Brielle

"I'm not good at showcasing my feeling to guys, bad as it sounds I expect them to know what I'm feeling. Why should I always have to make the first move? That shit is getting old ." I said to Chyna as we limbered up in the gym.

"I find that hard to believe since your ass has such a way with word. yet you can't open up your mouth to tell your damn man what you feel. I swear Brielle, anybody can see that he got open like a book. You're too hard, loosen up it's okay to let him take the wheel."

"All that shit you saying going in one ear and out the other, because it's already done!"

Chyna's face lit up with shock, "Don't tell me you left him?"

I smiled brightly. "Noo, we made it official last night."

She screamed and threw herself on top of me, "For real? Damn it's about time, I'm so happy for you! Shit I don't even want to work out anymore, let me know what's going on! How do you feel?"

I smiled for the first time, a feeling of butterflies came up in my stomach. "I feel different, I kind of don't like it!" I laughed, "I feel too much of a damn girl. I'm not one to let that side of me show, so it's different displaying that type of affection."

"You make it sound like he's your first everything, you have had guys before Chris right?"

"Yeah, but I was young back then and didn't know what the fuck I was doing. This shit is different, Chris is my baby's father. Before I could happily leave and do whatever the hell I want, but now that I have kid I need to watch what I do. I don't want none of the things Chris and I get into to affect him."

"Y'all did have sex last night right?"

"No, I ain't stupid. I got to keep it on lock for now, I want to slow things down for right now. Just to make sure this is right you know? I don't want sex in the way right now, we have too much sex any damn way." I smiled

"What's your favorite thing he does to you?" Chyna asked placing her hands perfectly underneath her chin.

I laughed, "What kind of question is that?"

"A damn good one, come on just answer." She anxiously smiled.

I smiled getting on all fours to demonstrate. "Okay well when he's hitting it the back, he likes to grab at me. Since I don't have long hair, he grabs on to my neck tilting my head back." I laughed.

Chyna rolled over to her back and laughed. "Michael does that too, expect I have hair to pull. When we have sex it's bananas, I'm talking fireworks! Adrenaline rush, all that crazy shit. I may not have went through the best life choices, but out of everything I'm glad to have him! He is my everything and I wouldn't give this up for the world."

"When's the wedding date?" I jokingly asked.

"Right at the peak of December, I want a winter wedding. All white everything with a classic red. Cake is going to be red velvet cake, decorations are red, it's going to be beautiful."

"Bitch y'all blood or something? Whose designing your dress?" I joked around.

I laughed shaking her head no, "Versace!" We both said in unison, why would I even ask if I know every damn thing they have is Versace.

She smiled, "I'm scared but I can't wait!"

"What? You? Scared? When the hell did you develop feelings "

She laughed. "Look I may walk around like things don't bother me, but I have feelings like everybody else. This is a big step for u, marriage is some shit you don't want to play with! I want to do this right."

It's too early for me to think about marriage, but I would love to get married one day soon! But when I get married I want to stay married, I don't care how shitty it could be. Long as I'm not getting my ass beat and my kids don't suffer. Divorce isn't an option.

"Anyways tell me in all seriousness, how do you honestly feel now?" Chyna asked.

"Honestly? Happy I guess, now I know this is real. I haven't been wasting my time. I'm just . . . Scared, the one thing I don't want is too lose him as a friend. Chyna for real besides you he's my only friend I have, I just don't want to lose that ever. We've been doing things backwards, it feels different now taking things how they should be. What if he hurts me and I don't recover from that?"

"Don't worry if he's been good to you for this long, I'm sure you'll be okay in the long run. Besides, all broken hearts mend eventually."

"But what if I don't?"

Chris

I need to get something off my chest, yesterday while I was with Jasmine having lunch something happen to me. Jasmine kept asking me what I was looking at when I looked at her. I couldn't figure it out at first but I realized what she made me do, it was something about her that caught me off guard. The way she reeled me into her without descending into flirtation tripped me, for the moment I was feeling her. But if it wasn't for that I probably wouldn't have done what done what I did yesterday, I'm glad I took that step with Brielle. She damn sure ain't perfect but she's worth something, I should have been did it I just needed that push.

