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CHAPTER 46

Everything happens so fast.

As if it’s all on fast forward, everything flashes by in a blink of an eye, with one minute I’m still in Tom’s room, then the next.....

We’re at the hospital.

I haven’t been to a hospital since... my dad died.

And never intended to go back as it brought back too many memories, memories which I didn’t want to see happen again.

But this time, I can’t help it, and in all the chaos, I forget that tiny detail of not stepping foot inside a hospital for two years, and this time rush through along with everyone else, dead at night....to see our little brother.

Our little brother who we have no clue what is wrong with him.

And that scares me.

“Excuse me....I’m sorry but you all can’t go in there...” A young nurse tells us over all the panicked nose as we watch the small toddler being wheeled off down a corridor, for what reason we don’t know.

I stare at the nurse as if she’s crazy, can’t let us through?....why the hell not?!

Mom thou gets to go through, and just as I’m about to push my way through an arm wraps around me stopping me from moving...

“Lex....come on, let’s go wait back here...” Blake calmly tells me holding me back, “He’ll be okay..” He adds whispering and steers me away, only catching the last glimpse of the retreating trolley my brother’s laying on.

He’ll be okay......how do you know that?

We don’t even know what’s wrong with him.

Getting pulled back against my liking, we enter a big room full of sofas and chairs...a few people already in here, so I gather it’s a waiting room...and with everyone else here, everyone else includes everyone who’s old enough to be left alone for a day......

Charles is home with the others who are either still asleep or he’s trying to get back to sleep....as me and the older ones would not stay home.

There’s no way I would have stayed home.

I wouldn’t be able to stay away from someone who I love...

Not knowing what’s happening or what’s wrong is hard enough....

Oh gosh.....Tom please be okay.....

I don’t know what I’ll do without him.........

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“I’m so sorry for your loss...”

Those few words.

Hearing those six petty words can make your whole world come crashing down...

My heart clenches as I hear those words, a heavy impact feeling as if I can’t breathe as images from the past flood my mind, taking over my thoughts.

Those six petty useless words that doctors don’t even mean when they tell you, they have no idea what it’s like, it’s 6 words to them, nothing more, things they say daily.

But for anyone on the receiving end to them...

It’s life changing.

My teary eyes glance up to the family just across from us, where the grave looking doctor stands in his white coat, with that mask of professional sympathy look to the family that he’s just told this life changing news to.

Sobbing soon filled the waiting room as those few people break down, and I have to look away from them as it brings a lump to my throat.....as I know exactly what they are going through right now....

First you don’t believe it...thinking it’s some twisted nasty joke and that that person will walk through the door any minute.....

But they don’t.....and suddenly it slowly sinks in.....hitting you like a tonne of bricks....

And every possible emotion you feel in those few seconds that you’re told that a loved one died...

It’s hard to explain the emotions of going through a lose that you’ve experienced......because we all act differently.....but what I do know is that you have no idea what the hell you are gunna do next.....

Watching these people across the room, I just can’t bare it....it’s causing me to think up every scenario of what could happen with Tom.

Because we’ve been sat here for ages...and mom still hasn’t come back to tell us anything, which only leads me to think the worse....

Oh gosh....what if To-

I bring my legs up on the chair I’m sat on, shaking my head stopping my thoughts and wrap my arms around them, burying my head into my knees as memories flood back to me but also thoughts of what could happen....

“Lexi?” A voice speaks through the quiet and my eyes snap up towards the matching blue of mine.

“He’s gunna be okay Lex...” Seth whispers to me for like the millionth time tonight and squeezes my hand comfortingly as mine is clasped in his.

Ever since getting here, I haven’t left Seth’s side as he’s the first person that was by my side, and any previous thoughts about him tonight have been forgotten...as I need him right now....just like everyone else.

He’s always the first one I would go to.

No matter what he or I’ve done.

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The sound of the door of the waiting room opening causes me to snap my eyes open and sit straight up in my chair, eyes darting straight over to the door...where a familiar figure of our mother walks through...

Within seconds we’re all up on our feet desperately wanting to know what’s up....

Our mom’s face looks tired and drained as she approaches us that I have a tightening feeling in my stomach, holding my breath in thinking it’s something bad...

“So.... mom? What’s going on?” Aston speaks up going to my mom who looks like she’s about to drop of any minute now...

