This is mostly going to be Scarlett because they were best friends and it's going to be really sad so prepare yourselves

I was walking the red carpet with my husband, Colin, as people kept screaming my name and taking pictures

While the cameras were going of with bright light I tried to have conversations with the people I saw along the way. Florence as one of the first and after followed Evans and Adam Driver.

When we finally made it inside and found our table I sat down and sighed. I usually loved this kinda things where you got to met people and have a good time but I along with my closest friends knew today was going to be emotionally draining

Along me and Colin Jeremy and his wife sat with us and soon we were joined by the Russos who had directed the movie we were all nominated for. Avengers One Last Time

RDJ was at on the table next to us along with Chris and Chris and two of their wife's. I could see another table with Lizzie and Brie as well as that one empty chair. That would never be filled

The night soon started and Oscars was given out. It was very rare Thea superhero movie as nominated but this one was something extra and everyone knew that

The movie was nominated for best movie. Y/n and Robert was down as leading rolls for male and female. Lizzie, Me and Evans was for best supporting actor or actress. Special effects was another one but we had nothing to do with that it was all the editing team. Last but not least best photo

We unfortunately don't win best special effects, best photo or best movie. Evans didn't get for supporting actress and I was now patiently waiting for mine and Lizzie's nominations

When they rolled we looked at each other sending smiles knowing if the other won we wouldn't be mad. So when they called her name I was probably the one who cheered loudest

Her speech was beautiful and she really did deserve it. She hugged me on the way back to her table as she sat down and I could see the sad look see sent to the forever empty chair

Robert didn't win and we were now on todays last award. Leading female roll. The nominations showed and I was about to cry from just seeing the woman who we all loved so much

And when her name slowly rolled of the presenters lips I was shocked, sad and happy. Of course she deserved it but I didn't think I was going to need to take home someone else award tonight

I stood up and walked sup the stairs knowing it was said that I was going to do it if she won. I took the award from his hands and looked at it before I tuned to the crowed

"Last time I stood up here I wasn't alone. I had her arm over my shoulders as we smiled" I tear fell down my cheek as I spoke. "We won best movie back then and we only got one of these. She let me take it. It has been standing in my house ever since. But now it feels so wrong to take this. This was hers. This is hers and I know she would want to thank everyone who had any part in the movie. She would thank her family who always watch her form above and she would thank her friends. Hemsworth. I know see didn't always show it but she thought of you as her brother. Robert. She adored you. Lizzie. She secretly loved when you would bring her food. Evans. She actually liked the jokes because she would tell them to other people. Sebastian and Mackie. She enjoyed your guys running around. And to everyone else in the Marvel family she felt like home with you guys and home was something that she didn't just say. She meant it. And last I hope she would thank me. For all the years we have spent together. All the heartbreaks and all the weddings. All the highs all the lows. All the laughs all the tears. But why woman can only take so many of the lows and I wish every day that I could have changed something to change her mind but I wasn't the one to break her. She broke over something anyone else would look at and say that's just bull shit but when you are on the edge anything can push you over. I just want everyone to know that a small act of kindness can give someone just a few seconds more to think it through and decide against ending it all"

With tears rolling down my face was start walking down the stairs and I'm taken into multiple hugs on the way by people who knew her or the cast who is crying just as much.

When I finally made it to my husband I sat down and hugged him silently crying as the gold man stood on the table. "Where do you want to put it" He asked when I had stopped shaking.

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