the boys all sat down for lunch in the courtyard.

"i guess," seungmin shrugged, he was never really able to say no to the latter.

chan began walking towards a secluded bench that resided underneath some trees, providing the boys with shade and privacy.

seungmin followed behind him, dragging his feet since he was dreading this conversation.

"so what did you want to talk about?" seungmin asked.

"us," chan spoke honestly, "i am so sorry seungmin... know you like me and i kind of had the idea that you did for awhile now. i yelled at felix for using me, but i pretty much did the same to you.

"i recognized how well you treated me and i took advantage of that. i know you probably are trying to get over me now since you see how awful i can be, but i'm honestly trying to fix my ways.

"over the weekend, i took sometime to myself to think everything through. i'm a complete jerk... that i know for sure. i need to stop acting as though my feelings are the only ones that matter.

"im sorry i hurt you. it was never my intention to do so, but it sure seemed like it was with the way i acted.

"i can't excuse all that i have done wrong with an apology, but if you would give me the chance... i'd like to make things right between us."

"how?" seungmin asked, disgregarding the apology for the time being.

"i am getting over felix, slowly... but i definitely am moving on. i don't want you to wait for me or anything because there's no guarantee what our future will be like... but if there's a time when you still like me and i am fully moved on, maybe we can go on a date or something..." chan said, knowing he was asking for way too much.

"i won't wait for you, chan. i hope i move on by the time you're ready for me. i hope i get to hurt you the way you've been hurting me." seungmin snapped back at the latter.

"and i deserve that," chan chuckled, "i hope you get to hurt me too. it would actually be an honor to have you break my heart."

"you're so weird." seungmin rolled his eyes, trying his best to hold back a smile.

"i do like you seungmin, im not lying about that. i think that's why i tried to ignore that you like me. i wasn't ready to move on from felix because dwelling on him was easier than being with someone who could seriously hurt me.

"well, felix hurt me... but dating you and having a breakup... that is a different level of pain and i don't think i was ready for that. i'm still not ready for that. one day i hope to fully accept the fact that i like you and only you, and then maybe you can break my heart." chan said sweetly.

he had a way with words that seungmin absolutely loved and hated at the same time. Seungmin wanted to be mad, but chan always knew just what to say to make things right.

"i hate you." seungmin stated bluntly as he picked at his cuticles rather aggressively.

chan reached his hand over, just like felix did a couple days prior, "there's no sense in hurting yourself when you're angry at me. stay angry at me, i don't deserve forgiveness right now."

seungmin slid his hand unintentionally to hold onto chans and when the two boys realized the action, they each felt a blush rise onto their cheeks.

"i don't know how to be angry at you... it never works." seungmin shook his head.

"then don't be angry at me," chan shrugged, "i like it better when i can make you smile anyway."

"stupid," seungmin scoffed, "i still hate you."

"hmm enemies to lovers trope... i like the sound of that." chan flashed a sickly sweet smile that seungmin wanted to punch right off the latters face.

"ugh you're so annoying." seungmin groaned, tired of the feelings that he had bubbling within him.

"but i guess you like that about me." chan continued to smirk, making seungmin shake his hands free of the latters grasp.

"let's get back to our friends now, i haven't forgiven you yet." seungmin stood up and began walking back towards their lunch table.

"in time i hope you will." chan said softly as he followed behind the latter.

he was angry with himself for taking advantage of seungmin. chan hated that he never realized how he felt towards the boy, but he hadn't himself even more for letting his feelings for felix cloud his judgement.

felix was a lost cause that he got hung up on. chan didn't know why he was so obsessed with getting that freckle faced boy to like him back, especially when he always knew it would never work.

maybe chan didn't want anyone to like him back because deep down... he has a hard time accepting that he too deserves love.

a.n.

seungchan have somewhat made up

woohoo

a couple more chapters until the end (i think)🌚