Sighing deeply she looks up to all of us “He’s alright”

I can feel my entire body relax at my mother’s words, as that’s all I’ve been wanting to hear all night...but then I tense up looking back to her as I can feel a ‘but’ coming on...

Taking a deep breath mom speaks again “Tom’s alright, he’s gunna be okay.....but...” see...there it is.

“But what?” I find my voice and it comes out as a quiet squeak....

Mom sighs again “But he’s in surgery...”

My eyes bulge at her words, surgery? What?!

“No , no....calm down, it’s not as bad as it sounds...” mom quickly adds seeing all out expressions...

“Tom’s having his Appendix taken out” She tells us “He had Appendicitis......”

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No matter how much I refused to leave......I was still made to in the end.

At 6 O’clock in the morning we all got back home except for mom who’s staying up there with Tom. Even thou with how much I wanted to stay, to stay till he woke up...I didn’t as for one reason...I was more or less dragged out of there by Blake and Aston...as they were ordered to take us home.

I’m relieved that it’s nothing more serious...but then again I still want to be in there with Tom, to be there when he wakes up.

But at least mom’s there...that’s the best I guess.

Arriving home, I was tired, yes. Knackered yes, as been up most of the night....but I would not be able to sleep no matter what because my mind will be too set on worrying about Tom.

I don’t really pay attention to much once we get home, only knowing Charles and a pregnant Daisy is up meeting us once we get here...but I just slouch on back up stairs to my room.....

Once in my room I feel emotions bubble up, and I try to swallow them back down. The fear of not knowing what was going on was just as scary as the fear of knowing what was about to happen.

And with Tom....it just brought back too many memories, I really did think I was going to lose him...

Shaking my head fiercely, I frown not wanting to think about that I walk across to my window thinking of getting some air to clear my thoughts...

Pushing open the window, I sigh, slumping down onto the window seat and closing my eyes.

I can’t help but think the ‘what if’s’ for some reason.

What if we didn’t get Tom to the hospital in time?

What if it was something more serious than just appendicitis?

What if something went wrong during the surgery? Because I’ve read before that some people don’t wake up from the anaesthetic!

Oh gosh....what if-

“Lexi!”

Opening my eyes at the sudden call of my name...I blink, looking around confused...until I turn to look out the window...

There opposite my window, I see a shirtless Noah, leaning out of his and trying to get my attention.

He may be a good few meters away from his house to mine, but I can still see the expression on his face....

A look of worry? I think.

I shift position so I’m more leaning out the window looking to him in the dull light of dawn I can make out the garden just...with the help from my bedroom light and his pouring out the window...

Making eye contact with him, he nods down towards something in his hand and I squint my eyes....seeing his phone.

Frowning confused, I don’t get what he means until I suddenly hear a beep sounding somewhere off in my room.

My phone.

sliding of the window seat I search for my phone.

Why is he messaging me?

Finding it hidden under my pillow, I pull it out walking back over to the window seat.

I heard what happened, is Tom okay? Are you? - Noah.

I read his text as I sit down on the seat, glancing up through the open window to Noah across, he’s texting me because he can’t shout over what he wants to say? Okay then.

Turning the phone in my hands, I start to type back a simple message.

He’s alright thanks. Staying in hospital for tonight with mom. – Lexi

Sending that, I ignore his question directed to me, not wanting to answer.

Watching Noah across in his room look down to his phone, reading my text, moments later... my phone buzzes...signalling his reply.

Gosh, poor little guy, glad he’s doing good thou :), and you didn’t answer....are you alright?- Noah

I roll my eyes at the text, of course he just has to press further.

I’m fine- Lexi

Is my simple reply as I bring my feet up onto the window seat with me sitting comfortably....before being interrupted by the buzz of my phone..

Somehow I don’t believe you, but okay....for now I’ll leave you ;), but anyway......I see your still in pyjama’s? Hmm...that must have been fun.... :P- Noah.

Rolling my eyes once again at his text, thinking it’s some kind of pervy comment...but then again, it’s his way of changing the subject, and, or cheering me up?

Because even if I will never admit this to him or anyone else.....his little comments do, tend to crack a small, faint smile on my face....even if it’s annoying.

He somehow has a way of making me forget about something for either a long period of time, or a shirt while, but either way.......I like that.

Not believing I just admitted that to myself, I type him back a sarcastic, maybe little rude text....but it earns a laugh from him....

Which strangely....earns a small secret smile from me.

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