"Mijo, you had fun at Papi's house?" I asked.

But he didn't respond to me, when I took a quick look in the backseat he was knocked out. Turning back around laughing, I turned down the radio at bit so it wouldn't bother him too much. Hopefully his ass will stay sleep through the night because I actually want a peaceful night with Brielle. This is how we should've been before Mijo, but I'm happy to have him here too. When I pulled into the driveway I carefully took him out the car seat. Taking him up stairs to his room, slipped him into his Buzz Light Year Pj's and placed him in the crib.

Afterwards I went downstairs and lit the fireplace, we barely use it obviously with Mijo tearing shit up and always in things. I went to the closet and pulled out this big fleece white blanket then stepped to the kitchen to see what we had to drink. I placed the bottle of Moet Hennessy in a silver bucket of ice and cut roses out the backyard. Sprinkled the petals on the floor and set a bowl of strawberries there as well. Looking at the clock it was only 7:44 PM she could be home any minute. I sprung my ass in the shower and hopped out smelling all good and sweet. Once I got back down stairs I dimmed the lights down low in the living room. As soon as I did she walked in the front door.

"Why is it so dark in here?" She questioned.

"Look around, shhh you hear that?"

"No, why what's going on? Where's Mijo?" She whispered.

I smiled walking slowly over towards her, once I reached her I stood behind her kissing the nape of her neck as I took off her jacket. "Sleeping, the house is all ours. No disturbance, just us."

She smiled. "Uhh ohh, I see Hennessy on the floor. We going to have us a good time tonight! Something is about to go down," she laughed facing her body towards me.

Grabbing her by the hand I led her into the living room onto the blanket as we sat around the fire place.

"You went all out tonight," she smiled.

"For good reasons." I said picking up a strawberry and feeding it to her. Brielle laughed as it dripped down to her chin. "You look nice, what did you do today besides work and miss me?" I asked.

She smiled looking towards the fire then back down at me. "Thinking about you all day and talked to Chyna."

"What did you talk about?"

She blushed a bit. "Who else, you."

Pouring the Hennessy into the glasses. "And you say that the world don't revolve around me?"

"Don't get cocky nigga," she smiled laying down on the blanket. Propping her head up at me using her hands for stability "Who knew you could be this sweet though, I appreciate this it's showing me a lot about you right now."

"I didn't do this for you, I did it for us."

She smiled letting out a laugh, "Well sorry dickhead, this us thing is very new to me."

"Call me that again we that again and we gon' fight, now give me those lips punk." I said making my way on top of her.

Brielle smiled turning her head once I leaned down "No."

"What?" I said trying again

She turned her head again and smiled. "I said no, you deaf ?"

I began tickling her "You better give me a kiss!"

She laughed and squirmed until she finally gave in. If I had to get soft right now with the way I feel I would say that kissing her brings me back to the first time. First time we kissed and had sex, both things I won't never forget because they mean a lot to me. Shit I got a two in one that day, first time we kissed and had sex with each other. Brielle had my first kid, damn near my first everything. I will be completely honest is it wrong for me to say she's basic? Nothing wrong with that, because that's the number one thing I love about her the most.

Every other girl plasters their face with makeup, lower themselves by dressing like hoe, all just to feel beautiful. First of all, if you act like a hoe we going to treat you like a hoe. Second you don't need that shit to be beautiful. I can't lie and say same of you don't need it because you damn sure do! But don't over do it, you may think you look like a bad bitch but your ass be looking like Bozo the Clown you need to do better. Brielle on the other hand don't do too much of it, her personality is what makes her beautiful. Is it bad if I say I seen women more beautiful than her?

But yet no matter how better looking they can be, she'll always be placed over them. In the beginning I told myself I would never in my life see Brielle in this light that she's in now. I would never imagine doing half the shit we been through with each. Brielle was suppose to stay my friend and nothing more, I'm definitely not complaining though, things change.