I stood there not knowing whether to do it or not. With her hand in my left and the plug in my right. My hand was gripping hers so tight I don't think she was even gripping onto mine. Her eyes were pierced right into mine. She nodded her head and I gave her hand a slight squeeze.

"I can't do this." I said leaving the plug and her hand at once and falling to the floor with my head in my hands, soaking them and the floor underneath me.

"Colby, please." she was weak but managed to croak out those words. I gained the courage and brought my feet to the floor. I held her hand in mine and gave it a kiss before I moved to her lips. I gave them the longest but softest kiss ever.

I'm going to miss those lips.

A lot.

I finally had the plug back in my hands and I stared deeply into the eyes I fell in love with over again every day.

A single tear ran down her face and I started sobbing uncontrollably.

This was really happening.

I was really losing the love of my life.

"I love you, and I always will." I choked out and she started crying before managing the words, "I love you, Brock."

I slowly pulled the plug. The monitor flat lined immediately and so did her heart beat. Her eyes fluttered closed and I could no longer see those beautiful eyes.

"I'll leave you for a few minutes." The doctor spoke before closing the door.

I lost it.

Tears streamed down my face uncontrollably as I looked at the lifeless body of my loved one. The person who I wanted to spend my life with. Have kids together. Grow old with.

But now all that's gone.

She's gone.

Everything.

I started screaming.

"Why? You were suppose to be with me! Forever! But now you're gone! I miss you so much! I just wanted you to try and fight! I just don't want to let you go!"

This wasn't suppose to happen.

"You were suppose to be fighting and giving your everything to stay alive."

I continued crying as I knew she was gone forever.

The thought of never seeing that beautiful smile again with the sparkle in her eyes was like having a knife slowly going through your heart.

"I miss you baby, but you're in a better place now. Where you're in no more pain and you're happy. I just wish I was. I won't be happy, as long as I'm not with you, I won't be happy."

"I love you."

Even thought I knew she was already dead and couldn't hear me, I kept on talking and kissing her and crying and begging for her to come alive again, but I know that won't happen.

"When I miss you I'm going to read our old conversations and pretend you're still here but just far, far away. And then I'm going to listen to our favorite songs and smile like an idiot. Then I'll miss you more."

"I'm going to miss all our cuddles and snuggles and all the pranks we pulled on each other. I'm going to keep paying your phone bills, just to hear your voice again when I try and call you."

"I'll rewatch all your videos and covers to see and hear you again and remind me that you're still with me, not in a moving body but in spirit. You'll always be by my side in spirit. And I'll always love you."