When you are in a relationship with somebody some things are meant to be kept personal! Ladies out there should NEVER go through a mans phone! You should already know from the jump that you going to see some shit in there that's most likely going to have your ass crying. You should trust us enough to know that we not going to be cheating on you, but for some people trust is just a word. Not all men cheat, some do it because they asses just want something to brag about, some do it because we just love fucking different type of women, and some do it because we simply can.

Yet still the easiest way for a woman to find out if a man is cheating, is to go through his phone. That's that shit we don't like. It annoys the fuck out of us, if you don't see us going through your shit why go through ours? Our phones is the one thing that let's us be who we are without having you talking in our ear. It's the time besides when were with the boys, that we can say whatever the hell we want without you breathing down our necks. Something so little can break a relationship all because just one simple code.

Half the time it really isn't even us, after some slick talk females willing send us shit. Pussy pics, pussy videos, nude pictures, and sexual ass conversations. We don't say anything to them to stop it, yet we getting blamed for cheating. Shit I probably have a couple girls in my phone right now telling how bad they want to fuck me, but it's all talk to me. I don't really feed into because I'm coming home to somebody at the end of the day so I don't care what they say.

But then you have those dudes that say I don't need to lock my phone, my girl trust me or my girl no better than to go through my phone. We don't have commitment issues types. And that's good, kudos to you. But while you think her ass trust you by not going through your phone, either she could very well be a good woman respecting you or she texting some nigga on the side too! Don't sleep on me, I know my shit . We all do it, you just don't know.

No doubt about it I keep a lock on my phone, just like Brielle keeps a password on certain files of her computer. Sometimes I come home and hear her in the room talking, but once I step in there she so quick to close her laptop. I respect her enough not to go through her computer but yet I want to know what the hell she got on there that she can't share with me?

"So now I know completely what you go through on a daily basis with that girl!" Jasmine said as we had lunch together.

I laughed, "It's not all bad sometimes."

"Did you see how she looked at me when she saw us together, she damn near wanted punch me in the face!"

I smiled. "Nah, she was cool with you it was just me."

"Smells like jealousy. Does she have your balls on layaway or something? Are you allowed to talk to any females?"

"Oh I see you got jokes, you think you funny don't you? Does your man keep your ass in line when it comes to other nigga? Opps, I forgot your ass don't have man!"

She laughed. "Alright you got me on that one, but I don't need man they need me."

I laughed. "That's how you feelin', aight I see you."

She smiled as she put the straw in her mouth sipping on her grape soda. "Why you looking at me like that ?" Jasmine asked.

I smiled focusing back. "My bad, I was in my zone."

Jasmine broke a piece of her chocolate chip cookie. Taking down at the table she asked a question before placing the cookie in her mouth. "What?" She said with a smile

"Nothing, my bad I didn't mean to stare."

"Yeah, you all up in the business! Do I have something on my face?" She asked concerned.

"No, you look good."

"Always look good, don't forget it!" She joked. "Here I didn't get a chance to get Mijo a gift, he probably won't be interested anyway. It's four court side tickets to tonight's game, they were a bonus from this modeling gig I did, I have more so take these extras." She smiled handing me the tickets.

"Thank you, he'll love it! Shit, I know I will. Excuse me then, I have to get home now."

"Home to what?"

"Brielle and Mijo."

"I was testing you, I was trying to see if you were going to say my girl or my family. You still haven't told her that you wanted a time out?"

"No, I decided that I'm just going to see how it goes between us for a while."

"Oh," She said nonchalantly.

"What?"

"Nothing, do you. But I just wanna know is she your girl or what?"

This is my last day that I'll be able to be home with Chris and Mijo. I took time off from work to get some things done. After Mijo was born I knew I would turn into one of those people who sit on their asses all day, taking care of the baby and feed their man when it's time for him to come home. So instead like I always planned I made something of myself and followed through with that nursing thing. I'm a Pediatric Physician Assistant, I help out kids ranging from infancy through eighteen. It's funny ass hell when all the boys from 15 – 18 hit on me, some of them be cute too but I got to keep it professional. I would never cross that line anyway. Sometimes on certain nights I do a group thing where we meet up with girls and we talk about everything from sex to everyday life. So I still get to do what I love, even though it's not a full time aspect of my life.

"Mijo, you going to see your grandpa and grandma tomorrow !"

"No!"

I laughedm "Why don't you want to see them baby?"

"I want Mommy Daddy!"

I smiled, "Daddy is going to pick you up!"

"No, mommy and daddy!"

"Touch luck kiddo, we can't always get what we want!"

"Daddy's home!" Chris said shouting as he walked through the door.

Mijo ran out from my arms to Chris within seconds, he loves him so much. Better not love him more than me though, seeing a little favoritism going on.

"Hey man, I missed you!" Chris said tossing him up in the air.

I began picking up Mijo's toys out the floor, "What are you doing?" Chris asked.

"What does it look like, I'm picking up his toys." I said nonchalantly with confusion.

"I said Daddy is home, that applies to you too come over here." He smiled holding Mijo.

Once I walked over to him we hugged and he kissed me "Ewww!" Mijo said covering his eyes.

We both laughed, "What's the matter? Your daddy can't kiss your mommy?" Chris said kissing me again to see his reaction.

"Ewww!" Mijo said scrunching his face.

