I breathe in before mustering up enough courage to ring the doorbell. I waited for about two minutes before ringing it again but no one answer. I began to knock heavily on the door in hope that they'll hear me and open the door but nothing happened.

"Oh, I know her. She was admitted to the hospital about two or three days ago..." she trailed off, obviously trying to remember how long it has been but I had other plans.

"Hospital, what happened?" I asked though I knew about this before thanks to the blackmail man but he never gave me full details of what actually happened.

She pushed her round glasses farther up the bridge of her nose before replying "I don't know the name but I think it's called Emma... Emmaniel or something like that" she said looking exhausted from all the thinking she just did

"Name?" she requested. Her yellow eyes studying me

"Samuel Brown" I replied biting the inside of my cheek

She nodded before parting her lip gloss coated mouth "Room 12B" she said before I nodded and ventured down the hall I thought would lead me to the room. After minutes of walking I was face-to-face with a white door with *Room 12B* written in bold black letters.

"What are you doing here and how did you know I was in the hospital?" her brows furrowed up in confusion.

I'm still at the hospital, specifically beside Riele's hospital room door. I haven't left this place since I was sent out of the room by the nurse and how could I? I haven't felt this much guilt in a while and now that I do feel it, I don't know what to do

"I knew I shouldn't have done it. Grandpa would never have been proud of me if he heard" I muttered silently to myself as I tugged the ends of my hair in frustration. What worries me the most is the fact that the doctor and the nurses haven't left Riele's room

It makes me wonder how bad the situation is. I glanced down at my wrist watch as it read twelve thirty pm. I've been here since eleven thirty am. It's been an hour already. Getting up from my position on the floor, I stretched out my legs in hopes of getting rid of the cramps when the door creaked open

Snapping my head at the direction of the door, I was greeted by the doctor who came to take care of Riele. "Is everything ok Doc?" I asked in fear watching as the nurses left the room to other places.

"Well, I can say she is fine but she needs to rest. Her body is weak at the moment. And please don't try disturbing her and when she does wake up, no one should say anything that will cause her more shock" he explained as I watched his eyes brimming in sympathy.

"Please, no more news or information. Her body can't take it anymore. I'm afraid any more shocking news she receives again might cause her to die" he was cut off as I gasped, terrified

"Death?" I asked in disbelief to which he nodded

"Her blood pressure is now higher than the last time I checked up on her. Her heart attack condition seems more severe than before" he said brushing his hair back creating a huge mess of brown hair

Hot salty tears began rolling down my cheeks in an uncontrollable manner. 'It's all my fault' I hiccuped feeling as the doctor rubbed my back comfortingly.

"It's alright. It'll all be fine. I'm sure if she rest, she'll be back to shape." he tried smiling but I saw right through it yet I smiled nonetheless in hope that everything would be alright.

With that he left me drowning in guilt and regret. Bringing my shaking hand up, I twisted the handle of door before entering the room and what I saw brought multiple tears back in my eyes.

Closing the door, I walked over to her bed. With every step I took it felt like knives were continually pierced into my body. Finally standing beside her bed, I got a full image of her. She had more wires and machines connected to her body now than before making the matter worse for me.

I made a noise that sounded like a cry and a snort. Slowly, I felt my legs being lowered to the ground and suddenly my bent knees connected with the ground full force but the pain felt was nothing compared to the guilt that was swallowing me up.

Bringing her hands in mine, I rested my head on it and the floodgates opened. I shook my head over and over again as I kept on muttering the word "Sorry" non-stop. "I am so sorry Riele. I should have never told you that but..." I paused as something occurred to me

I never really had a genuine reason for telling her that. I was just being selfish; yes, I was selfish. I thought of myself first instead of considering others. Grandpa wouldn't have had me do that even if it did cost his life. He always said to put Jesus first, myself last and others in between, as the word *JOY* implies

I should think of others first before myself. I hit my head repeatedly on the frame of the bed as I realised how stupid I was. "I have made the worst mistake I could ever make in my life. Riele, if you're listening, I am deeply sorry. I should have never told you that. I was being selfish that's it. I am a selfish being and I know but please forgive me. Please" I paused hoping she'll respond but then I remembered her current condition and I broke down again.

Very short? I know but that's the most you can get out of me for this week😌