Chris laughed as he put Mijo down, he began smooching my face as she scooped me up into his arms. "Okay, okay that's enough your spitting on my face." I laughed. "You seem extra today, is there something I should you worried about?" I smiled.

He laughed. "Nah baby you good, get dress we're going out. Don't worry about Mijo, I'll get him dressed ."

Once in a blue moon Chris does something like this where he'll come home, play with Mijo and act as if we're completely together and everything between us is perfect. But this all fades away within a week, then we're right back where we started. I have needs, I want a man to love me no matter mad I get at him, love me no matter fat I get or annoying, and love me for me. Not someone who is going to love when he feels it's time to, or when he feels like giving me all I need. Is it too much to ask for?

Once they were both ready I took them to the Lakers game tonight, if Brielle asked I definitely wasn't going to tell her where or how I got the tickets on short notice. Brielle can say how much she doesn't care about what I do when I'm out or who I'm with, but I know she does. Sometimes she'll say I don't care it's Mijo you should be worried about but that's just an excuse.

As we enjoyed the game Mijo sat at in my lap imitating me every time I cheered or tried to call the refs out on their bullshit, Brielle was enjoying herself too. All smiles as she had her eyes on Dwight Howard.

"Come on Dwight! Show'em how we do it baby!" She shouted

"Enjoying yourself?" I said looking over at her.

"Do you see my baby taking control of the court, handle that rock baby !" She shouted.

I laughed shaking my head focusing back at the game, as half time was ringing in I looked to my left and saw Jasmine walking in with Teyana Taylor and some other girls she usually chills with.

"Hey, I see you made it I knew you wouldn't blow this game off." She said hugging me as I held the tickets. Once she wrapped her arms around me I quickly whispered in her ear for her not to saying anything about it .

"Hi munchkin, you look so cute today! Hello Brielle." Jasmine said with a smile.

Brielle smiled with a petty expression,"Hi."

Damn, I did not expect for Jasmine to be here especially sit right by us. Guarantee Brielle is going to think that I set this shit up, I'm not trying to share my time with Jasmine and her. There's a time when we can kick it as friends but that shit ain't now, my family comes first right now.

The rest of the time I didn't say anything to Jasmine, like expected Lakers beat that ass afterwards I managed to get Brielle in the back to personally talk to Dwight. She was all up on him like damn let the nigga breathe, once we got into the car he was all I heard about. Like did you forget your man was sitting right beside you? When we got home I gave Mijo a bath and put him to sleep, then devoted all my time to her.

"I don't want you to go back to work." I said as we cuddle up on the couch.

"Why not?"

"Cause, I'll miss you." I pouted.

She laughed, "I have to go make my money too, you not the only one who pays bills."

"I don't want my woman working, when you have your man taking care of things."

She slowly turned her head back towards me reeling in what I just said. "So I'm your woman now?"

"Did I stutter ?" I smiled biting his lip.

"Why the sudden change of heart? Few days ago you was a bit iffy on the situation, now all of a sudden you actually want to try this out?"

"I don't think I need anymore time to know that you're what I want, why search for better when I got the best right here?"

She smiled and kissed me, her my cheeks become rosy. Felt like it suddenly got hot in here "Good answer, you sure about that?"

"Yeah it's what you want too right ?"

"Only if you're man enough to mean what you say, don't just do this because of some stupid reason. If I'm your girl I should be your only girl, make sure them hoes know about me I shouldn't have to know about your hoes."

I laughed, "Trust me there was nobody but you and that's how it's going to be."

I smiled as she placed herself in my lap, our lips met. Praying that I won't regret this decision later, if I wanted to cheat or get with somebody else I would have done it by now. But if everything is right for the time being why fuck it up, I shouldn't have a problem being faithful besides I need to set an example for my son.

"Promise me one thing first, if you ever so dare to cheat on me you'll leave me first. Don't have me find out through blogs that you're fucking around with someone else. I know how it is out there and I don't want you to hide anything from me. Second, if this doesn't work out I still want to be friends for the sake of Mijo. Third don't fuck around with me Chris, you know how I can get if you play me out. This isn't a threat baby boy it's a promise, I will cut your dick in your sleep. Understood?"

I laughed, "Yes Ma'am."

"Good boy," she laughed as we continued to kiss. Officially now as Chris and Brielle.

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10/2 - Sorry to interrupt this story, but I had to reel in this moment. 11/06/2012 Obama was reelected, I was still at my Uncle's house due to hurricane Sandy in New Jersey knocking out my power. In that time I had began writing this story in his house, during my time there we bonded like never before. At the time, my relationship with my dad was not great and he filled the void in a week of what I needed at the time in 17 years. My Uncle died last week September 28, 2017 I did not get to say goodbye.

Man, he was the most kindest man you'll meet. In that week, I really wanted to tell him how he was a great father figure. He even put me on to watching Wrestling, I went to church with him which is something I rarely do.

I will be flying out to New Jersey this week to say goodbye, only it won't to a viewing because he was already cremated. I really hope his spirit can hear me. I want him know I'm sorry for not seeing him when I just fucking left there the end of August. I'm sorry for not calling him September 4th on his birthday. I can't forget it because it's four days before mine. Every time, I open a chapter to edit. I think about my time there in his house. So bare with me I'll have the rest out soon. Sorry for the rant.